Creation. Unicorn purity of heart. 11 11 gateway.

So, it cannot have escaped your attention that 11 11 is a special timing activation. But I still could land into my conscious understanding a meaning that was fulfilling for me. Also, I still have these knee jerk internal screams that arise from time to time...and I am getting pretty fed up with them. What are they? What am I telling myself? What do I need to figure out about them and why they still haunt me...
Its like having two of me. One is chilled and one jumps up from time to time, alarmed and spinning in circles, chasing its tale like a demented dog. I can split into the chilled part of me, and calmly look on the hacked nervous system of the spinning dog,  and ask..to myself "what the heck?"

Spending more and more in the calm part of me, gives me access to chill moments to analyse these polar extremes.

With the 11 11 gateway I decided to do a mediation to swoop inside and gain insight as to what is going. I called on my Unicorn to deliver my conscious understanding to the 'place ' that explain what I most need to know now. I call on the unicorn because it is Symbolic of our own, absolute purity of heart, we each have one and when used as a guide, purity of heart will sidestep any ego macinations, judgements, doubts and disbelief at what may be shown in deep mediation.

Also, when you place utter trust in the Unicorn symbol of Purity of heart, you can just lie back and not try to predetermine what you want to see...You let go of the controls and give them to purity of heart, free from doubt and prejudgment, and what comes up may not be anything like you expected. All good, so no expectations, just intention that you get to 'see' what you need to 'see', where 'see' means more than the external visual operation of the 3D.



So, letting go and trusting completely, the journey begins. For a long while it feels like buffering..can't see or feel anything...Tuning in and trusting can take a while. Eventually as me and my unicorn come in to 'land' the environs of the inner vision is a VAST beautiful landscape, too immense, vast, beautiful and otherwordly to describe. We land on an out crop at the side of a mountain, which in one sense is centre of the world....my world, and in another sense is just a tiny part of the hugeness of CREATION.

So this is creation, the ultimate. The beauty and vividness of colour and meaning and purpose  hums in every particle of every cell of every idea of every thought that makes up CREATION. I could explain this but it would go on forever. The idea is that the whole of CREATION is in fact deep with every part of it.

On this outcrop, jutting out of a mountain, I sense the sureal 'unreal' beauty and know it to be 'foreign' to our own world on earth. It is foreign but hugely familiar.

Each part of the immensity of CREATION, is fractalised down into each and every fragments that make up the building blocks of each part of creation.

It is all that is.

I sit with my unicorn on the outcrop and witness both :

• that I am a 'cell' of creation, adorning this beautiful Creational vista, this panorama of creation, I am like a leaf on tree, a blade of grass, my place is both complete in the totality of its creation and as an aspect of the total whole...and also  
• that I am the me that I know here and now, complete with doubts about it all.

Then it becomes clear, where a 'cell' has moments of doubts about their place in Creation, where that doubt, is likened to the Source of creation, where source is creation and is also its smaller parts that make up the bigger parts, then it is SOURCE the unmanifest, the "I AM"... asking "AM I?" and responding with "I shall go and see what I AM"...then creation is created....

We are the cells of creation, that mirror that asking question "AM I?" But the paradox is that we get lost in the doubt. Instead we go about manifesting MORE of the "AM I?" than we go about manifesting the "I AM" statement. But this is how creation happens. 

Creation unfolds as myriad aspects of source, step up from their conception to go out and answer the question "AM I?"...

Most did not get lost in the journey to bring back the answer, a myriad answers from infinite aspects all bring back different answers to contribute to the vastness and beauty of the totality of the whole of the ALL that IS, the "I AM", and which its aspects of parts, simply has to ask "AM I?" to get the ball rolling for creation to continue creating...and creation in its many forms, creates NEW forms of CREATING. And so it continues. 

This is where seemingly  'flaws' come in...The cells can get quite lost in a sense of doubt. And get denser and further away from their true creational origins. Where the doubt gains the upper hand and the focal point, instead of flitting between the two, it gets stuck in the polarity of doubt. the densification of this process, whilst annoying created a whole new aspect to creation, and so we come to the time old stories of; 

• The historic understanding of the creation of the world we now know.
• The biblical fall from Grace 
• Symbolic and metaphoric stories of getting Kicked out of the garden of Eden and getting lost in the Underworld.

