Oh yeah, how could I forget to mention that, neck deep in it still.... we've just ventured through the heady, heaving summer solstice climax of energies, which is why midsummer is feeling so heavy and encumbered right now, unlike when children are running in a summers field, they do not feel the slumbering oaf of the sleeping world. They feel only only their light bodies. But to us, everything is overgrown, cumbersome, heavy with heat and humidity, everything needs a good washing down and a good haircut. And that goes for nature all around, heavy heaving, greenery having done its job of growth, and animals heavy with coats. We are left with the duty of care for the resultant heaviness to be pruned, shaved, washed and left to dry in the high summer sun. Michaela. XXX And from From Highheart Life blog there is a quote from Barbara Hand clow astrologer... " A new spiritual cycle germinated when Saturn conjuncted Neptune in early Aries on February 20, 2026. A cleansing of male-dominant beliefs ensued with the exposure of the shocking corruption and cruelty that was enriching old narcissistic and prideful males. A revelation: the Emperor has no clothes!" https://highheartlife.com/2026/06/23/barbara-hand-clows-june-2026-astrological-update/

"Many knew the wars were power grabs—using violence to line the pockets of the rich. Amidst the chaos, some heard a new sound, higher vibrations urging them to form a conscious relationship with their higher self, their guardian angels. This summer is already subtle and fascinating: our inner selves are speaking a new language, the guidance of the outer planets. This shift inward is coming fast now because the outer world is passing away so rapidly. Right now as I write this in late May, 3I/Atlas has passed beyond the controlling field of 3D, flying beyond the inner planets taking us out to the outer planetary 6D geometry. The outer planets, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto are holding in a formation called a KITE—a resonating geometrical pattern that activates our higher selves in 3D. " https://highheartlife.com/2026/06/23/barbara-hand-clows-june-2026-astrological-update/

Its almost like stockholm syndrome. I like this phrase, because it most definitely is, like Stockholm syndrome. (used in this youtube video reading, about being happily ensnared by master manipulators... of the human, or any other kind... for that matter...) So, taking Another look at why, or mainly HOW manipulators manipulate, what makes a person be so false? Is it that it is the NORM? Low density performing, is that really the foundation of life here ? IS IT THAT they are so busy seeing only that they have their small slice of the pie, that they want someone else's? The prevailing density allows the habituation of entitlement, to grab what is not theirs to grab...(land, energy, people resources.) Does this hyperfocus on their own tiny slice, one piece of the pie, mean that they fight to death for it and grab as much of anything else as they go down? Whatever it is, BEING so unaware of their true self that, means that when they see someone is ""different, becoming, a burgeoning blossom out of hell, and dancing with the potential to being their true self""", they, the 'mud walkers' slam it down...they have to stop it at all costs. The question here that has been brewing for months....is it that are people in general so unaware of life and life's potential to be running through their veins to become the agents of incredible prowess and progress, spiritually mentally and emotionally, that they have to lash out, snag and entrap those who are using their inner navigation tools to move towards that state of being??? In other words is it a NATURAL starting point for humans to be so dull, so dense, so stuck in the mud...and not see that they are????? OR is it that en masse, people have been manipulated through reverse hot housing social engineering to be this way?.... IS IT A NATURAL state, or one CONTRIVED into being. The long history of a people, so dumbed down, to be en masse, a self policing force that takes it upon themselves to batter down any person who is trying to find upliftment, anyone who finds their wings and takes to 'fledgling fly bys' before the full flight occurs? Like, is this the natural/normal/status of humanity's standing, or was it carved into them by some other outside force....its hard to tell from where I'm standing, and whereas before id say, "you know its archons interfering, or the influence of the dark overlay," but when you are down here in the trenches...to me, it looks like the soldiers all mucking in and getting on with this quite happily, in this density, happily rolling around in the mud...The question is, IS THIS IT? ///// BUT WHAT IS IT exactly? A prison planet, a learning planet, a quarantine planet? A space to allow the unfolding of karma lessons, quite unique to the earth experience, to slowly bring the low vibe energy of deranged cosmic outlaws, back into the fold of cosmic brotherhood? OR something very different ? Michaela.

