Sunday 14 January 2024

Synchronicity. I found a recent talk by Marina Jacobi, who talks about the creation experiment and prehistoric consciousness. Further to the discussion - Versions of consciousness creating different frequency and manipulation of consciousness. Of course there is NO mention of my " abandonment bone" theory (my phrase, as its only just opening out in my consciousness and I don't have a full vocabulary to describe it yet, I only have intuitive reading of symbols which distinguish its presence as an identification )... BUT, but if you read/listen between the lines, we know that consciousness located in the human, has been manipulated to become war-like, and warriors. WAS this ALL just to push us through the veils of mystery, that distresses and disturbs humanity, in order for humanity to fall out the other side, fully formed initiates, after apprenticeships gained through the fog of time? https://marinajacobi.com/live-webinar-replay/ .. And a link to the bible wrongly translated about the same thing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLwDBEMjAxs Michaela

Maybe the abandonment theory is tied into the religious concept of original sin; where man turned away from god and Got lost. ABANDONED. The concept of original sin has been a curse and a cross that many believed in and then carried through lives. Perhaps it is the code that became the puzzle, that became the dogma and symbolism of mystery and initiatives....similar to the bandages wrapped around egyptian mummies keeping their closely guarded secrets locked inside. The word Elohim used in the bible actually properly refers to a group of multiple 'gods', turning on its head the 'one god' scenario. So this single god depicted by the old authors is actually some pretty screwy demi gods (?) acting as 'god' and causing demonic mayhem.... Could it get any more warped??? The patriarhal god is actually a group of privileged and entitled overlords (possibly the archon or off planet baby sitters that came and never left....Which, when acting like football hooligans, sweeping the floor with the consciousness of the very naive and very scared, humanity... they accomplished the complete cut off and abandonment of earths people to its origins of any kind of a 'TRUE' God. Michaela https://marinajacobi.com/live-webinar-replay/ and discussing the bible https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLwDBEMjAxs

