By the way..https://highheartlife.wordpress.com/2017/05/11/dealing-with-growing-freedom-growing-separation-from-team-dark-influences/. Denise Le fey refers to Carlos Castenada

Denise le fey discusses The Active Side of Infinity (1998). Carlos Castaneda “departed his definitive journey in 1998”. 

Dealing With Growing Freedom & Growing Separation From Team Dark Influences

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This article by Denise le Fey explains a lot for me. 

At The end she talks about the obvious difficulties of living without someone else driving your car for you. We are just not used to being in the driving seat of our own lives, quite literally, and so will take time to work out where we even want to go. Also even to figure out how to get the car back into the pristine condition before it had the unseen invader crashing it for us.....It can cause us a few problems as we get to grips with it. The car analogy is mine, as my body is feeling like it has been crashed a few times lately, and I am trying to get back into the driving seat. 

If you are guided to read it, then the article will probably be very helpful, as it was to me. 

This morning I was getting really fed up of the whole Ascension Process as my body aches were "proving to me" that I must be getting it so wrong......

My thoughts on are as follows.

If I had read this even a few years ago I would not have understood it. But today it makes so much sense. 


 I had an acupuncture treatment yesterday, to help iron out all the physical tightness in my bodies after doing an immense amount of inner work. Today I can feel the memory of the muscular spasms and the soreness, still. The treatment showed me that the muscles in my body were almost entirely tensed and squeezed. The muscles tension in my stomach was reaching out and downward causing pain to my legs and knees. It was also reaching out and around and squeezed my pelvis into a shockingly tight grip.  The acupuncturist obviously sees this a lot, but I was shocked at the degree to which my body was tied up in muscular  tension. It didn't make sense, I meditate, a lot, and I am a healer. But I do spend a lot of time in my head. So My body was reacting to the outside stimuli, both seen and unseen,  and my meditations had not succeeded in persuading my body  that it had nothing to worry about. My body continues to take in outside 'intel', information gathered by those radar systems we don't recognise we have, and because we can't see this stuff, and use our innate equipment properly, our heads and sensory perceptions are being by passed and are not computing to our bodies about it, so our bodies are not having this 'unseen' stuff validated and have no guidance to act upon it. 

Meditation, healing, inner spiritual alignment all works to bring to light, eventually, the depths to which we must endure, to find our authentic, sovereign self.

Meanwhile as the inner work alienates us from outside chaos, and isolates us from the illusion.......the body is still flinching and reacting to unseen debris being thrown at it. 

In order to throw off the invaders we have to pull back from the world they created (through and via us, and the subsequent predatory regimes that grew) and which we continue to allow until we stop. 

To withdraw from the tentacles and umbilical cords that we have been fed through and which in turn feeds them, causes us pain. Its a symbiotic arrangement.  Until we have the inner structures in place to allow us the grace of being free from it, we will continue to have the relationship rearranged, as in the article discussed...“the flyers’ mind is still with you, it’s been damaged but it’s trying it’s best to rearrange its relationship with you.”

All withdrawal is painful.

Michaela.