What is in the world that we have so many narcists, or naricist exhibit behaviours, coming up for debate lately. Perhaps we are waking up to the 'loggerheads we find our selves in', with others, that leaves us confused. Maybe this exposure is about how we look at ourselves and are actioned to challenge and question our own authenticity. Peeling back the layers we find the crux of human weakness, the shadow path, that we all have a duty to see, explore, grow out of and leave behind, in order to be the co-creators of an evolving world. When we look at others we see, mirrored back, how we can be informed about ourselves. Then we get to strengthen that which needs strengthening, and those relationship dilemmas we deem no longer a need to be part of. Michaela. "@michaela " Agreed, they never say sorry, just spray confusion with no accountability, AND actually what they did is for their benefit only, and the intention is not to provide reciprocity in an adult, growing evolving relationship. THEY need to have their entitlement to you and all the resources you provide... VALIDATED by .....you not needing more than they are willing to give. Breadcrumbing. So they get annoyed when you say how sad you are about a thing happening, or not happening. Whether the thing happened or Not was for their benefit, or to keep the 'action of the relationship' locked into THEIR comfort zone only. They are avoiding stepping into their discomfort by ignoring when you need them... to step up for you. They don't to want be a reciprocal partner/friend/other... and will avoid it at all costs, making YOU the villain for needing/asking them for reciprocity. But they are AWARE of HOW things look to others, to an audience, so they shift manoeuvres around that... to keep the mask of GOOD PERSON to the audience, and come up with masked behaviours that look good...But even without an audience, they have masks for everything to enable them to remain stuck in their version of life. They are quick with excuses and then YOU are shamed for asking for reciprocity, then you become the one trying to undo the damage you have been made to believe YOU caused. Exhausted by it, don't ask anymore. Don't ask for anything, do what you need to do, yourself, it allows answers to questions about how valid their contribution is essential to your life. Just watch as the mask slips. Without them having to keep exercising the MASK muscle, it is no longer strengthened by your 'asking them for providing partnership', SO the mask gets lazy, it fails and slips, without having the need "to combat your distress" , the mask isn't being prodded or poked, they get comfortable in that and relaxed, then you see all the things that you have left them unattended, to be, in full view. Its not the words anymore, the words were from the mask, without the words, laid bare are all the actions and behaviours seen clearly. With you no longer ASKING the 'MASK; that makes up the lies to explain the actions and behaviours' ..... you just witness the actions and behaviour, or all the non action and non behaviours. Then Bingo. You see the intention all the time was to keep you locked into a one-sided arrangement that was only ever for their benefit.

@michaelamcgrath Agreed, they never say sorry, just spray confusion with no accountability, AND actually what they did is for their benefit only, and the intention is not to provide reciprocity in an adult, growing evolving relationship. THEY need to have their entitlement to you and all the resources you provide... VALIDATED by .....you not needing more than they are willing to give. Breadcrumbing. So they get annoyed when you say how sad you are about a thing happening, or not happening. Whether the thing happened or Not was for their benefit, or to keep the 'action of the relationship' locked into THEIR comfort zone only. They are avoiding stepping into their discomfort by ignoring when you need them... to step up for you. They don't want to be a reciprocal partner/friend/other... and will avoid it at all costs, making YOU the villain for needing/asking them for reciprocity. But they are AWARE of HOW things look to others, to an audience, so they shift manoeuvres around that... to keep the mask of GOOD PERSON to the audience, and come up with masked behaviours that look good...But even without an audience, they have masks for everything to enable them to remain stuck in their version of life. They are quick with excuses and then YOU are shamed for asking for reciprocity, then you become the one trying to undo the damage you have been made to believe YOU caused. Exhausted by it, don't ask anymore. Don't ask for anything, do what you need to do, yourself, it allows answers to questions about how valid their contribution is essential to your life. Just watch as the mask slips. Without them having to keep exercising the MASK muscle, it is no longer strengthened by your 'asking them for providing partnership', SO the mask gets lazy, it fails and slips, without having the need "to combat your distress" , the mask isn't being prodded or poked, they get comfortable in that and relaxed, then you see all the things that you have left them unattended, to be, in full view. Its not the words anymore, the words were from the mask, without the words, laid bare are all the actions and behaviours seen clearly. With you no longer ASKING the 'MASK; that makes up the lies to explain the actions and behaviours' ..... you just witness the actions and behaviour, or all the non action and non behaviours. Then Bingo. You see the intention all the time was to keep you locked into a one-sided arrangement that was only ever for their benefit. XXX AND XXXX XXXX When we look at our relationship with others, we see mirrored back, how we can be more informed about ourselves. And we see well enough, what we needed to see to make those changes ourselves. Michaela XXX