Saturday 13 January 2024

Uncharted territory in Finding the abandonment 'bone'.... A backbone Journalling

the waves of the last few months have had me recognising the link we all have to Abandonment....Not the psychiatric ticked box, but the depth to which it has been incarcerated within us, and locked-in over life times. This has been the energetic trauma atomised into molecules, grouping together to Alchemise into the trauma gene. Calcified into an etheric 'bone-like' substance and secreted somewhere in the body. We cannot let go of this 'bone' because we cannot see it, its is unidentified as being of etheric reality, and its place is deep within us. Its precipitation began with the original seperation from God, Source, or the source of the beginning of life, separated from mother, from planet, from our undefined origins... to be plunged into the motorways of 3d earth, of death and rebirth, each time this perceived separation is recycled and renegotiated. Without a perceptible tangible nourishmnet for our growing, humanity became lost from spiritual origin and became the orphan. Lifetime after lifetime, internal spilling out of this dillemna created the trauma and then created the subconscious panic. Fear of Nature, and the unknown origin of their 'beingness' was the fire to create the motivation to get things going from the times of the cradle that grew humanity. Humans panicked to take shelter inside the stormy realms of each other, and needed society and social groups to become an organised evolution through the percieved choas of nature and then to survive the tribal clashes and competition for food and shelter. Eventually the loudest voices and strongest personality took the leadership roles and humanity continued on that track through our known history of this crazy, dense, 3rd dimensional zone. From the earliest times of 'this'* kind of history the lowest common denominator was helplessness and FEAR. AND our early emotions, not yet given names and definitions, were formed from the crucible of 'early reaction and response' where Knee-jerk reactions of fight, flight and freeze were dutifully constructed by the chemical make up of the body, ensuring the appropriate enzyme production was linked to react within the environment....the raw primal first-reaction to nature and environment was seeded with deep rooted 'abandonment'. Not in a formal acknowledgment, or a discussed emotional sense, but it was as loud as an internal scream from no internal voice. But with no obvious 'Abandonment' cause, humans just populated the earth and, either became one with the earth and allowed that experience to be its 'Mother'**, or negated its parenatage to live as perceived orphans thrown about mercilessly in the waves of a life span undetermined by anything other than death. So then Abandonment, Fear and Death and what we did and felt about those things... became the etheric modification in the bones of the body. Replicated enzyme reaaction as instructed by DNA. Specifically the backbone, and specifically hidden within the energetic area of the spine that binds the backbone to the earth. Most aspects of 'known science'*** that we are allowed to learn and to 'know' about the body, facts such as : the heart is a pump, that 90% of DNA is junk and What is considered normal and healthy for body and mind, WILL eventually come to light as being grossly inadequate or downright wrong. As the new buzz word is trauma and stress grows in its buzz, it is found that PTSD and most, if not all mental health conditions are different disempowering or motivating events that wreak havoc on the individuals life. Me too. I was writing about stress on face book years ago and devouring as much information as i could find on the sympathetic vagus nervous system, at a time when even my doctor had laughed at the idea that stress can cause illness. So now we are in the buzz of trauma on social media, and that is good, and for the last year, 2023 I have been titrating down my experience. I gave up paid work as the stress and health implications were shouting so loud that I had no choice but to get to the bottom of it personally. But it is not a fast exploration because what put it there.... cannot be quickly identified and medicated, or rather should not. So i designated the last 6 months for healing and recovery. Spiritually and ethically and etherically, where you plan to be for your highest good, will be assisted to happen. AND that includes some crunching and stomach turning events, some mad cognitive dissonance and all manner of 'items' on a hidden personal check list to be lived through, observed and integrated and released. This is uncharted territory. And the map made is only quantified or qualified by a persons journalling, or visits to a counsellor, BUT the bigger strides cannot be evidenced in an empiracle way. It is all experiential. It is what it is, AND spiritually, If that is what you need to do.... than nothing else will made availabe to you. Every problem or 'instance' in life now will have a ounce or a measure of it tied up within it, for healing of self...to the uncovering of the self. WE DO THIS to be free from FEAR and the original seed of abandonment (germination of motivation through the medium of conflict and contrast) in order to be the successful superhuman.... that all this craziness has been about. Going from A -Z in a many-lives journey, means most of us are at the stage of debriefing. And like coming back from the war with PSTD, many need hospitilisation and counselling. This is a time that we do this, Uncover the trauma and stress from 3d life, and through all its hang ups and density we get to see our guts...skin and bone, displayed for our personal internal learning process. I decided that for me The last piece of the puzzle