Stop beating yourself with a stick, do the healing and turn it into a Spirit Stick.

My Spirit sticks.

The journey weaves different threads into itself.  We can now finally choose what threads we weave onto our paths.

I came across this site 

http://otteronarock.com/lynx-spirit-animal-totem-silence/ 

when looking through for another site,  for something entirely different, or so I thought, then I knew..... its all linked. or lynxed as in Lynx Medicine.  

Lynx Medicine: Holding onto information that harms you (or another person) out of fear of the consequences will only prolong pain and delay resolution. Lynx medicine asks that we become intolerant of deception, including self-deception. Secrets cause confusion which lead to lies.  Life is fascinating enough without deliberately manufacturing distortions of the truth.   Silence is peace. If there is frustration in your silence, what are the secrets that are holding you hostage?   

As I have said a few times I have been doing ancestral lineage healing and family healing for many years, even since a child, but was not consciously aware then. It seems that teenage years is the first big threshold that brings it to your attention but we tend to get swept off course from allowing that to happen.

I recently have experienced a big breakthrough in my own energy and feel very liberated at the moment. Lots of cycles and "ways of being" have come to a series of synchronised endings and are overlapping with new beginnings.

I have actively ended 'old' contracts. These are the contracts  that hold your gaze down instead of up.

But we don't know we have been diverted from looking up because the FORCE of all the chatter, of all that is contrary to where we would really like to be on our ascension paths, has been like a boot on our heads. keeping it down.

I have ended them only because In the end I could see them, and all of them, and there were many. It was a natural and inevitable sequence, that I should see them, as I spent years wading through the sludge asking, why I am Wading through sludge? Always feeling a boot on my head, keeping my head and gaze down.

The internal contracts are what dictates how you see life, and the patterns that you react to life with.

These are determined by the overwhelming distractions, which can only be seen and heard as useless chatter which tumbles around in our minds over and over, giving us a Ground hog day, every 10 minutes and act only to  numb us and dumb us down.

The other aspects which define the lenses that you live your life by are the inherited and ancestral tensions and life definitions that are displayed and passed SECRETLY through in your DNA. These colour your felings, thought processes, world views, opinions, they are responsible for the lens in your brain that deciphers and acts on, incoming perceptions from your biological sensory equipment.

It is this lineage from which you come, that has given you the DNA and the secrets hidden therein.  that pour forth, from you and in you, your known and unknown  history, biology, ecology and environment and information about your demograph, culture and civilisation that define each stage of your lineage.  This will have all been embedded into your own personal and current energy field.

Most of what you are holding onto, (secretly as you will not know the true depth of it, until you look and it will take quite a while),  is up for either renewal or removal.

 It is in this TIME ON EARTH, Time for you to heal yourself consciously and transmute the stuff that you carry on behalf of your lineage, so that it is finally released, not only from YOU but from your ANCESTRAL LINEAGE and which in turn, clears up that whole 'seam of energy in humanity' and eventually all life ON EARTH.

We need it for our return out of the dark ages and into NEW LIFE ON EARTH.

It really is that big a deal.

A powerful example is the trauma that is scientifically proven to be evident in children whose parents or grandparents lived through the holocaust at a time that they themselves were not even born. The trauma is a living breathing reality for that person who has no personal experience of being in the holocaust.

The same is true for all peoples in war energy, or even slavery, any kind of horrible historical event happening to any people, will be energetically present in descendants down that ancestral line. Energy just doesn't disappear it flows through, down the line till someone notices it.

So, lets bring this back home.  Say, a more familiar example might be when you wake up each morning and try as you might, you can't shake off the low feeling of say....that life is harsh and not worth living. It doesn't matter what you do, this feeling comes back each morning, or each evening, or once a week or every Christmas.

What is happening is that you are defaulting to a conditioning "that life is harsh", which is the message hidden and embedded in you, and you are carrying this message like a contract, that you have agreed to carry, until you finally see what it is, a contract that you have had slipped into your DNA which will be slipped into each consecutive generative that carry your gene pool or energy memory. It is only when you see this and then say, "OK what Am I going to do about it????" that  you have to start stilling the constant chatter, stop listening to the dull messages that distract you away from the deep inner voice that is your own divine God aspect, which is constantly nudging you to be awake, and to listen  to your own  intuition.