Question ! Are You ADHD? Indigo? Aquarius? Out on a limb? Sensitive ?...hyper-sensitive...Empathic? Super- empathic?.... A lone wolf? ... Wishing to withdraw from the constraints of representing a normal person that equates to you denying who you really are? ....No longer wishing to perform..??? Or any number of these in combination, all mixed together in one? I ask because this (below) is a good explanation of the draining experience of the 'small talk' dilemma....XXXX I was good at it for many years, and could mix with absolutely anyone, from small children to elderly adults, from CEO's and scientists to the non-CEO and non scientific general public.... finding in my communications toolbox, any number of ways to 'feel the space' i find myself in, and engage with people, able to READ the room, and get the gist of everything required to download the way forward, in the way of shared communication....XXXX IN later years, as a parent, you also find yourself with many many people, and make friends with people that you would not otherwise have anything in common with.... So, In later years, you may diverge away from friends, neighbours, work colleagues or pub buddies...as eventually, the expertise to maintain such friendships, and interest to perform in them, wears thin, until you eventually perfect the nod and smile and prepare the exit statement. Usually when you find that those exhausting levels were not only NOT reciprocated, but only functioned because you were providing the backdrop for them, and their world. XXX You can get wary of engaging even with people supposedly close to you, and end the phone call conversations with "Okay I must take the dog out for a walk now" or " I must spend time with the cat now, as she is dying". Retreating to where the interlude of silence is exactly the space filler you need right now. XXXX Recently diagnosed with ADHD I am finding all these funny insights into what is deemed as 'ADHD' traits. The undiagnosed 'trauma based' adhd'er.... at this age will have been able to carve out and 'craft' many skills for themselves so that they were able to 'adapt' to the world around them that made them feel excluded. In so doing, the round pegs in square holes, became multifaceted and 'cut-diamond' shaped, now possibly encompassed within the group known as 'neurodivergent's'....AND... Eventually, we will take over the world MMMWWWAAHHH HA ha ha MMMWWWAAHHH HA ha ha... Of Course I joke...But really, are WE on the verge of people waking up to themselves and the wakening superpowers???? Perhaps activated by any number of situations/circumstances/pressure points/extremes of healing and shadow work all polishing UP with the 'diamond' frequency of energy influxes.... that are just the 'right-fit ' frequency, for all concerned, to action the activation of superhuman abilities ?//// So maybe we are coming into a place where those deemed to be 'broken' in this world (((and needed medicating back into place)))... might just be those who didn't fit into the Stifled Broken world, and some, over the years, might have been good at managing steps to fool everyone else that you have 'also' acquiesced to a WORLD....that is ' group-filled' to comply with the 'manipulated social engineering' considered NORMAL, just so 'they' won't be upset with your (neurodivergent, superhuman) differences that challenges their 'group world view'. ....It is well known that the MKULtra program was about breaking down young people and children, captured from this 'normal' society and traumatised, with explicit aim to create neuro divergent's with psychic abilities....((( to be used AS and WHEN, on A NEED TO KNOW only basis)))...Where these MKULTRA's have created ( through trauma inflicted upon them) spaces in their head, and the said (psychic) spaces, can then be filled with suggestions and thoughts other than their own, and usually with something abhorrent, against their own nature, and then become the acting/performing soldiers for 'something' (the IT) that seeks to maintain a hostile dungeon of a place, both internally in people, and externally in the world....and are utilising these carefully created traumatised people to agitate the status quo into a tipping point, that is bringing the chaos to extremes...I Think, we are able to increase the weight against this the tipping point..... to go the other way....towards THE MORE Ordered version of the GOLDEN grid, towards a more a graceful, GRACE FILLED world with the 'arrival' of the opposite worldview, a true world that is NO LONGER overlayed with dark intentions...and may be it is the neurodivergent's that are only just.... 'beginning to DOWNLOAD the NEW world'.... that we are here to create. Transmission Ends. Michaela.

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Sorry, got to back right up, as i had a few posts lined up, and realised the theme was an amalgamation of the finished product, the right of passage and the shadow glitch in my matrix....So was going post it but then.... was not allowed to...maybe because it was still continuing or unravelling...or maybe because it is pertinent to me only, my usual device shut down for a short while. A week, in which and while, I navigated even stranger waters, thinking about it, is indeed very personal. And which thinking about it would make no sense to anyone other than those who are going through the same process of being split open to reveal wherein there may lie, a trojan horse. Michaela.

U SURVIVED THE ILLUSION & NOW REWARDS COME! TRUTH SET U FREE & CANCELLED A LIAR WHO FOOLED EVERYONE! Chiron Intuition™ Chiron Intuition™.....\\\\\\\\\\ "And when the healing comes, that's when a person realizes what was broken. 8:04 That's when a person realizes. /////////// And then it's the same four of wands at the bottom. 8:09 What is this energy and it is an achievement. It's a huge achievement. 8:17 But somebody definitely had to want to come out of whatever this is. Yeah. We even have the three of wands. That's willpower right there. 8:24 What is this energy? We have the ace of sword. Yes. And I believe that's the first sword. Oh, other than the three of sword. Yeah. Other than the three of 8:32 sword. This is the first sword to come out in this deck. 8:35 What is this energy? So, the truth definitely hit somebody. Oh, damn. We got the five of sword, too. Yeah, 8:43 I could see that being a problem. We have the four of pentacles. So, whatever that illusion was, it was definitely 8:51 messing with somebody's stability. But as long as somebody has the breakthrough, cuz it really is about the breakthrough. Cuz sometimes we think 8:58 something is right, it's not right. We got to come. We got to heal. What's this energy? "

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You Freed Yourself from the Mental Matrix that Controlled You. Witch and Scythe Witch and Scythe

Time Shift Blog. Be As God Created You to Be...." The Great Separation is upon us. The performances in the actors play of grand delusions are coming to its completion and end. If this is your time as marked by the quiet desperation and complete consciousness rejection of all in this world filled with complex layers of deception, lies and sorcery coded within it, this may be your message for taking time out and away for perfecting inner silence in which to hear the clear communication sourcing from our Cosmic Parents that are guiding us within to avoid the outer chaos and turmoil." https://energeticsynthesis.com/resource-tools/blog-timeline-shift/3994-be-as-god-created-you-to-be

traumatic Intelligence. Extremely perceptive. Survival wisdom.