is in finding the abandonment bone. So, in september I was churning through self healing, and recovery after a strongly disabling illness conjured in the crucible of stress. So I was taking it easy. and looking at my garden....A ' stomach crunching' instance in that period was having to pay for the asbestos garage in the garden to be taken down and removed. All symbolic by the way. Toxic and damaged, the garage was the construction in the garden that was destroying any peace i take there. The Huge physical effort of emptying the garage of huge piles of junk was bit by bit....the amount of money involved was stressful.....are all analagous to the healing journey.....AND ARE all factors in these instances in life that are part of the symbolic/ metaphysical healing process. Simply put, 'real' life mimics or mirrors whats inside you, to you, on your healing journey. So I was ill at the time but the thing had to come down. So It did...the next problem (lower level) arose: an ugly space, empty and raw, shattered concrete floor still remains. But worse was the 'unseen til now', backbone of a bomb shelter wall that had been hidden. So the next layer down was (and it remains) a 2 foot high remnant of deeply rooted wall of a bomb shelter. This was unobservable until the asbestos garage was finally taken down. It is so deep into the ground, that was its design to be bomb proof. The waved ridges along it are of concrete and cement held for years in is wavey metal corrugated skeleton form. And looks like the remains of a an excavated dinosaur, an excavated back bone. I kept looking at it every day thinking "it is showing me something, what is it showing me" all the while the idea of abandonment was whispering at me. All things mirror or mimic your story on a healing journey.......A Bomb proof shelter, from the war. WAR! WAR. BOMB BOMB BOMB. Trauma Trauma. BONE, Abandoned..... The issue of abandonment is the vulnerabilty that seeds disease and death in sadness OR seeds great motivation. Where Necessity is The MOTHER of invention. Look in the faces of people in any crowd picture of war, any war from any time, and now more so in the latest wars. What is seen is abandonment, where we have become unknowingly, lost in our own abandonment we have abandoned others to theirs. Observable pain and destruction occurring wars where before we were removed from it. it was hidden from us but deeply affected humanity as a whole at its core. Abandonment is no longer hidden, germinating in a hidden place in the backbone, it is being flushed out for all to see, and for all to heal. Two things then. the first is that it is being flushed out through our human systems to be seen, a word that not many people would perhaps NOT identify with, but is an essence deep within the wound of humanity, Abandonment. Angry Frustration fear and despairing, lost overwhelmed, lashing out, defencive aggressive, or.... limping along, alone. Alone in their sadness even in the media loud crowded event of 2023. Abandoned....No Mother, never had a Mother, or Mother has been destroyed, abandonment. So IS IT That the issue of abandonment is the vulnerabilty that seeds disease and death in sadness, and DEATH IS THE POSSIBLE OUTCOME OR ONLY OUTCOME. OR is it the 2nd option, where abandonment seeds great motivation. Where Necessity is The MOTHER of invention. SO what will come out with it. What does this necessitate, what will it's uncovering recover? AND what will 'it' be Mother to ?????. What is to be birthed By its NOW being seen, All be it.... in the form of population locked into trauma, again, and others locked into SHAME again, UGLY and DE HUMANISING. Humans have been dipping into and out of this type of existence for so long and the 'backbone' of war has been carrying evolution away in leaps and bounds, downhill, fast and furious, seeking and searching for where the human in its evolution belongs.... HUMANITY belongs to itself, but NOW it belongs to the new version, healing of its abandonment... And it is the flushing out of it.... that is the Mother that necessitates or motivates that 'finding', to FIND US and to save us, ourselves. Michaela XXX *The history we have been told about. There are other versions of life that say in earlier times, other than those described in our recorded history, humans were always civilised, spiritual and created great lives: They knew who they were, with both knowledge and action in union aligned with a divine higher power. ** Mother is the great Mother, and very early, more spiritual civilisations, bonded with earth and Mother, and had direct knowledge of the sentient nature of Mother earth. The goddess cultures and mysteries alluding to the great life-giving features of the feminine, are tied up with the black void of fertile creation worshipping the power of the feminine. This great power of creation has been punctuating humanities evolution with the appearance on earth by feminine avatars of the goddess, mystic and priestess and wise woman, whereby the raw power allowed Personification of parts of itself throughout history. Then the patriarchy fearing the 'raw power' it wielded, acted to enslave and disempower, denigrate and deny existence of it wherever it raised its head. In so doing, historically, the patriachy chopped off half of the 'truth and balance' on the earth, causing it topple even further into mayhem and chaos. Unleashing new FEARs and the demons created by those fears. ***Known Science, what we are GIVEN to understand, (and we are not given everything) is only a fraction of what is Knowable, and within Huamn containers of knowledge at this time, can probably only be considered either as being a closely guarded mutilevel of secrets and lies, or information and disinformation muddying the waters of burgeonng enlightenment.

