Email to Hope: My tea cup reading for the day. Dinosaurs, 'life cycles of death and rebirth', and where we are walking to, .....the 'great new space' is appearing as we are dropping stuff and shedding skins. Just as the times we are now in...bumpy and chaotic, with fears of letting a 'valuable' go (money property status identity). Even if life itself was okay, there was always the nuance of irritation and resentment, hostility and betrayal...as we jostle to keep our heads above the water the rising, to appear as if ITS ALL GOING TO OUR PLAN...Its all been to play out our resistance to the demise of the old constructions. But its all been the backdrop, and the conversation about it is that which actually brings it about....The karmic walk is the build up to our dismantling of an existence that is dying out. And about the growth of consciousness through us to do that... Michaela....(I am bringing forward a new blog as this old tapping laptop is windows 7 and so outdated, a dinosaur... and finally I will be getting around to set up a new laptop. The last 10 years was the crazy unravelling for me. The last 3 years have been crazy for me, a build up to the dismantling. The last 2 years have meant being bashed inside with emotional boulders and this year especially, 2023 could be seen as the year I had to let it all go....after many build ups and delays ..... the dismantling crew finally come in and finished the Job. Many Deaths, for ongoing rebirths)

so my teacup reading showed the big dipper, or the bear, I read that it is associated mother, protection and birth and death (within the mother). I had the understanding that everything has a point to it, and that we create what we need to create to have that experience and open those doors to fill those (fear or hate filled) rooms with love. So it doesnt matter that we are not enjoying the full expression of the energy of those rooms but its more that we get to live in and reside in them (walk with that Karma) to transmute the energy of those rooms, or they are like bombs we detonate to feel a manifestation of something we were drawn to feel in the physical, regardless what the fuck we think we are supposed to be doing. once detonated they go off and we experience that and then have spiritual 'death and rebirth' that that brings in solitude self realisation or with our actual death. Its the energy we give to anything that makes it 'live' in our lives. But we are doing it all within the mother so its a protective energy, in that when we stop and watch, our 'real' self is watching also for the physical self to step up into its newly created power over that 'thing' or experience that most matches the energy of what we came in to tackle. So two bears exist. The mother bear protecting baby bear enfolded in eachother, symbolic of 'two of us' existing, our real 'higher spirit' self and our physical self... enfolded in each other, but it is the physical self that does the walking through the rooms created for the experience... that reveals the truth of the real self. Its just we get stuck in our own rabbit holes and stay there. Be -ing so stuck in physical 'reality' literally informs what we continue to create and recreate as our DNA, quantumnly restructs from primal life force units, those rooms we are in the middles of experiencing ... Continuing in birth and rebirth, the creation of different rooms that we walk into, and spend time in....and that all dissolves for us when we are no longer entangled with them or the emotional constructs of them...AND when the puzzle is solved, or the bonds to it are loosened, we are LET GO OF by them.... as they cease to be operational.... because the fact of being in it has 'done something'..... and I don't think it is a 'thinking' thing either. It Is a BE-ING Thing. BEing in that room for whatever is needed to be experienced, whatever contraction or expansion becomes apparent. 'Karma timing' reveals it only as a memory... only when we have disentangled from it. Its the same as 'growing is done without knowing' it is experienced. I woke up with a vision of a dinosaur in my mind. I thought oh okay, the meaning here is that the dinosaur became extinct because it couldn't evolve quickly in its physicality to survive the energy of the planet. So what is this symbolism for me. AND where did the spirit of the dinosaur go??? it survived in death and rebirth as littler creatures. So the big dinosaur 'bodies' were no longer needed but the spirit returned in smaller variations, having shed its now unneeded large size. The smaller beings were lighter, more nimble and moved faster, More clever? When Dinosaurs came to be about , here on earth, the energy that came in to be the 'DINOSAUR exploration for consciousness' needed to 'be' suited up in a 'big bulk' to begin to be aware of itself as different, and