Seeing the patterns of trauma and calling in the Turquoise Dragon for clearing the 'power-grab' by trauma ~~Michaela~~...And... Four MYTHS ABOUT CHILDHOOD TRAUMA: The REAL Problem, And How to Heal.

~~Michaela~~. The above video is about seeing some of the patterns of trauma. She explains how childhood trauma works to deregulate an adult, so that the adult is conspicuous by being unable to function 100%, disabled in ways not 100% obvious, we tackle life as a 'film reel', continuous frame shots of trauma, where even the 'good' moments are too much to handle to engage with or participate in with joy, we always have a bit of us waiting for the fall. ~~~~~ My point is that we have come unstuck and we don't know how that happened and for how long it has been going, We dont really know what a good day is, let alone know what it feels like to operate on full cylinders to engage with our emotional mental physical experiences. *** What is coming up to me again, is that we have two natures, Which 'should' compliment eachother. One is the natural spirit which inspires and connects us by bridging the physical world to the spiritual world, this is world of Yin, the darkness and the unmanifested, where all lies in its yeilding to us, the walking users that partake in the unmanifested to craete their world from. The second is the physical world where we use our physical senses to journey the world around us, the world of the perceptory senses which tells us what the 'reality is out there'....this is world of the action and outcome. Where we ignore the half of ourselves that is to do with intuition and that overrides the 'lies' told us by what we 'see' out there, we become unbalanced and only see the heavy yang, the overburdened heaviness of the physical, and we lean... top-heavy on the physical body response. The balance is lost, the physical cannot trully navigate in a world where the spiritual has become a different world... closed from us, we loose half of ourselves, and the physical response is to become weakened and sick. *****So it occurred to me that most of us, if not the majority, struggle with seeing the large half of ourselves, our intuition that is in tune with nature, and most adults leave childhood having totally extinguised the flame of our relationship with nature, spirit and learn to distrust our intuition.***** Why this is so, is obvious. We have come to the extreme of our journey where the physical senses dominate. Also because of the dynamics of this extremity, this harsh polarity, we have been constantly bombarded by a whole spectrum of trauma.*** Normal relationships are from a wounded place and so we as the players continue to act out our wounds on others, and so the cycles continue and broaden as the next generation of children are primed and become loaded guns ready to experience their own reenactment of trauma. ***** The ongoing trauma cycle has wiggled us free from our intuition at every turn, and so we have become only half of ourselves.**** When this becomes clear we have to begin to see the patterns of where trauma is not only the stimulus that calls it forward but it is the pattern we have constructed to reenact to it. We react from trauma-sites within, from which we respond to almost everything that goes on around us, and to us. We experience stress instead of excitement for the journey, and our internal systems of brain-gut has it's (DNA) neuronal pathway locked in to experience only trauma-like reflexes. If we think about ceratin epochs of time during say, poverty and trauma, war and calamity, or the eugenist description of overpopulation where forced abortion programs took place, or even epochs when childbirth came under restrictions, such as limiting to only one child, and favouring one sex over the other such as Korea and China)....we see that the birth of a baby, naturally a happy event... becomes a national trauma, seen as unfortunate, and only another stress to endure. We get to see that natural responses to natural events such as the birth of a baby has become warped.*** That is why the body is only working at less than half of its available physicality, because we have lost the half of ourselves that tune into intuition and the beauty of inspiration, where 'Growing' has become a Grind. How many of us grind our teeth in sleep? When the traumas are not obvious, yet their presence is exhibited by stress actions, and they remain hidden deep in the cells of the body.************************* I questioned this all recently as it was becoming clear and in meditation I could feel a representation whereby I had the sensation of half my body being blocked. In the meditation the 'blocking' in my body became so painful. I asked for healing and felt the sensation of a dam being released and allowed the pressure of the one blocked side to flow into the whole body.***** Today I revisited the healing as I had time to acclimate to the first healing, and allowed more healing in. The visuals I was given was of a teal/turqoise energy, later mysteriously visualising as an ancient Tibetan dragon. The turquoise energy pervaded my body and in it were myriad tiny sparkling pieces that looked like fragments of multicoloured mosaics. This swirled through my body, firstly it set up a 'light ball' in the stomach, in my solar plexus chakra, then one in my sacral area, then one in my root chakra area. Then one in my heart area and then one in my throat area. The balls of bright light turquoise energy swirled into one and filled my body....I knew that the little mosaics of crystalline light carried in the turquoise energy were picking up not only the energy of trauma spots, but also the physicality of the 'cells' that had become the caves in which the trauma spots had nestled. This is a dense energy and so it had become a calcified physical energy throb, contained within the multidimensionality of my physical being. ****** Then I thought, "OKAY so what do i do with this now?" I had the visual of looking at my inner being totally filled with this Turquoise energy. Then superimposed within me, the body of a dragon formed from the glittering turquoise energy complete with all the tiny glittering mosaic pieces that had adsorbed the unwanted trauma. I thought "Wow!" and then "What do i do with this Dragon?" ********** When we do healing, we can ask to merge with the highest and best appropriate energy, it seems that the energy merged with me for this healing of removing trauma was a Turquoise Dragon. The end of the healing was a visual, of me standing by a large and ancient lake, reflecting a low white winter sun, and watching as the Turquoise dragon, now a darkened purple in the low sun.... like a Hokusai dragon, mounted into the air and flew up toward the low white winter sun. The contents of my trauma held tight in the myriad mosaic pieces and carried to the sun. I guessed that the dragon can enter the galactic sun through the low winter sun and there discharge the contents of trauma, to be burned and recycled and purified back into energy that exists in the unmanifested yin.****** I share this to explain that just by seeing where we have been become disregulated, disjointed and our energies bissected and dissected we have become scatterred beings, WE HAVE therefore have lost our soveriegnity. *****We must KNOW that we are Royal, we are the kings and queens of our business, our bodies, our thoughts our actions and of our energies. We need to get back those parts of us lost in the underworld of grinding through the Physical without our counterpart half, inner salvation of intuition, and bring us back to our balanced growth. There was always the path of polarity's 'Growth through GRIND', but now is the time to Let our true nature of being 'WHOLE' come through. Image of Hokusai dragon.**** https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS3xNZYd-WxMjoXJrahRU7CGyd0zm1lE3mNJQ&usqp=CAU***** Whatever the dragon is or represents, dragons are mysterious and are used symbolically to portray different things. However I knew this one was a Tibetan as the visual that came before I even saw the dragon was Tibetan. All I could find, later, when looking for reference to a Tibetan turquoise dragon was this....."The turquoise dragon was undoubtedly an image of power and might, and specifically of royal status, however. In around the same period as the legal text, it was used in passages that distinguished royal from religious authority and it was specifically associated with the power and glory of the rLangs clan. It is, at least, likely that our author used the image deliberately, to symbolize the status of the rLangs family, just at the time they were trying to reinforce their shaky position as rulers of central Tibet. "https://tibetanlaw.org/article/the-turquoise-dragon-symbol-of-political-status ******* Maybe it is speaking to me about using my trust in the POWER of intuition to rid myself of a long standing 'POWER GRAB' for my sovereignity, a power grab by ongoing cycles of reincarnational and karma induced trauma. ~~Michaela~~ https://tibetanlaw.org/article/the-turquoise-dragon-symbol-of-political-status