Identifying your place in the world. "Learn to be a bit fearless,- you might as well try. Whats the worst that can happen?"

The above quote is from a fashion magazine, in an article entitled, How to get what you want.
I was reading it in the airport waiting for a flight to Ireland. It sounded great and we can all use inspirational stuff, when we see it..regardless where it comes from. The airport? Well I was going back to Ireland, and into a deep well of patterns from which I was to emerge a bigger and better person, having lost the ancestral pattern of despair...and devastation of lost dreams.

~~~~~~~NB. Don't FEEL devastated. FEEL God. For why...go back to this.  https://inspiredheart8.blogspot.com/2018/04/dont-feel-scared-feel-god-note-to-self.html~~~~~~~

So back to today. How's the great mercury retrograde treating everybody. Are we working it well?
from the post we are told.

You see, Michaela, during retrograde periods, unresolved matters from your past will resurface...Your negative subconscious patterns will become apparent to you…Your past life blocks will reveal themselves…Your limiting beliefs will slowly emerge from the shadows...

And, as it turns out, this isn’t always a bad thing.

During Mercury Retrograde, the Universe delivers a gentle reminder to s.l.o.w. down and truly accept all parts of yourself...

So you can lovingly break down your inner walls and live the life your soul intended.

Mercury’s message for you? Be kind to yourself, rewind.

This can be a time of immense healing and growth. A time to…

Release your past.

Reclaim your power.

Recharge your spirit.

Reactivate your abundance.

And reclaim your life.

So, it turns out that even before the mercury retrograde we have been getting our ducks in row by entering planned situations that would bring to light opportunities to let go of what has been holding us back. Maybe we didn't see them, or act upon them, but they were there, and this was all about getting your ducks in row, or getting the great wagon trail of your life, back onto the trail you wish to embark on.

So we can use the above information from the previous post, and find a way to reclaim life, by calling forth from the 'great subconscious' the ways, steps, actions signs that will bring you to this.
But first you have to see how your actions and thoughts, words and patterns have formed 'How' you, over the years, identify your place world.

So lets take an example, any example...OK, lets take mine.

With doing my inner work of clearing traumas, working on ancestral patterns, memories and experience, (and not rambling off and getting lost in the details about how I have come to this), I have come up with a life affirmation to bring about the ideals. Forgetting devastations of lost dreams, and despair scenarios...they are from the old world and so, as such, they were formulated from 'old' world sense of what is needed, I embark on new ones. The old ones were visible paths trodden but there was always the invisible path that runs along parallel that you are guided along, but you just 'see' and determine the visible path....which is perhaps a  lower octave of the higher path that has your name on it, but you do not identify your place in it...because you can only identify with the lower octave path...

I formulated this affirmation to encompass a 'higher' path I cannot yet see, but believe it is there and wish to identify my place in it.

I choose life.
I choose a beautiful life. 
I choose and attract, with grace and ease, the steps, words thoughts and actions for a beautiful life.

This rounds into the more simple affirmation I am filled with a beautiful life. 
Affirmations work by programming and focussing the unruly scattered material into a 'chosen' pattern. The subconscious is like the 'Wild West' (a subconscious place of ghosts; characters and images, memories of  the  gunslingers, saloon bars, bar room brawls, desert battles, lawmen, sheriffs, lawful men, unlawful men, courts, criminals, churches, missionaries, Apaches, pioneers...well you get the picture,, it is wild, and it is all GOD's Country, every bit of it, but the bits of scattered material that come through to your conscious are more of what you are  familiar with, such as the memories of experiences and what happened before, not being aware that these old ancestral DNA patterns inform  how life unfolds for you, and informs how you identify your place in the world. So taming the Wild West is about having a plan, and affirmations, that try to bring the wagon trail (where each wagon is a lock stock and barrel of Home, family, career, or a huge item that has its own wagon, such as a fear or phobia or obstacle to overcome...well you get the idea) of your identify ....to the promised land, i.e. Where you want it to go...Where it is safe and can grow, where it can create and contribute to 'Civilised and harmonised community; A place where crops grow, and there is joy in the land, beautiful mountain scenery and a nice little dance in the fire light around the camp fire...and the odd peace pipe.

Sorry, I got rambling again.
To day the mercury retrograde allowed me to freeze frame and really see something.
I was meditating on my affirmation. Which makes me feel like I have a plan. It is a really lovely affirmation.
Scanning my body I realised that something wasn't quite right. There was a tension on and around my right arm, which was curved from my shoulder and my hand were gently clasped. But there was a tension folded neatly from my right shoulder, down my arm into my hand. It was alike a bundle of something I was holding. Like holding a baby... a sick baby.*

I scanned for what this might be. It all fell out...in little whimpers of energy that roughly translated to "A beautiful life is impossible", and "that will not happen",  and so on.
The 'sick baby bundle of energy' was something I was holding, and as if a holding a real sick baby cradled in my arms, I am not going to get much done, not being able to put the sick baby down, it becomes the load that turns all things into impossibilities, because you four focus is on the sick baby.
So this is ancestral pattern, karmic experience, or whatever...but being able to see it is the acknowledgment that it is OUT of your subconscious for inspection. Is holding a sick baby energy bundle with my right arm throughout life, going to get me to the 'beautiful life'. No, It has unbalanced me. But it was real energy, the description of holding a sick explains how physically, mentally and emotionally debilitating it can be.
Seeing this clearly, it is a miasma of devastation and despair, that calls forth from the subconscious creations that match its vibration...Understand?

Being called out, having taken the time in an awkward freeze frame of the scattered communications dynamically dancing within and around you...the mercury retrograde lets you really look at your inner communications and vibrational dialogue with life.
It is this vibrational dialogue with life that identifies your place in the world.
Michaela.

* there is another aspect to the Sick baby bundle, nestled in my arm.
I had a past life regression many years ago. It was back in the famine times in Ireland, 1846, There was an image of me in a past life, (?...or a DNA memory, a energy experience, or an Ancestral energy memory). The image is of a desperate young woman, holding a baby that was dying of starvation, the image cuts to me (?) the young woman,  in despair, and devastation throwing herself, sick baby in her arms, over the sea wall onto the rocks below.

When you (or the ancestral pattern, Karmic energy) continue to bring devastation and despair to your death, it stays with you each cycle,  or re-enters a descendant line, to be replayed in countless other ways, until you...or the affected descendant have WORKED it OUT through to its completion.

Trick is, NEVER allow devastation or despair to stay hidden in your energy systems, it is something that ONLY can be worked out through your living carnation. It stays as scattered energy, calling your subconscious to its attention, again and again, until you have seen it and worked it free, transmuted, loved it and embraced it, turning it into higher octave energy.

Michaela.
I didn't get to post this on the day it was written, Wednesday 6th and Thursday 7th, as I wanted to work on it further. As the days went on I still didn't get to post it. Today, Friday 8th March, I am still a little overwhelmed by it all, so hopefully I will have more on this later. The energies of Friday really brought me back down from being so fearless a few days previous.