Thursday 2 November 2023

HOW what we are doing, has perspective within the world. Email to a friend: A Gentle intro For New comers who wish to understand the link between personal chaos and world chaos. (link to cc group presentation that gives insight to whats happening https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88n1P7RiZ3I )

Thu, 2 Nov at 10:41 Hi Jim. wow its so rainy and cold as November moves in, it starts to feel like things are closing in as we are invited to come into ourselves, and get ready to hibernate. I wish I had the country scene to look out onto. I am happy to help with meditation, and feel free to talk freely about stuff, it really does help to express whats happening, even if if it changes from day to day, which it will. As it stands currently, we are so far from 'normal' human cycles as the 'civilised' western world trundles on through daily grind of keeping commerce going. Its hard to feel into natural ways of being when we are constantly being bombarded with external influences that do not benefit health or wellbeing. The external influences act to distract us from the pure beingness that is the true state of what we could be. This distraction is done by many means, stress and worry, fear and drama.... is the daily download we are manipulated to be absorbing, or be immersed in. Then only when when we withdraw from the hustle and bustle we get to see how far we have come away from our true selves, how far we have been affected and how much we don't know our true selves, and floundering for a while we can't seem to find solid ground to stand on. Well.... I've been aware of all that, but still had to continue to hustle on doing what was put in front of me to do. Without my plan or desire or designs for the 'life I would like' being taken into consideration. It just shows how deep the beliefs and self programming goes. How strong repetitive action and unconscious belief is. It actually can be considered as fulfilling some contract it is so strong...or some Karma that has to be balanced, But withdrawing from it fully is like a tanker moving full steam but making a 180 degree turn in the ocean. awkward!!! crunching and once started there is no going back. I am probably not making much sense, but the world is transitioning also. So individually people are being called to make the changes in their personal energy systems... just as the world is transitioning in its energy systems...the concept is consciousness enlightenment...and it is a natural upward spiralling of the 'humanity-earth' complex as it is nestled in its place in the universe. It is consciousness and energy that is real, and 'matter' or the solidity of what we see around us is merely an expression of energy and consciousness. so in order to move with the upliftment of the consciousness, the energy source which is what runs our world, and is turning the ancient wheels to move onto the next level, beyond limitations of what we think we are. the body of people on earth are charged with the task of doing that. so the discomfort we have felt as individuals and as collectives are the internal rumbles of change inside us and our earth people systems. All have to be pulled apart and reset to higher values and increase our perceptions and perspectives to elevate the experience of being human in a world that is adding to and powering the consciousness on, to push, to evolve into where it requires itself to be. The feeling that you and I are having, that we need to be living more fully, we need to be enjoying life and creating the long held desires to be more than the limitations that we see around us. We need to break free from the self created prisons/ that have been held in place by external pressures to maintain a face ,and a function and be part of a value system that we absolutely have GROWN OUT OF....The consciousness of pace, evolution and people....that was in our personal history and world history....is changing...now and has been for a long time so individuals are waking up in different ways at different times as we begin to reach out to new versions of ourselves, we are like growing or becoming the Future citizens of evolving society, evolving populations on an evolving planet. think of a sci fi movie... where people are living in their full energy, fully happy consciousness beings, and none of the horrors of our world personal crisis and world crisis exist.... So as we are turning, one person at a time, it is uncomfortable and scary and its the unknown, because we have only known the struggle. The world is doing that too. Pushing against the struggle. We experience the push against our own internal prison walls as the world pushes against the limitations and stranglehold of lower vibrations of struggle, and need and corruption and vice, inequality and hate and violence ...it needs to stretch away from that. and we are going with it, we are riding that wave of values change, WE ARE THE CHANGE....breaking our internal prison walls down, prisons that requires alternating between dark night of the souls and grief, being alone and examining our energy systems, releasing and transforming. Clearing karmic contracts and tying up loose ends. Loos ends are the hardest, and implies the established ways of doing things until you can do something different. BUT we have to learn to trust our inner voices and intuition while we go through changes....and we need to know that we WOULD NOT be doing this IF WE COULD NOT...I mean, NOT everyone will be doing this consciously.... but when we choose to make our transformation we have listened to our intuition and inner voice has called us through the mess and instigated the next conscious move. All these moves are causing chaos. Even if everyone around us is still doing same old, same old, they are still being influenced by the change and chaos... and that is their version of living through these times.... But huge amounts of people have chosen to work with the change in consciousness. Even if we do not know how, all we do is follow our intuition, and the decisions you outlined to me are statements that you have listened to your inner voice and that you are following your soul's plan to evolve your self, and your life, and therefore your consciousness. So Chaos internally, and chaos in the world. So I have known this for years. Many spiritual beings have picked up on this. AND During covid....sooo many people woke up to the horrors of disempowerment and from then many groups and protests formed. I knew that the vaxx was on the agenda long before it was 'invented' for covid, it was designed to be implemented long before the pandemic was implemented...because the pandemic was a tool to control and vaxx people. So, there were many discussion platforms formed and all of a sudden all the world is talking to each other about the same thing. Covid had many hats and many platforms, but the main thing is that it OPENED DISCUSSION and opened peoples minds and caused cognitive dissonance, scared the hell out of people and allowed everyone to feel into their fears. it showed also the top elites and how they have been in charge of everything, and how people have let these other so called 'authority/authorities' have complete control over their lives, education/ health/food/decisions/thought/food/water/air etc etc etc....and people are now slowly beginning to take back responsibilities for their lives, food/health/beliefs etc. So anyway one of these groups is called Connecting consciousness, it is worldwide, and 3 years ago was established in UK. here is a link to a recent to a presentation shown recently, he talks about a lot of current conversations that are the topics of the moment. You may or may not like it, but its worth looking at other views of the world, and its events, even if its just to have knowledge or be informed of these other perspectives. There is a bit of astrology but he talks more about the effects of astrology. I am sending it as it opens up a gentle introduction into a bigger perspective on whats happening, its a bit long but try it, the questions and answers at the end actually are more enlightening, who knows you might enjoy it or open up to the discussion. Lots of love Michaela xxx https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88n1P7RiZ3I What is REALLY going on with the world? Astrologer Joseph P Anthony (INTRO MUSIC REMOVED)I