to separate from what it was before, and to be separate from the earth it grazed on. It needed to BE awkward and gawky and cumbersome to withstand the turbulent energy of a turbulent earth in order to be immersed totally to get what was needed from surviving that time. There existence would be very different from the microbes, bacteria and single cell water creations that were still part of and happy to be the smallness of the 'all'. But when the energy changed, the big dinosaur reverted, through death and rebirth to be more streamlined with the incoming or new prevailing energy of 'consciousness of the time', setting growing new plans on the earth.The cycles of life are designed to learn and grow, through : birth , life, death, and rebirth. Time is not important. Consciousness is playing with itself. PLAY. We learn by play and imagination, and so we grow, by creating new growing new rooms in ourselves. As we do, consciousness grows itself by exploration of ....and flowing into what we create...the new and ever-expanding physicality 'growing' rooms in ourselves... gives consciousness extensions of its self to experience. So my vision today of the dinosaurs could mean that we are coming up to a point when, like before, the old dinosaurs 'disappear' in death and rebirth, either physical or by clever self reinvention, but whatever....or however...death of and rebirth ....means we are actually running around like new littler selves having dropped the unwanted bulk of the heaviness of 'what was'.... and that is no longer supported in, or by 'consciousness's' exploration of them... so new plans for physicality are emerging... with the higher energy released by consciousness's call for a new game and that's where mother comes in, necesseity is the mother of invention,, I saw in my tea cup this morning the 'big dipper' star constellation and read that it is associated with the mother,(mother bear, and THE MOTHER ,Protection of her young (us as we go through the cycles of life), and the cycle of death and rebirth. The garage came down today. The Crazy old fossilized asbestos garage that was probably up since the 50's, and certainly for all my life living here, moving in around 1976 and then coming back to live here, was finally totally dismantled today. Feels very symbolic of what is coming to me today about the dinosaurs. The old crumbling unsightly energies finally dissolving. Left for the time it was regarded as being needed. The build up for removal was months of planning expectation and dread, the failed dates and cancellations, then being started yesterday on the hottest day of the year, to be finally skillfully, swiftly, seamlesly transported out of the garden without problems.Today. The build up to deconstruction was huge, symbolically also, Leaving a huge space in its place that I am not going to quickly fill. I heard from the street, a funeral hearse pulled by horses go by, indicating a death... as I looked on the new space reborn in the garden. Just as the times we are now in...bumpy and chaotic, with fear of letting a 'valuable' go (money property staus identity), even if our life, or lifestyle, itself was okay There was always the threat of outside force dismantling our castle, and there was always the nuance of irritation and resentment, hostility and betrayal...as we jostle to keep our heads above the above the water to appear as if ITS ALL GOING TO OUR PLAN... But its all the backdrop, and the conversation....The karmic walk is the build up to our dismantling of an existence that is dying out. Death and rebirth, these are the cycles we have to embrace. But death has its own time and is entangled with the nuances and emotions of the physicality. It just is, and when the karma of nuanced emotions, synchronicity, contractions and expansion has been walked to completion it dissolves to a death. Releasing energy for rebirth. Love Michaela xxx PS...Synchronicity. The following words are from Sandra Walter, reminding us about the Equinox: "Kindwhile, a very powerful Equinox is just two weeks away. You can feel it in the field, and definitely in the collective, as the choice-point energies shake and sort out individual and collective realm choice. This Equinox, when Divine balance alignments are at peak potency, there is CLEAR REVELATION of which reality you have chosen. Rather than the duality of love-based reality vs fear-based reality, a refinement is occurring. Nuance which reflects what is created in the subconscious, the Soul intention, Heart Center radiance, and our capability to express Unity Consciousness in thought, word, action, and feeling. This is where the truth of our journeys and creations reveal our realm choice. Equinox provides deep clarity on our ability to create, hold, and sustain our Hearts in the intense New Light of Unity Consciousness."