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10 Healing Archetypes With Chiron in Taurus ~ 2026 to 2034 Astrology Molly McCord Molly McCord....Change of guard. Wounded healer, Chiron moves to Taurus. ( This came on the wake of a 'healing purge', more about that in the next post...so I was interested in any synchronicity that might arise from... what this all means. Michaela)

Revisiting The Purpose, (from an old, old post). Sunday, 31 December 2017 (a chat with myself) ...."cleaning out to create anew." ..." Where have you been lately? Well I have been to hell and back." XXX " Why did you go there? Well, it was part of my Drive and purpose to clean out as much as I can, to create anew." XXX " How is that going for you? Its tough. I am tired, I don't understand, I am vague about what to do....I see swamp on one side and beautiful clear morning sun on the mountainside on the other." xxx " How do you bridge this discrepancy? (pause before the answer) I am the bridge. " XXXX Michaela, from 2017.

Sunday, 31 December 2017 cleaning out to create anew. Where have you been lately? --- Well I have been to hell and back.--- Why did you go there? --- Well, it was part of my Drive and purpose to clean out as much as I can, to create anew.--- How is that going for you? --- Its tough. I am tired, I don't understand, I am vague about what to do....I see swamp on one side and beautiful clear morning sun on the mountainside on the other. --- How do you bridge this discrepancy? --- I am the bridge. !!!!

North Node. yours is found in your Natal chart. My North node is Gemini in 12th house..."https://astrolibrary.org/interpretations/north-node-gemini/ 12th House With the North Node in Gemini in your twelfth house, your life path involves exploring your spirituality, embracing introspection, and developing empathy and compassion. You are encouraged to communicate with your intuition, engage in self-reflection, and embrace solitude as a means of personal growth. Trusting your inner wisdom will support your journey. "....."The North Node, also called the True Node, is not a physical planet but a mathematical point in your birth chart where the Moon’s orbit intersects the ecliptic, forming an axis with the South Node, which lies directly opposite it Astrology.com "....And "House and Sign Placement: The zodiac sign and house of your North Node reveal the specific areas of life and types of experiences that will foster your spiritual growth astrologybyjo.com ". XXX So, once you find the house and the astrology sign located therein, you will reveal your North Node. then you see, actually how much or little you've been leaning into this already. To Look up your chart, have the date and time of birth, and location, most sites like https://alabe.com/freechart/ do this for free. Michaela