Tuesday 10 October 2023

Email to hope: finding the God self. and clearing negativity. https://energeticsynthesis.com/library/1777-emotional-release-from-negativity

"Many old patterns, relationships, circumstances will reappear and be recreated to allow us the time and space to resolve them harmoniously or create closure on old energetic karmic entanglements." Resolving harmoniously> Keep on keeping on ? or switch it up a bit. Dear Hope. SO, whats coming to me is this: humans are only part, or half, of what they should be. So when we 'couple up' with another it is because of this state of 'LESS THAN' that we feel inside. We go into couples because...the mysteries of life and living are either: Not fun by ourselves, or we are scared, or are just continuing a long line of being programmed to 'be co-dependent' on a another individual....who MOST likely knows even less than we do... Sacred marriage has not landed here yet. So we are not in our true sense of 'sacred individuals'..... we are in a state of scared individuals.....scared, and we figure two is better than one, because we feel that we are inadequate by ourselves and cannot navigate the human world alone....in all its mysteries and conflicts and demands and challenges. As a singleton, we perhaps feel, or rather 'sense that we are only 'a half' of what we should be, and so we begin a long journey of co-habiting and co dependency. Sometimes replacing one with another and having the same result. And we choose growth that way.... as All roads lead home. But what we could, or should be discovering, whatever path we have chosen, is that a human is 'part human' and 'part God self'. We do not know/ cannot suspect that we do, in fact, have another half!!!! But we have accepted the 'INSIGNIFICANT' programming as real, we have accepted the belief systems that show us we are small insignificants .... who needs BOTH, another person to lean on...to depend on for certain things that we lack the ability to provide for ourselves....AND a higher external authority to be in charge'. AND Sometimes/OFTEN/ if not always in some cultures.... we mistakenly put the other person in charge of our lives, as we mistake them to be the higher authority!!! It gets so messy. Its how we learn this that disentangles us from it. The God self .....IS.... that OTHER part...of us. The god self is that part, that we do not see/hear/sense, but it is the self part that runs the HUMAN inner biological systems of systems of breath, blood, DNA, and the quantum heart, chakra, endocrinology, emotional and spiritual systems. But we don't know that....we become reliant on supposedly higher systems (healthcare and governments etc) and by constantly blocking our knowing of our own God self part.... with our fears and desperation's and flawed memories that keep coming forward.... we keep creating the 'ambiance or environment' for them to reoccur and keep ourselves muddied with them. And we send our children down the same path. The God self , of each of us, IS the other half of us, but it is the hugeness of 'what we can be', it is the other heart, the quantum heart, the quantum self that links us with the ''''God of truth of all we are'''' within the '''God of All that is.""" We have got to look within for the 'God-self half... .... (that actually gives LIFE to the human part to actually exist in the first place).... ...... and merge it with the human half.... to become, FINALLY the true whole SELF. Humans only have duality, 2 options. The third option is quantum which combines, solve, resolve and dissolve. When we learn to merge fully with the god-self, we find that there is no longer the problem that the 'human part' has been battling with. Because, regardless of the problem....it is only a story of where the human part was battling, ONLY, with its small sense 'of being only half'...... .....and the strange sense of knowing without words ....deep down...that there is more ... (experienced in dream and symbols)... but it becomes confused and we interpret this feeling as the 'need another half'...So we seek out another human to fill that space. 1 human half.... PLUS (or merged with).... 1 GOD- Self half .....can equal ONE huge, multidimensional, WHOLE HUMAN...which knows it is powered by a GOD HEAD, so grand that the human, when thinking with its human brain, cannot fathom... AND when two WHOLE humans get together, it is not in codependency, it is Kick ass powerful....and one where God gets to see.... through the eyes of this powerful expression of whole humans joined in Wholeness, exploring and co-creating realms never been seen before. Love M xxxx To clear this mess made by the human half created in fear, we need to release the constructed negativity. Check this by Lisa Renee. Significant emotional release is one of the side effects of experiencing higher frequencies integrated into our physical and energy body systems. Heavy and dense emotions, such as fears, unresolved traumas and conflicts are flushed out from the body at all levels, cellularly, energetically and within the cognitive functioning. Many old patterns, relationships, circumstances will reappear and be recreated to allow us the time and space to resolve them harmoniously or create closure on old energetic karmic entanglements. Emotional Release from Negativity - Energetic Synthesis Emotional Release from Negativity - Energetic Synthesis Lisa Renee Energetic Synthesis covers all aspects of The Ascension or Great Shift, psychic self defense, ascension symptoms... https://energeticsynthesis.com/library/1777-emotional-release-from-negativity

