I have been asking for clarity about what is the "missing link." I have made HUGE personal progress with inner spiritual life. I know this to be true, I am happy with it and it would be nice to just have this and let it be....
However, I know too, that I need to bring it out into my 'outside life'. I need to allow my 'inner life' to have an effect, with grace and ease, on what is happening with and in my 'outside life'.
Over the years it has been a continuous process of self healing and forgiveness, integrating and release, karmic and ancestral release, also a process of removing out of date programes of belief. Ultimately, it has been like having an extensive spiritual plumbing, electricians, structural maintenance, renovations , painting and decorating on my inner house.
However, while all this has been going, it was perhaps safer for me to keep my outer life somewhat limited. My connections with and to, other people, and other scenarios, apart from the essentials, where a bit dry (dried up). Having not been able to both simultaneously, and where the outer world had ceased to fill me with joy, I now know that it was easier for me to just focus on the spiritual and put onto automatic, (dry and without emotion etc.) those interactions and connections with the outside world.
I know it may sound unconnected, but here is my story. Suppose that my back garden is representative of my personal inner spiritual growth, and my front garden is representative of that "spiritual growth" brought to the outside (front garden) to manifest (become real, and to share) in my outer life, public, human life.
I have only recently been attempting to bring this spiritual growth (a hugely personal affair) 'out', in more physical ways, to my outer (outside life) by being more open, and more public, about who I have spiritually grown into.
I was became aware of the link as I passed by my front garden daily. I didnt have time to look at it with love. I was not actually looking at it at all. I was put off doing anything to it because it was too public, on the street.....where people I don't know, and those I do can walk by and witness, so I felt too vulnerable to actually get out there and dig it. It hadn't been loved or connected wit (activated) for a very long time. The front garden had remained "cut, but not dressed."
A friend of mine associates different parts of the body with qualities of life. She says that Hair is about Joy. So, back to my garden scenario, and the amazingly lush back garden which grows like wild, can be termed as untamed and free-flowing hair. It also is representative of the JOY I have in my inner (unseen by or witness by the general public) spiritual growth, it is wild and untamed.
On the other hand, the front garden, show the results of my lack in bringing my spiritually out to actually EFFECT my OUTER life. So this, my front garden shows the lack of spirituality that I show to the public. It is not seen by them because up to now, I have felt too vulnerable to put it out there in public view. So what I show to others about my spiritual self is a "crew cut" with rock hard beds, no flowers, no lush growth.
The back garden is free flowing lush trees, shrubs and herbs and shade and sun, going on for seemingly miles...Lots of inner spiritual activity, .Good rich vibrant healthy Hair.....JOY.
The front garden is a small square of grass bordered by rock hard, calcified beds that allow nothing, not even weeds to grow in it. Crew cut short hair....Small shaved Joy.
It involved me to-ing and fro-ing from the back to front gardens.
I was bringing and planting in the front garden, flowers and shrubs from the back garden.. It was extremely hard work to say the least. It was one of those jobs I was driven to do as I did it. This runs alongside the call from the outer face of my physical house, the loney call of my front garden, sparse and neglected.
It is so then that this weekend I was urged (pushed by an INVISIBLE WIND on my back to this, and ATTEMPT to bring life, love and connection back to that garden.
I know its weird ....but stay with me. I knocked myself out this weekend, driving through the energetic resistance and blocks, to change this as I realised that my attempts to become public and to make my spiritual art workshops become more VISIBLE, were still not being seen by others. The therapeutic Art workshops, my offering to the outside world.... had not been viewed by the public. These were the thoughts filtering into my mind.....so maybe my public spiritual face needed some attention. I didn't think these two aspects were linked, until the aftermath of explosive driven maniacal gardening whereby I had using a garden fork to smash the dried up and practically 'calcified' ground in the bed, where nothing had grown for such a long time...and after, in my exhaustion with battered legs and covered in mosquito bites. By which time, some beautiful deep magenta and purple plants called LOVE and Wishes, a hebe shrub, a very old lavender bush, a vervain plant and a small Rudbekia were finally planted in the front garden. Also I planted some rooting branches of willow, which may grow into a tree.
The resistance presented to me was mine. I hadn't been ready to go public, not really. My hardened, grim faced view of the outside world, compared with the grace and personal serenity of my inner space, lonely but beautiful, was so different to the comic mardis-gras of the low level 3d pantomime of life in the outside world. I wasn't going 'out there' with my 'inside stuff'.
The intuition to break down this resitance urged me strongly to get on with the gardening. So eventually, I attacked the garden like a stealth ninja. I attacked my own resistance by sneaking up on it with a pitch fork and charging deep into it.
The next day, was like being pulled off the battle field covered in war wounds. Its true, I was covered in scratches and bites , which had swollen to golf ball size. But strangely I had antibiotic cream from a short while ago, where a previous mosquito bite had become infected. Its weird to say that It is possible that I had been preparing for it. The battle wounds were able to be treated immediately, I had been Prepared.
Today, as the dust from the mad exhausting weekend of 'ninja energetic' settles, I came accross the material I posted today on the pineal gland. You will see the (missing) link as we are told that when the pineal becomes 'calcified' we cannot use it in the way it was designed. This 'life time' is literally about breaking down the walls that keep us from the way we 'really' are. Our pineal glands link us to dimensions and worlds out there, they allow us access to the BIG OUT THERE, or as some like to call it, the big, "ALL THAT IS". This inflow, via the pineal connection, of energetic light and love is the information from the All That Is. It is facilitated by our brain and hearts, to flow through us and create divine expression through us. All of us.
It is the pineal that squeezes through to us, access to the divine GOD (not the small minded religious god that we have been to taught to believe in). It is the pineal that brings through to us the amazing "out of this world" wealth and abundance of light information and inner guidance.
What we do in our 'outer life' is a physical manifestion of whats occurring internally.
Listen to the intuition that comes minute by minute.
I keep thinking that I have made the changes, what more is there??? but there is always more. There is always more of the All That Is.
Thanks for listening.
Michaela.
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