So in my symbolic meditation I saw that the orb we see as the world was suspended in its universe within the vastness of creation, and was a place where we come to work through and play out this state of doubt....it is microscosm of the macroscosm that begets ever-unfolding CREATION, but the 3d earth is specialisist environment, the microcosm for 3d manifestations....all the while the manifestations are usually of the doubtful and doubtfilled kind, to reinforce us through harder and tougher situations until we eventually 'get' that we are the micro aspects of the macro source, and therefore never alone, therfore never separate, and therefore have no need to continue creating from a doubt. 

The universes of different dimensions all sit arranged within and around eachother within the vastness of creation, rather like Christmas decorations hanging in smaller microscosms, baubles of unique beauty in a great hall.

The greater part of each of us remains in integrity in its place in the vastness of creation, the part of us that holds doubt as true, a dog with a bone, finds itself confined to continue its creational recreation in the the confines of the lower dimensional baubles. That means the part of us individuated aspects of source,  that allowed doubt to dominate the existence axial thought and belief systems that do flit between "I AM" and "AM I?"  to stay stuck in doubt and so recreate doubt each and every time. 

It is the axial flit between the "I AM" and "AM I?" paradoxial flip, that is Necessary to the axial cause that  so allows creation to flow on, and on, into NEW and evermore creations,  as we answer the AM I? qustion with each new creation, "I AM----" ......

But when stuck in in DOUBT, the creations just continue on down that pole.

We have a part of us, the part that interacts with this 3d world and wants to work through its doubts, that 'jumped'....or

• (was pushed, 
• fell off, 
• was eager to learn a WHOLe new experience, 
• wanted to participate in a experiment          (call it what most resonates with your beliefs)

.... onto this planet just to work through this downward spiral creational learning curve.

When we meditate with the PURITY OF heart, devoid of judgement and prejudice, doubt and 'sneering at self', we come back to the natural spin of who we are, the larger part of us... as we remain in eternity within the beauty of the vastness of Creation, the oneness and whole of All that Is. 

While in this world...Or ON this excursion into DOUBT....we have from the beauty of the vastness of creation....creatures and creational symbols to remind us of that which is true and in integrity with the macrocosm of CREATION. 

Imaginary, 'mythical' and 'metaphysical' creations such as unicorns and all the NATURAL elements and creations such as birds, animals and NATURE are gifts that interact with our true nature, both here (and simultaneously with us as we are back home)  simply to 'remind' us, that is the parts of us that in this 3d excursion, of....

 BACK HOME.....

where 'BACK HOME' is simply.....

OUR BEING OF TRUTH Within CREATION. 

Back Home is Us within Our "I AM", a  microcosm of the Macrocosm, that we know as the true WHOLENESS in UNITY CREATION, The ALL THAT IS. 

So we just jumped here for a while to let those DOUBTS play themselves out, and until we learn to GROW out of doubt and use the "I AM" statement to answer the question that brings about the continuing Creation...

So.... eventually get to stop GETTING STUCK on the  'doubt trip'.....

Doubt on the axial pole, should integrated and present a mere and momentary flicker. Doubt should be a flick of attention that creates an ignition point, which we can use to rouse us up, to MOVE us  ON and OUT, to create the outcomes that allow us to Bring back the answers that qualify the
 "I AM"statement  in resounding triumph...
Doubt should not become the strings that tie our ankles into the swamp, that defaults us to remain repeating doubt-filled miscreations.

And what about the Earth, this bauble on which these parts of us dwell? 

Well she gets to stop having doubt-filled mis-creations dropped all over her, and gets back to her part in  ongoing Creation, and she will have a beautiful role. 

As the parts of us that became 3d, slowly get more refined, we become a new type of creation and so new creational forces will be birthed through THIS WHOLE EPISODE, that is how we diverge and make 'new' forms of CREATING and begin New TYPE of creations, that can only be attained via having gone through this excursion.

Michaela.