Choice... and perspective. 1. Find a different perspective and allow different perspective to flow to you concerning the description of stories from your life that you repeat...this means asking for and receiving insight that uplift the energy of those stories that habituate in our energy field. Michaela.

Recently I was consciously working on perspective change and asked for help. 

Around that time I was in a shop and felt to buy three cards each depicting a different picture. One was of bright red poppy field in the summer with a huge tree standing strong and grounded in the centre.The other card was a beautiful picture of little garden birds on blossom covered branches and the last was an impression style painting of three children paddling in the sea. Later that day and directly from these images I was given waves of understanding in which I was able to transform certain stories in my life.

Described here in an email to a friend on 25 August. If we look at what we choose and our perspective within those choices we can see how the bubbles of perspective GIVE us the life from those filters. Michaela 

Hiya, how are you??? 

What did you think about his ' transitioning realities' and being in the void???...i totally got it and it helped navigate the feelings as a curious child standing in the void, when I picked out the advice he gave "be curious and expect miracles".

 Also the word Generosity kept bouncing around, which felt really nice and expansive for me.

So much going on for me, I had  big openings yesterday and felt so glad and so much love. I was bloody sparkling in so much colour.

By the end of the day I had big enlightenment....I 'saw' the energy of my dad, my brother and mum in a beautiful way and not the way I had usually seen them,

 or been accustomed to see them, 

or tricked to see them 

however that works... but think its through my own energy projections.

 

So on one level Its like this...we see people in the way that is calling our attention to whats going on in inside us..My brother was very sick...and I saw him in a way that broke my heart, year after year, whereas my mum just accepted it and it didn't break her heart. I saw Peter in the way I needed to see him in order to have that deep complex relationship... that pulled me down inside to the very bottom...

The same with my dad, I saw him in a way that created the type of energy experience and feelings that were so deep and dark. 

Yet my mum had a different experience with my dad. I am not saying i am wrong about anything I perceived or felt or believed I felt. But what I am saying is we can get insight into another higher level story where there is another way to perceive them, which we get when we are opening. 

What I experienced in feelings with my  mum,again are very surreal and deep in a way that is very personal to me, BUT we assume everyone is experiencing a similar relationship...but no one is feeling like I do because  I am having a 'feeling/emotional/energy rainbow' outpouring of many things, that no one else is feeling, 

because that is what we do... we create the scenarios and relationships that GIVE us those bottles of 'drink me' stuff.... which is different for everyone and which is actually a self-synthesizing arrangement, sometimes a karma balancing of our own internal energy...and..... the arrangements of all perceptions of 'relationship play' IS ALL  one which comes from us individually and personally, as we each make the decision of the kind and of the Depth that we need to feel....and so these relationships allow us the stage  to feel deeply into them. 

So, I bought three cards yesterday, without thinking really...and  it wasn't till I got home that I realised all that follwoed. 

Card 1. This card is a picture of a painting of little children paddling in the sea on a sunny day, and was for me to remember my dream and to acknowledge keeping that seaside dream and childlike curiosity. 

Card 2. This card which was a painting of garden birds and IS very like the energy of my mum...and not the sick old lady with MS and a broken heart, the enrgy vibration I HAD assigned to her..So the sweet energy of nature in garden birds and blossom is her real energy signature. 

Card 3. This card which was a painting of a tree standing in a poppy field, and is was for Peter. I had painted  'Poppies for Peter', years ago, which was sad with dark stormy skies and blood red poppies in a torrential rain. This card I bought was a summers day, and the tree was tall and strong surrounded by beautiful sensual and soft poppies...this was for the real energy signature of Peter, Again very different from the one I had assigned  to him. 

These are all paths through the process of RESOLVING TRAUMA.

We are at many times, many things to different people and we assist them as they assist us by performing the role in a required relationship from which we get the deep down insights into ourselves. 

Then I came back to Card 1. I  was able to change the memory of the story of my childhood, and the card of the children paddling in the sea, in the sunlight, I decided to share with my dad. In and with and Of the energy of Generosity we can do many things (this was my inner nudging too). My dad gave me the one thing that no one else did, the history of being a child paddling in the sea on a summers day and coming back to my favourite place year after year to consolidate the magic...

And then, i realised, even though i could not clearly see his signature energy, he gets to share the card with me and mine....maybe because...maybe that is his real energy story on some high level that I am not aware of or perceiving...as I just see the dark, demon, scorpion of doom and gloom energy that I had assigned to him.... Or a variation of it anyway that  i had decided or chosen to be immersed in a relationship with the dark energy.... that i had assigned to my dad, who obviously was able to accommodate that for me. Must be that we had this agreement for me to go through and feel what I needed to, and for him to do likewise, but perhaps, for him within a different perception of  the energy interaction/relationship that he needed to explore.

O m g IT was so immense yesterday. When we do that.... we can say thank You and let go. Sorry if writing is a bit rushed and charged but I needed to explain it out, before the day is done, as Today was So different from yesterday., 

Only slightly changing the subject...This piece from Tom Kenyon is about self Integrating, very interesting read for me as the feelings coming out today are very different, I am feeling lost and sick, disturbed and agitated, its been a weird day and I have a 'throwing up' energy from my stomach for quite a few days now during all this. I don't want to ignore it but accept it. 

Anyway see what you think of this.

Michaela xxx

A SHORT PRACTICUM: EMBRACING YOUR SHADOW

I hope, here, to give you a quick and easy way to integrate shadow material into your conscious self through something called the Self-Integrating Process. The reasons to undertake such a task are multi-faceted. For one, it allows you to avoid the snare of polarization within yourself (wherein you fight battles with yourself). For another, it removes you from the snares of Spiritual Fascism (a very good thing, indeed). Thirdly, it actually increases your energy levels because it frees up trapped parts of yourself.