Tuesday 19 September 2023

Email to a friend: about the structures and laws of the created universe, that go up many many layers, and the historical situation about how the NAA have obliterated humanity and their links with God. The Negatives are off-worlders and from darker dimensions, what could be called ETs, that have been grossly infiltrating our earth system and universe for eons....Back as far as, and even beyond, Egyptians and Sumerians times....they have created and systematically 'descended' the earth and her people into despair and negativity and then used the humans to create the continuing negativity. Lisa Renee's situational update https://energeticsynthesis.com/resource-tools/blog-timeline-shift/3861-situational-update .

I read this today, it confirms what we were talking about yesterday, but click on the link to the whole article. she talks a lot, she is spiritual and otherwordly, but not with any religion, only with those who are on the side of God and Christ. Christos. And where she talks about J12, she is talking about Jeshua of the 12th dimension, of the highest dimension, she is talking about Jesus. She seems to be able to capture the extent of everything. 3d is the material world we see about us and she talks about the NAA. THE Negative Alien Agenda. I read her from time to time but sometimes it is TOOOOO much information about offworlds...and in terms that we are not familiar with, the structures and laws of the created universe, that go up many many layers, and the historical situation about how the NAA have obliterated humanity and their links with God. The Negatives are off-worlders and from darker dimensions, what could be called ETs, that have been grossly infiltrating our earth system and universe for eons....Back as far as, and even beyond, Egyptians and Sumerians times....they have created and systematically 'descended' the earth and her people into despair and negativity and then used the humans to create the continuing negativity playing out on the 3D. Spiritual warfare has been going on eons. There is huge balancing going on to take back from the evil. In this article from early sept, she says most of the drama NOW is going to be directed and orchestrated in US. But NAA 'plan' is to enfold the whole world in the conflict. which we will see and even see in people around us, but can be protected from the material physical effects by praying. The psychological effects are what we have to control, our thoughts mind and spiritual abilities to rise above, as the overwhelming doom bombarding us is also part of the plan to pull us down, by the fear and descending despair of what we witness, even if we are not directly impacted. so we stay strong. Oh yeah very interesting is the vaxxinated people, being bioweaponized ...which we knew, but good God, I think we forgot how bad the vaxx program was, and how it was meant to be ticking time bombs in people that is potentially so detrimental .... anyway have a read, love M xxxx ........................"Now sometimes, again God willing, God, our Guardians, our Teams, are going to help us navigate through in order to find a resolution to the problem. But in general, what I’m expressing is that you do not want to run to or engage with the 3D control systems because they are being weaponized against humanity. So that means no direct engagement to the best of your ability – and that, you do your best to stay low on the radar. You’re not rattling sabers or running into the criminal controller system because you think the legal system or medical system is going to save you, because right now it’s not. So when we set our prayers, when we set our meditations, you can purposely as well, set your intent, consent and authority. We’ve had many threads and some blogs talking about what we do not consent to and certainly that began with the plandemic, where we were saying we do not consent to this mass murder, we do not consent to this weaponization of the medical system, we do not consent to this bio-weapon. All of those are powerful words of you commanding your own personal space in your organic timewave which is your Law of Structure. The Law of Structure is the structure you create, the energy container you create for yourself with your 12D Christos shield and your prayers. That’s your energetic protection, as you’ve set a Law of Structure that is connected to the natural laws of God." Read the whole thing: Situational Awareness Update - Energetic Synthesis