Life review 1st January 2026. A dance with the devil, to see the devil for what it is. Pushed into The underworld for a deep dive through the depths and coming back up, washed clean....and stabilising so to speak...So Quite A number of years ago, I was all up about a stress. It was something that was LARGE in my experience and eventually as situations changed I got talking to my doctor at the time, and said that I believed stress was making me ill...my body was wonky and I lived on fresh air. My stomach was in knots with all the stuff I was carrying and doing, without any emotional support, which felt like I was heading to a very grand toppling over. My doctor at the time, and he was a good guy really, laughed and said stress was not causing my bodily conditions. Happy to prescribe something, (there is a pill for everything, this is how this kind of normalisation, in health care, tolls the bell for you and brings down the soul) ...he wanted to prescribe anti-depressants, to which I said I don't want to be medicated, I want to be 'free' but as I could not verbalise this,( FREE from What exactly? Not Sure exactly but when i look back I guess it was to be free from looping the loop) Spiritual language did not exist at that time to explain this (for me at any rate) ...and because I could not change my circumstances at that time, I had to learn to blend it into my already fragile systems. I was trying to get focus on stress and its debilitating effects, and even thought to get a facebook club initiated, where people would acknowledge their stress...I called it Stress club. The funny thing is, EITHER I was all alone in my 'plate spinning', so that No one else was experiencing this, and it was local only to me...OR no one else seemed to be bothered by the stress of it, in that they were appearing to be at ease with the normalisation of stress. ...so that they could not define that STRESS was appearing in their lives....People like drama. I breathed through it alone. People do not like to admit they are floundering, and definitely do not want to appear or be perceived as weak, or labelled as malfunctioning and 'unabled' and disabled. So i just thought, "Okay I am plate spinning here" and I just have to get good at it and streamline it, which I did but at a cost...I internalised it all. A mechanism learned from young childhood. ( A child will internalise when there are No words or language going on around to explain, describe or validate.) I couldn't find a way to ask for help, because people couldn't seem to understand the levels of what was occurring, even now they are shocked when, if asked, I tell them what was going on in my life. But back then, I learned to not breathe the word of stress. It was all me. And just become the sand-blasted person, quietly Battling on....through blizzards in an underworld that no one else could see. I was not depressed but that was the only word the medicals could comfortably talk about. .But then later by 10 years, stress became a buzz word and the world and his wife was talking about the affects of it. Much Later, About 3 to 4 years ago, my health had finally LET GO of strapping itself in and decided enough was enough. I stopped work and prioritised my health, albeit in a dysfunctional way...But 'dysfunctionally functioning', a system breathed out of the norm, was how I resorted to the leaping through hot coals in my life. My healing journey was becoming the healing of this life time, then other life times. Then I realised that trauma was at the root of it, and so then I was all up about trauma...in this life and other lifetimes. I had started my spiritual quest then but it was a quest that had fallen down with me from the stars. We find now that trauma has become the latest buzz word. Everyone is NOW, Finally revealing Bit By Bit, that life in this crazy 3D place IS ' trauma inducing' and especially for those who can see that in this ODD 'reality,' what has become normalised produces experiences and people very like living inside an episode of 'stranger things'...and yes...A seemingly perfectly upright person, but with sense and sensitivity, even hypersensitivity can, and does, become chiselled by daily battles with perplexing unseen nuances within a 'Strangers Things' everyday kind of life. It TURNS OUT That I am gifted and unique, and psychically aware, a medium and energy reader...a multi purpose being, who didn't know that other people were Not perceiving things as I did. All the lived stress and trauma was foundational training and initiation to the 'underworld' to bring me back up to speed. Getting Chiselled, whittled down, honed and sand blasted over these years has been a blast in the same way a Good sailor only becomes a good sailor....when they are sailing on rough seas...and finally a diamond emerges from the heavy-heat pressure applied to it's rough state. I had the conscience to know that all is not what it seems, and there is trickery afoot. But who is tricking whom and for what purpose...WHEN All is ONE, under the cosmic community of suns and stars, the good, the bad and the ugly. I think We send bread crumb clues trails ....back to ourselves from our 'true origin' where we are located in truth, a place faraway from the focus of tinkering inside 3D. A place that smiles at us ....as we play the game of forgetting we are an aspect of source, sent to 'avatar' in a realm of experience so that source can experience that, via us. Every nuance, every caveat, every dilemma and every kind of breath... in every kind of place imaginable...to fill source with more and more of of what It is. And then to create more...while we are placed and positioned in 3D under the sun. When do we get to see that we are ALL a part of "ALL that is", and that we are ALL 'sparks', in all the various sizes/colours/sheens and shimmers of the unfathomable depths, ALL pushing boundaries from within and without ourselves....to animate and to be animated into being, to create from the 'potential-of -being' into being? When do we get to lie on the beach and just enjoy that? When do we get to unpack the 'Sherlock Homes bag' and relax? Well maybe it stays packed and ready for us to go adventuring to new places, once we've unlocked the clues of 3D. Michaela.