XXXXXXXX So from co pilot: a north Node of gemini in the 12th house is :""" Copilot Search Branding North Node in Gemini in the 12th House signifies a life path focused on spiritual growth, introspection, and developing communication and intellectual curiosity in hidden or subconscious realms. Core Meaning Having your North Node in Gemini emphasizes the development of communication, learning, curiosity, and adaptability as central to your soul’s growth. Gemini energy encourages you to explore ideas, ask questions, and engage with the world through intellectual and social connections. In the 12th House, this energy is expressed in areas of spirituality, subconscious awareness, hidden influences, and introspection, making your life path one of inner exploration and subtle understanding rather than overt action or external achievement zatayat.com XXXX Life Lessons and Challenges This placement often challenges you to release rigid beliefs, over-reliance on certainty, and the need to control outcomes. You may have a karmic tendency, reflected in your South Node in Sagittarius in the 6th House, to focus on duty, productivity, and moral certainty, sometimes at the expense of inner reflection or spiritual openness northnodesignandhouse.com . The key lesson is to embrace curiosity without demanding immediate answers, allowing meaning to emerge gradually through observation, dreams, and intuition northnodesignandhouse.com Personal Growth and Expression To fulfill your North Node potential, you are encouraged to: Engage in introspection and spiritual practices that connect you with your subconscious mind. Communicate with subtlety and empathy, using your intellectual skills to explore hidden truths. Balance versatility with depth, avoiding superficiality while remaining open to new ideas and perspectives Astrology Library Astrology Library +1 . Embrace solitude and reflection, giving yourself space to process insights and integrate spiritual understanding yourhigherjourney.com yourhigherjourney.com . This placement also supports careers or activities involving teaching, writing, counseling, or spiritual guidance, where your ability to combine intellectual curiosity with empathy and intuition can flourish astroyou.com astroyou.com . Karmic and Spiritual Implications The North Node in Gemini in the 12th House represents a soul path of gentle inquiry, spiritual humility, and inner listening. You are learning to trust your inner wisdom, release the need for constant productivity, and cultivate compassion and understanding for yourself and others. Success comes from integrating Gemini’s adaptability and communication skills with the 12th House’s introspective and spiritual qualities, rather than pursuing external validation or rigid intellectual certainty zatayat.com zatayat.com +2 . By embracing this path, you can transform past tendencies toward over-certainty and duty into a life of curiosity, spiritual insight, and meaningful connection with the unseen aspects of life. """" XXXXXXXX The North Node represents your soul’s intended path, life lessons, and areas of growth that you are meant to develop in this lifetime. Overview The North Node, also called the True Node, is not a physical planet but a mathematical point in your birth chart where the Moon’s orbit intersects the ecliptic, forming an axis with the South Node, which lies directly opposite it Astrology.com Astrology.com +1 . It symbolizes the qualities, experiences, and challenges you are meant to embrace to grow spiritually and fulfill your life purpose astrologybyjo.com astrologybyjo.com +1 . While the South Node reflects your comfort zone, innate talents, and past life patterns, the North Node points to unfamiliar territory that encourages evolution and personal development Astrology.com Astrology.com +1 . Spiritual and Karmic Significance The North Node is often described as a “Node of Destiny” because it highlights the karmic lessons and growth opportunities in your life Astrology.com Astrology.com . It represents the traits and experiences you need to cultivate, which may feel uncomfortable or challenging at first, as they push you beyond familiar patterns astrologybyjo.com astrologybyjo.com +1 . By consciously working toward the North Node’s qualities, you balance the karmic axis and achieve greater fulfillment and happiness Cafe Astrology Cafe Astrology . Practical Implications Life Purpose: The North Node indicates the direction your soul wants to evolve, guiding career choices, relationships, and personal development Astrologify Astrologify . Challenges and Growth: It often requires stepping out of your comfort zone, learning new skills, and embracing unfamiliar experiences astrologybyjo.com astrologybyjo.com . Relationship to South Node: The South Node represents past life gifts and natural abilities. Using these as a foundation while moving toward the North Node ensures balanced growth astrologybyjo.com astrologybyjo.com +1 . House and Sign Placement: The zodiac sign and house of your North Node reveal the specific areas of life and types of experiences that will foster your spiritual growth astrologybyjo.com astrologybyjo.com +1 . For example, a North Node in the Fourth House may involve learning nurturing and domestic responsibilities, while a North Node in the Ninth House may encourage travel and expanding horizons Astrologify Astrologify . Summary In essence, the North Node is a guide to your soul’s journey, showing where you are meant to grow, the lessons you are meant to learn, and the experiences that will help you evolve. By embracing its energy, you move toward your highest potential while balancing the comfort and skills of your South Node Astrology.com Astrology.com +1 .

Not sure about the science of this.... but if it Fits, well then, it fits...A very basic simplification : (My version )The astrological energy of ruling parts of the body, OR to do with the 'Achilles heel' means that health issues IN THOSE AREAs 'may/will' be affected by whatever affects the person in that HOUSE of their Chart. For example...My 1st house is Cancer, and if you read what 1st house pertains to, and compare that with the health/weaknesses assigned to the astrological sign that lies in that house...So Cancer is in my First house...and the detrimental weaknesses assigned are to do with stomach and digestive problems. So that'd be a CORRECT TICK for me then. My sun sign is Aquarius, and is in my 8th House, of birth death and taxes (and lots of other icky stuff), so detrimental issues may be affecting ' the ankle' and therefore the ability to stand UP IN ..... As in: "I am Affected in the ability to I stand up in my strengths... This becomes my weakness. I Can't land my helicopter to rescue myself. See my previous post Michaela. . " So if you feel drawn to feel into astrology, do so with your intuition....Intuitively reading of material or of taking anything in really, is that you use your own systems to: 1. discern. and 2. alert you of anything that may be a golden nugget, or a breadcrumb clue that is valid now, or later down the road, on your journey to find you. Michaela.