 Follow your guidance, to find ALL the places (and there may be many) that bring you where you need to be,  to find healing situations at each stage.

This all flows quite easily IF or WHEN you realise, that most of your thoughts and actions, and patterns of behaviour and reacting, show you that you are working from a place of being dis-empowered. When it becomes obvious that its time to make changes to those contracts, or remove those particular lenses that shape how you experience life, secreted into your biological and psychological makeup, long long ago.

Shut out everything else,  and move into into de-cluttering from your energy field, everything that YOU decide no longer has a place in how you live your life.

With me a few things were running concurrently. Old patterns of despair were rising, making me sick with despair, instead of blocking them I knew it was time to see them to release them.

I went for a powerful regression with a healer that my intuition guided me to. The session was long and deep.

At this time, too,  I had discovered in a suitcase writings, letters and poetry from as early as 1979. It was full of secrets and I had been in charge of carrying this precious material since that time. At that time I was in my early teens, vulnerable and going through a tumultuous emotional upheaval. This lasted a few years and the written material was my thoughts and secrets, also very sad writings, poetry and letters to me from a much loved cousin who was in huge despair himself and also a teenager.  I had agreed to carry this precious cargo from year to year and not let go until I could do something with it.

Also during this uncovering,  my own teenagers  had been pushing me into what I thought was 'Parental' sadness and desperation  for a long time, as I witnessed their destructive behaviour and self sabotage. It was only when I finally got out the suitcase, to go through and clear out stuff for our move to our next home, that I actually looked at the long forgotten writings in the case, and saw my own destructive and self sabotage through hurt and pain.  They were mirroring in me what had been hidden in pain for so long.

The teenage time for me was about stepping into a harsh life, (i.e stepping into the contractual obligations that unfold in puberty), that I resented and fought against, and it was compounded by seeing the resentment of my own two children as they were stepping into a 'harsh life' and were fighting back.

In general, teenage years in Western society is not trully honoured as a developmental milestone, until you hit 18years old.

Coming into teenage years is like birthing from a child and loaded up with some powerful force of NATURE.  A teenager has big wings trying to push out of the strapping that binds them. As a result of this time not being properly honoured or cultivated, other than media mainstream culture of boozy birthday parties filled with balloons (?)  if lucky.....we grow with little or no self esteem or self love.  So a teenager lands on the runway of life with such "bigness" but sadly this is soon squashed and shoved aside as the reality of the smallness and limited society forms the lock-down boundaries of "FIT IN or FUCK OFF".

But the reality is, We are just fighting ourselves, and it is in the teenage years  that the Battle comes out in us as we know the innocence and wonder of being young and invincible is being used against us to maybe create clones, and working fodder,  and we are forcibly dumbed down by the 'matrix or the machine' that works to dis-empower us. 

Also our Ancestral  linage currency of anger, despair, or whatever, has been woven into us patterns that we accept as ours.

 What happens then is we either :

give in and take on the dictates of a life that dictates to us and we forget our inner imagination, our inner callings our higher energies, 

(that if things were different, and socialising were different, these would be cultivated and honoured, and the teenager energy would blossom into the vast expanse of whole and amazing adults working together, creating balanced societies that enhance the world). 

Or 

we remain destructive and objecting against the falseness and contracts that we are obliged to be the holders of, and we sabotage them and ourselves in the process, with addictions and low self worth etc etc, until healing is called. 

In fact both scenarios need healing.

I also realised that my own 'teenage inner child' had been waiting for me to find her and had been calling from the past to be loved. But this self love love cannot come when you are so distracted by the noise that is not your own but comes from running the gauntlet of survival,  encased in a DNA 'suit of armour' that seemingly protects you (ego) from all the harshness in life that your lineage DNA has encountered for hundreds of years. 

So FIVE things had to happen for me to consciously break this. 