Remember, it takes energy to keep something down psychologically.

But before we get to the process itself, there are a few points I would like to introduce.

First of all, suppressed shadow material often coalesces into a state that resembles a being or an entity. It is possible to communicate with one’s shadow material as if it were a conscious being.

Secondly, accepting one’s shadow does not necessarily mean accepting its behavior (i.e., if you want to stop smoking, accepting your own shadow material responsible for the abuse of tobacco does not mean that you accept smoking). It does mean, however, that you accept the part of you that wants to smoke.

Just as an example, people smoke for many reasons. Some use it as a ritualistic offering to spirit, as in Native American ceremonies. Others use it to suppress feelings. It all has to do with your intention.

For those wanting to suppress anger or agitation, tobacco is sometimes used because it causes the capillaries to constrict. With decreased blood flow, there can be a temporary cessation or decrease of agitation. So let’s say you are one of these folks. There are two things here: a) the behavior of actually lighting up and b) the desire to light up. The desire to light up is coming from a part of you that is uncomfortable with the arising of certain feelings. This part is trying its best to keep these feelings in your shadow realm, outside the light of self-awareness. And it is doing this because you have chosen at some level to deny these feelings. The part responsible for acting this out (i.e., grabbing a cig) is not the culprit. It is simply trying to do what you want it to do. In other words, no matter how bizarre a behavior is, the part responsible for that behavior is trying to take care of you in some way.

These parts have a kind of autonomous psychological life of their own. Their desire is to be accepted as an aspect of us, yet their fear is that we will reject them. There is good reason for this paranoia on their part. We tend to find them repugnant even though they are only doing what we asked them to do (i.e. suppress thoughts or feelings we find unacceptable).

There is an innate fear in us that if we accept a psychological part, we will be bound to its actions. The truth is that when we accept a part as an aspect of ourselves, there is a release of psychological energy, which expands awareness. This increases the likelihood that we will be able to make better and more creative choices for ourselves. When we re-member (rejoin with) a psychological part through the act of self-acceptance there are spontaneous releases of endorphins and other neurotransmitters associated with wellness. Note: This is a theoretical observation I have made over the years in regards to the Self-integrating Process. As yet I know of no studies that demonstrate this, but people always report a feeling of increased wellness and wholeness after completing the process. I presume therefore, that there are corresponding physiological changes. Future research will prove or disprove this hypothesis, but whatever the cause, people feel better and more connected to themselves after going through the process.

THE SELF-INTEGERATING PROCESS

When an uncomfortable feeling arises, this is the ideal time to do the Process since the material is right at the surface of awareness. But it can also be done whenever one wishes to change a behavior.

There are several steps to this.

What is different about this process from many other self-therapeutic exercises is the lack of content. We really aren’t interested in the story of why we are doing “It,” nor are we interested in the history of “It.” We are simply acknowledging the part (responsible for “It”) as an aspect of ourselves.

The sole purpose for this is to build a bridge of awareness between the subconscious and conscious levels of awareness, in other words, so that we can become psychologically more conscious.

1. First of all, when you feel upset, locate where in your body the part seems to be located. This may seem odd, but the part will be centered somewhere in your body. Sometimes, though much less often, the part may be in the energy field around your body. This area will feel different than the rest of your body. It may feel radically different if there is a lot of emotional energy around the part, or it may feel subtle if there is less stuff around it. But there will always be some kind of physical sensation where the part resides.

2. Next, simply focus on this area of your body and tell the part (silently in your mind) that you accept it as an aspect of yourself. That’s it. There will be a response from the part in the language of sensation; in other words you will feel something relax, let go or integrate if the part believes you. You have to mean it. You can’t bullshit a part and get away with it. Parts know if you are lying or trying to pull a fast one, and they don’t like it.

To review an important point: you are not telling the part that you accept its behavior. You are simply saying that you accept it. It exists (whether you like it or not). And you are simply acknowledging that it exists, and that it is a part of you.

3. Sometimes there are other parts that don’t like it when you accept a particular part that you are having trouble with. These objecting parts usually have their own agendas to keep things in the status quo. Some parts just plain don’t like for things to change. Others might not like for you to get psychologically healthier, for instance. Is it beginning to sound like you have a circus in there? Well… you do and so do most of us.

What makes the difference between a good show, in which all the parts work, more or less together, and chaos, is the Ringmaster. And you are, of course, the Ringmaster of your own circus.

Some of our parts are clowns; some are daring trapeze artists; some train wild animals; some are pickpockets slinking in the shadows behind the bleachers. There is a whole menagerie in there.

And once you acknowledge one of the circus members, you may have to contend with others. The strategy is actually quite simple. Whatever arises in yourself, tell it that you accept it as an aspect of yourself. I have known people who needed to work with up to nine parts to get a final feeling of resolution or integration.

This process creates a greater feeling of personal wholeness through the acceptance of parts that heretofore were rejected. It also increases psychological energy and awareness, as I said earlier.

This process does not usually resolve problems, but with increased psychological energy and awareness the problems become less problematic.

SUMMATION

To make our selves more whole by retrieving parts of ourselves from the shadows of our unconscious is a holy act as the root of the word holy means to make whole.

I agree with Carl Jung that coming to terms with our collective shadows is imperative. And this type of psychological endeavor may be some of the most sacred work we can do at this time.

May the light of your own illumination and the compassion of your own heart guide you in your quest for wholeness.

https://tomkenyon.com/the-myth-the-hero-and-the-lie