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.....Emotional manipulation is the strategy. ....Your PURPOSE is the target. Stay alert‼️ 🔮Enlightened Auntie🔮 🔮Enlightened Auntie🔮.....( XXX They will find your Achilles Heel, your soft spot, your weakness which is supposed to be your strength, Or use that quality of strength against you...XXX ) So "" hear's """ (or here is) the thing, while we are striding in longer steps towards the sunrise of a new dawn, towards the glimpse of light through the split in the matrix...beware...there is entity activity that is munching like parasites on the collective's Achille's heel to try to stop that momentum. .... Or slow down the progress. XXXX I had a huge and personal message about this the other day. Two nights ago, I was coming down the stairs in the dark, so as not to wake the others , or the puppy, and stumbled down the last step, twisting my ankle painfully. It was late, so it wasn't until the next day I decided to do do something about it. IN PAIN I called the doctor, and eventually hobbled into an appointment later that day 4.50pm. (and so here is the thing again when you are NOT prioritising your self or your journey, others are happy to commit you to things to accommodate them) The doctor asked... why didn't you do something about this earlier? couldn't you come earlier? (I could not for reasons already hinted at) He said 'This could be a bad fracture!' It was centred in and under my ankle.... It was explained to me that it was too late to have a walk in Xray so NOW it was going to take extra long, to get an Xray done following the usual procedu0res..., I managed to hobble down to the community Hospital and followed the procedures. The Xray showed no fracture, but significant soft tissue damage. The next day I was obviously still sore. The day after, i. e, today, the pain has completely gone... So I'm thinking, " WTF was that all about?? "....It came to me today.... and sank in deeper while watching this youtube from E A....The backdrop is that I am going through some serious 'bonesplitting' issues, that have me hovering like a rescue helicopter that can't land... (to rescue myself ) on the other side of which will be liberation!!! I have desire to manifest through the grossness of low density life and I KNOW I CAN DO IT..!!! But the bonesplitting stuff is pulling at me hard and strong...(uniquely designed to disable my psyche I might add, in the form of emotional manipulation pointedly affecting me) then I realise my own empathic Achilles heel is being worked on. !!! I am Aquarius so that means that when my (aquarian empathic) Achilles heel is going to be worked, and it is detrimental to me... a message will come to notify me by pulling physically at my ankles...It means : Just when WE think We are landing on the right spot having jumped a high fence.. the 'Achilles heel' (or its physical equivalent, the ankle' in my case) IS warning of any potential attacks to derail, OR to TEST ...However my ankle was not broke. AND STRANGELY The soft tissue damage seems to be okay now, TODAY, only the second day after the twist, (Twist in the tale) when it was said it would take 6 weeks to mend....So this was a message that "...in the dark (hidden or disguised in ways that would tug.... 'uniquely to me and my strengths and weaknesses'.... at my heart strings, something would be at play to derail my further movement....So listening to this YOUTUBE today, 'arrowed' that home for me, and helps me pulls my focus away from the emotional manipulation.... uniquely blended against me.... that shouts at me and makes my heart t bleed into my heart...because THEY are the false flags set to derail me. XXXXX So if you HEAR these kind of notifications, set against your heart, let your hand-heart point your face back totally in the direction you are heading to. If not, you will hear and feel the 'physical arrow' into your actual Achilles heel... (wherever that may be, astrologically speaking)..... until you get the point !!!! XXXX Michaela. XXXX)

Back Drop and Back Fill People - Dolores Cannon & Guy Steven Needler .....(So I did come across this before, and its back on my radar for various reasons, so maybe worthwhile to come back to it again... .Michaela)

How to Recognize People Without a Soul – Dolores Cannon Explains the 5 Traits to Watch For AI Awakening Journey Awakening Journey ....(Unfortunately I know a few who fit this description, and this Dolores Canon Youtube feels like it is uniquely answering a question for me. Michaela)

Spirit Is CALLING YOU🚨Out Of The CAVE • It’s DONE 🎬You’ll HEAR The Siren Of Your New LIFE Opening 🕸️ Venusian Light Tarot Venusian Light Tarot....."Allow yourself to 37:58 gravitate towards whatever these things are that are opening or unexpected doorways. It feels like it's mostly about change."