1. Carrying all this for many years until enough ancestral and personal healing is done.

2. Finally, seeing it all, and piecing it all together as described above.

3.  Making a Spirit Stick. Generally just use your intuition and imagination. It is a very CREATIVE and joyful thing to do. Find a stick and using a variety of threads and small totem items, weave the "healed story together"

From my healing regression session, the healer suggested I make a spirit stick to carry the energy of the healing that was happening. There are always many threads weaving together and so it grounds and anchors the healing by weaving different threads around a ceremonial stick to show that you have respected and honoured the process for the healing process to occur.  It really is the most the therapeutic thing to do at this time because it is difficult to keep the head busy while the heart is expanding in ways that the head can't get around.  

The first spirit stick was to honour my 'teenage' INNER CHILD, and her process and my process back to gether again, bringing joy with it and marking the lost years with a weave of yellow thread to depict the golden energy I have been surrounding my energy field as i progress through the healing process.

The second spirit stick was  to honour the process of making a new life contract and also blessing, with gratitude, my old life contract, (now null and void), because without doubt, much expansion was achieved the hard way through the old life contracts.  I placed crystals into the weave on this stick. I also wove in a broken Swallow broach as a totem to the long and arduous journey I had somehow contracted to undertake.

4. Rewriting a new life contract that nulls and voids all contracts up this point that serves to dis-empower me. Re-writing a new life contract is a personal thing, and it comes at the time when you consciously know, deep down that you have lived through enough of the old contracts to finally have "honoured them" to do justice to the secrets carried through them from your ancestral lineage. Choose your words and thoughts very clearly when Stating a new Personal Life Contract. See the following on Lynx Medicine.

5. Burning up, in a ceremony/ritual, the papers and writings by  my teenage self and the writings (secrets) I was holding in protection for a much loved cousin. The writings from the cousin worked to reinforce my own sadness and resentment and I wanted to protect the vulnerability (secrets) of my teenage self and my teenage cousin. In us both, at that time was the unfolding of the patterns and hurts and destructive sabotage carried through from our ancestral Lineage. It was coming out for healing and these things take many years until they can seen for what they are, to be healed.

So last night I had the burning session and immediately my energy was lighter and I was able to take in more light and more healing. I feel SOMETHING BIG HAS CHANGED.

noting the dead wood .

burning up the papers written by me and to me during those powerful teenage years.

Also i got to burn up old contract papers as I call time on them. I keep things, the written word is contract that binds us. So this time be careful what you put your word to if it is not your creation.



Thank you for your time.

Michaela.



Now, more Lynx Medicine.  The link to the full article is posted below.

"The endless onslaught of advertising that has now invaded every aspect of Western culture is also designed to create noise in the mind and keep us from our better judgment.  Commercials are other people’s priorities trying to dictate what yours ought to be.  As advertising spreads like a fungus across all surfaces in our lives, from the coffee cup holder to the calendar app on your smart phone, our thoughts are constantly interrupted with the noise of marketing and sales.  Advertising agencies know exactly how our repetitive mind works with it’s compulsive looping and they design verbal campaigns specifically to become random, unconnected sound bytes in the brain that will rattle about and lead to irrational, unnecessary spending. Some ads have even become wordless jingles that stick like gum in the brain.  These catch phrases fill the space in our heads and obstruct the ability for deeper contemplation. The content of our thoughts have no deeper meaning or value beyond the fleeting synaps they ride on. Without silent observation of these external voices and agressive priorities, the mind can become quite insane.  Lynx medicine suggests that you to ask yourself what you want and why.  Have you been convinced you need something as a way of escaping the struggles of growing up? Or are your desires connected to an independent curiosity and inner passion moving you towards a larger experience of your self and others? We may not be able to escape the unyielding monsoon of logo’s and branding that is our media-obsessed world, but Lynx medicine advises that we filter out the confusion by simply recognizing those external voices for what they are- irrelevant.

Lynx medicine hears through the surface meaning of spoken words to the true tonal vibration in the waythe words were said.  She hears the true meaning of the speaker regardless of the word-play they may hide behind. 

http://otteronarock.com/lynx-spirit-animal-totem-silence/