fake it till you make it.

Part of my settling down to sleep at night when I am so tired I cannot meditate, I repeat, by breathing out the words as 'barely-there' whispers,  in a kind of breath talk...the words "I believe"...
"I believe"..

 It is just breathing the words out, as they are easy to say, and I don't want to be confounding myself with finding affirmations and other head and brain talk. I want to sleep on a "belief" that I knew was there but couldn't access it. I have been asking what am I believing in.... the answer came today. I believe that I am love. To get to that we need to ask "What is in my belief systems and what fake system/s put them there?"  Change it to "I believe, I AM, Love".




It can be hard for us having to find an eternal source of unconditional (magenta coloured light) love in your core and  knowing how to use it.

Acually it is already  there, at your core, ever-ready to be activated in each now moment, its just that we third dimensional humans don't know what it is let alone how to use it. It is stored in our 5th dimensional core which we are only just awaking to.

3rd dimensional access to it will always be from a distorted sense and through the lens of I am not good enough, I am worthless, she hates me, I hate her, my job is shit, my life is crap, my childhood was traumatic, I cannot find my soul mate, I am not beautiful, I am not strong, I am stupid, he makes me angry, etc etc. So from this perspective we 3rd dimensional people only access a diluted distorted sense of "love" which is only a vague sense of what love actually is. Also mostly our confusion lies in the fact that not only are we  told what love is (through media of mainstream magazines, films, plays, books, art and music, which is all a load of second hand offerings from loads of other peoples perspectives), BUT often they are not aligned with our own experience of love.
So that too causes more problems in that we Don't understand the LOVE that is being touted by seemingly everyone else on earth.

So 3rd dimensional love brings more problems to your table in that what you think it is, may not match up with what the writers, actors, singers portray love as being to them. We become sad as our version or experience of love is not as beautiful as their version.

The truth is that this stage setting of conditional love is just as fake as these flowers.

In fact most of everything that we busy ourselves with on a day to day basis is as fake as these flowers. Our conception of life and living is laughingly quaint and antiquated and about as dull as a shop full of fake flowers. The only thing real in the shop, is the person who is looking at them and reacting to them and then that persons response to the environment that they find themselves in and the things they see.

It is the big gluey mess of humans emotions within the stage setting of the fake flower shop (fake life)  that is real, not the fake flowers (distractions) themselves.

Life in this 3rd dimensional shop (loop), is all bells and whistles. smoke and mirrors: shiney, noisey and distracting. The 3rd dimensional "version" of love is just a conditional reaction to all the distractions around us. I love you if you love me. I love you if you do this for me or are good at school, or bring home the money, or convince me I am beautiful, or loveable, or worth something, or worth loving...All unconditional love. Where the "L" is a lower case " l".

There is a truth that we can attach onto and that is that real "love is", it just is. It is the stuff that glues our skin and bones together, that gets the heart pumping and delivers the blood. Just as we can now know the gradations of love around us, we can learn that we have access to "being" in love, or really BE A BEING OF Love, that is ...."in love and made up of love".

Because Love is actually the now, the reality we really actually do exist in. To see this true existence as being a "being" in love we just have to take our eyes off the distractions and close them down. Close the eyes and close off the distractions.

Imagine a place where have no bodies and we just are.  Love actually is the thing we are. Love is intertwined in every single aspect of everything matter or not matter. It is the space between the particles that make up an atom. It is the electromagnetic charge or interplay of charges between particles, it is the wave of energy and the particle of mass, intertwined in Quantum magic that fills every inch of our energetic and physical make up.....

But Encased in fleshy bodies we cannot see the "real" thing that we are and so we have lost sight of that. We spend so much time and energy, trying to express love as something outside ourselves and so we need to project  love, and the need for it, it onto someone else. The someone else is only doing the same thing,  he or she, too cannot see that they are a being made of love, and they project outside themselves to "get" the love they feel they lost or don't know. "I will feel better when someone loves me and I have someone to love"....

The plan is to activate our being into one that knows it is love, that knows that everyone else is love too. The plan is that we step up to the reality of really knowing Love.

Acting on The plan begins with us having just finished a huge historical cycle upon cycle, of us playing out that we don't know we are love. This huge historical downward spiral has been about us living seperately and in so-called isolation from the real reality. We have been in fake for so long we are skilled at being fake.

Unfortunately...

• being in "isolation" from the reality that we are love, 
• and forgetting that love is, it just is  and that love is really all there is, 
• and forgetting that anything and everything else is just the absence of  working "self knowing-equipment"  to know this

has left us with a huge challenge: How to find a way back to the reality we are really from.

It is about un-knowing what we have learned about conditional love, and stop projecting onto others our need for love and to love, and about seeing ourselves as being made from love: as BEINGS in LOVE. Where  Love is the string and loops, the glue and ribbons, the rocks and gas, the electric waves and the path through which it flows. Love is the tiny , teeny weeny bits from which all bigger bits are made.  love is the creator energy that creates the heat from the sun and that flutters a ladybird's wings, it blinks your eye lids and crinkles your skin. It holds your hand as it ticks your heart. It leads you on your paths and puts you to sleep at night.

Moving out of being a 3rd dimensional being,  means moving into higher frequency vibrational beingness,  where we begin to know that we ARE love, and that we have arrived at that moment where we know how very special we are.

Until then, fake it till you make it.
Keep saying it till you believe it, by then we will all know and believe that is so. I believe...I believe...I believe that I know I am a being in Love.

Michaela.