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(A book, the book referred to the previous post)....... Autoimmunity and the Good Girls: How Permission to Put Ourselves First Has the Power to Keep Us Well Hardcover – June 2, 2026 by Sara Hirsh Bordo (Author) 4.2 on Goodreads 22 ratings #1 Best Seller in Immune Systems......( I haven't read this yet, but will be soon. Having already walked this story myself, and latterly, been investigating my own and Familial (trauma) responses that deliver autoimmune responses to the body to.... finally bring us into a submission that floors us. AND, when finally flat on the floor...we can start the impulse to see into where, when, what and why ...OUR bodies starts this autoimmune response (IT IS the campaign to bring you back to YOU).....So, Resonating with this theme, it has become apparent to those that know and feel that THINGS NEED TO CHANGE (that includes all the hidden traumas and psyche wierdness considered normal).... to produce healthy balanced humans to populate the earth, from the ground up, and from which new Earth Grows,... through the dynamic symbiosis with its people, The weeds that have entangled us as low lying fruit...have to pulled up...So this is one theme that women mainly, but some males will also resonate with, and equates to the deeply unbalanced, issue of carrying the heavy weight (emotional weight/physical weight ) for others for so long, and those that do, have taken on that responsibility, or accepted it, consciously or unconsciously, or both in many cases. Empathic natured souls OR souls that have had the SACRIFICE 'gene' somehow embedded (possibly from life times), and those that have been taught to abandon their own needs in service of ...'servicing others's needs. To detrimental life consequences for the self. How to give yourself permission to thrive...So This may seem funny , even absurd but it is a thing I have experienced...Waiting to be given PERMISSION \\\\\ This is a 'silent energy' spider web of energy, although not obvious, is best described as when a servant has filled their duty, they have 'earned' permission to go to their room and rest...//// But in a bigger outside life 'Waiting for permission' is like being granted permission, by a higher order.. ONCE it is EARNED, and recognised that you have done the dishes, you are free to thrive in whatever ways you SEE to be free. But usually exhausted this type of freedom won't amount to much. After all the chores, looked after this person, raised the kids, done this work, carried this burden, worked at this job to pay the bills, etc etc, all done in love, but usually negating self love, as the duties concerned come first...Hidden agendas and other manipulations are usually woven in here too... But THE BIGGERE SENSE OF permission is not coming IN TO YOU FROM anyone else. Even if recognised a job well done....BECAUSE the status quo of """ everyone else being supported to be their best, or live their best life""" depends on you being available to do the supporting for them. To carry the tasks that allow others to be free to be themselves...So Permission IN THE BIGGER SENSE has to come from yourself. Takes a long time to realise "don't need anyone else's permission to do, or to be...It takes some time to figure this out, and even more time to embody your own permission...Especially if there if are empathic and psychic qualities at play here because you are always 'SENSING and seeing the absence, the lack and limitations' for others....So you want to input your provisions to balance life them...for the others and can't see where that creates the imbalance in your own life...AND SO....the body has been measuring this imbalance and comes up with its own score card. Create a PERMISSION DREAM BOARD and place it near the 'Fuckit account ' balance' sheet...that way you add cash more.... when you acknowledge the Permission comes from only YOU....Michaela)

"This illuminating volume will liberate many women from self-suppression and its frequent consequence, physical illness."— Gabor Maté M.D. New York Times bestselling author of The Myth of Normal Foreword by Dr. Richard Carmona MD, MPH, FACS, 17th Surgeon General of the United States The inspirational, deeply researched wellness journey by the award-winning filmmaker, activist, and founder of Women Rising, shining a light on how too many girls are trained to self-silence and serve others—and how we can heal. For generations, women have been told to be “good”—to put others first, to silence their own voices, to neglect their own needs. But a new groundswell of evidence reveals the cost: when our lives are compromised, so are our immune systems. Raised in a big Texas-Lebanese family as the eldest and only daughter, Sara Hirsh Bordo grew up caring for everyone else’s needs at the expense of her own. Later, as an acclaimed director lifting up other women’s stories, she watched her own body collapse under the weight of autoimmune disease and cancer. Only when she finally reclaimed sovereignty over her own voice, did she heal. Determined to understand this link, Sara funded the first quantitative research at the intersection of female empowerment and autoimmunity. The results were groundbreaking: women raised in caretaker roles—especially eldest daughters—are disproportionately likely to develop autoimmune diseases such as Hashimoto’s, lupus, multiple sclerosis, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and more. This study, endorsed by former U.S. Surgeon General Dr. Richard Carmona, garnered national media attention and has been shared across 20 countries. In these pages, you will find: How compromised girlhood identities create compromised immune systems in womanhood—and how to rewrite your story. Impacts of adverse childhood experiences (ACEs) on autoimmunity and poor health. Stunning findings from her research, such as more than 6 in 10 women with autoimmune diseases were raised as the oldest or only daughter in their families What radically changes in health when authenticity, environment, and self-permission finally align. Inner girlhood work, including re-mothering through modern and mystical feminine archetypes. How to unlearn your primary role as a caregiver and practical guides for evolving from “good” to “real” at any age. Weaving together memoir, exclusive expert interviews, evidence-based findings, and women’s personal stories, Autoimmunity and the Good Girls is a rousing testament to the missing modality in women’s health— sovereign self-permission to speak up, to transform, and heal.

Whoa, Big Messages! Uranus-Sedna-Pleiadean in Gemini Square Nodes of Fate ~ 2026 Astrology Molly McCord Molly McCord

Sarah Knight on Why You Need a “F*ck Budget” How different would your life be if you only devoted your time, money, and energy to things that you genuinely care about? by Carrie M. King | 2018-09-11.....xxx (BUT ... initially I read the title as ..Getting a 'fuckit' budget, \\\ADHD //and my mind jumped....to see A budget account that you direct cash to, to do those things that make you say "Fuck it, I'll do it." And I loved the idea. Perhaps everyone has these pots, and maybe IT IS A thing. But reading the piece through properly I see its about being generous with the things, (as in time, money, love, attention, resources and reciprocity) that you do actually give a fuck about, and pulling back from everything else...So yeah, good....But I still think MY version is better, where you create a money budget to divert cashflow into a 'fuck it' account, So it goes like this.... "I'll just check my 'fuck it account', and YES, Fuck it , I'll do it !!! Michaela.

So this is something I read only briefly, and actually read it as a 'Fuckit Budget', without reading on and my mind jumped. https://www.blinkist.com/magazine/posts/need-fck-budget XXXXX The article is in: Blinklist.com """" Sarah Knight’s book covers are instantly recognizable. Lining bestseller walls worldwide, her tongue-in-cheek, mildly obscene titles playfully nudge people towards a simple truth: that they really don’t have to give a fuck about everything. Want more Sarah Knight? Learn how she’s dealing with lockdown in Blinkist’s new series, Checking In. Listen now on the Blinkist app. And in a world that cashes in on people’s cares and anxieties, this message has resonated with millions of readers. Her five No Fucks Given Guides — as well as their accompanying journals and calendars — offer readers a way to care more about what they want and less about people-pleasing. This doesn’t mean you have to suddenly become a jerk. It just means knowing what you really want from life and learning to be firm and resolute about it. But, if you’ll excuse the cliché, that’s easier said than done. How are you supposed to figure out how to divide your time, energy, and money? How are you supposed to know what really matters? Knight has a simple solution: you need to devise a “fuck budget.” Erm, sorry, what? Yes, you read that right: you need a fuck budget. A fuck budget is the amount of fucks you are prepared to give to any one thing, on any given day. If you say you give a fuck about something, that means you care about it. And if you care about something, that means you’re willing to spend your time, energy, and money on it. But you’re only one person and you only have so many fucks to give. That’s why you need to budget accordingly. “…you can deplete [your fuck budget] in the same way that you could deplete a financial budget. So, if you are overbooked on the calendar, and you’re overwhelmed with a to-do list, and you’re overburdened by people’s expectations of you – those are all fucks that you are giving.” — Sarah Knight speaking on Simplify So, if your fucks = your time, money, and energy, it becomes easier to see what’s worth giving a fuck about and what’s not. What is the best use of all those things? What will bring you fulfillment and happiness? Knight has a method that can help you decide. “Your mind is […] stuffed with every single thing that you’ve been asked to give a fuck about, whether you want to or not. […] Sit down and make a list, just write out all of those things and that itself is pretty therapeutic. Then go over the list and just hover over each item with a fat black magic marker and think, “Do I really give a fuck? Do I care about this thing? And do I want to give my fucks to it?” And if the answer is no, you cross it out.” — Sarah Knight speaking on Simplify At the end of this process, you should have a clear list of things to which you really want to devote yourself. By budgeting the time, energy, and money that you are willing to give to anything, you quickly become better at prioritizing. Whether it’s work that you really care about, or people that you really want to help, or TV shows that you actually want to see rather than just watching them for the sake of it, you’ll start to feel more in control of how you spend your life. """""

If you’re feeling lost and confused right now, this is why AquaGem Oracle AquaGem Oracle.......Remember my post ...."Friday, 29 May 2026 "Howling at the moon", This moon today, in Sagitarrius, 29th May 2025, is being prophesied as the next big Moment....in a long line of moments. All moments are waiting to be seized and some moments will arrive, drop a payload and silently simmer in the fallout, but he payload would have been dropped. I used to try to keep myself aware of the 'moon situation' and follow what the different astrologers were saying, but now If do come across a timely astrology report, I can say that I am 'informed' before the event....But am I, really?" ??? Well, completely taken off guard.... the pay load dropped this weekend, silently... implosions and anger bombs were detonated within me... And by today I see the anger detonated the 'build up of intensity over the years that was stifled into more socially acceptable wording But that had never been fully augmented into the power it is meant to be...(by that i mean the anger had never been opened fully and had its yield recovered completely. the moments all stifled from before...activated by yet another stifling of anger masking itself in a more 'graceful' mode of modest 'confusion'.....which i didn't register at the time, yesterday as I was busy hiding my outrage at a NEW but OLD AND HERE AGAIN SITUATION revival... with a softer form of bemusement at the returning situation. So the 'CONFUSION', that is talked about here in this youtube by AquaGem, Only made sense by yesterday, Sunday afternoon, but by the evening it had slipped the mask off to reveal the anger burning, by midnight it was an inferno...And it hurt my insides. But I get that this IS THE ONLY WAY to reach down into it, and activate its retrieval. This was the full moon's payload, for me and was intense, still feeling weak now, and NEEDING DEEP REST. Remember DEEP REST and allow the process, don't push through, HAVE THE CONVERSATION....with yourself//I have Cancer in my 1st house and often side step around and look in other directions because Cancer needs that type of softly softly approach on itself. It is A cab. Anyway whatever kind of payload you get from this passing full moon and from this Youtube, I hope this inspires some insight activation or clarification for you... Michaela