Humming bird.

Waiting to get the humming bird green light.

Where humming bird is a totem for fifth dimensionial love, it hovers in and out of, up and down.
It is ethereal and is not evident in the chaos.
It is free from the dross and so will not be found in the midst of it.
It hovers in the breeze of new incoming creation and it is ancient, before our time.
Golden glass green, it is in full colour spectrum, waiting to be found in our memory.
It flits past the corner of our eye and speaks to us through our longing for to hear its song.


The times this past week for me have been awkward to say the least and its the most polite way for me to describe it.
In order to feel the love that we are, we have to let go of the NOT LOVE that we are Not.
Not easy, because its been a build up, in our skin our bones, that has infiltrated our expression and so we are not able to see where we are love and where we are NOT.

After setting the intention to do just that, to let go of the NOT LOVE that has existed in me and therefore been holding the reigns through many lives, and after much inner work until I am strong enough and have a stock of self love in reserve, I  finally can see the process through which this release is happening for me. Others will experience it differently.

I have had an achingly painful week where the residue of toxicity has been released from my skin and bones and been allowed to careen forward through my systems, sweeping through and pulling out further hidden blots of submerged residues, as it lurches through and around my body. It physically hurt, a lot. I was nauseous and could not function. Today is a better day altogether.

It really only is with hindsight, for me, that clarification comes. I keep going my with my INTENTION to see, recognise and embody self love. I do the meditations and healing that I am guided, when possible. My meditation allows me to decipher what is going on. I understand that toxicity residues lay dormant in your system, if you can't see them you are not aware they are there and they act to muddy the waters of any intention or pure thought focus. You cannot find SELF LOVE until the inner muddied the waters are cleared. Its a step by step process. Intention to embody self love > clear some toxicity> repeat. Sometimes we are going over old ground again and again. The clearing process involves layering and putting in stronger LOVE foundations, each time, so that you are more strengthened and ENABLED to do more clearing at deeper levels, and so it continues.

Hummingbird  (medicine, Shaman) has been coming to me in the last few days, perhaps because, just by calling it in, it has actually called me out, to see it flit by the corner of my eye.

It is a shaman totem of  a  'higher that we can feel right now,  LOVE,'  It is in a dimension that is not 3d physical but it is in a dimension that I can see, as its flits by the corner of my eye.... when I am calm.....and allow myself to long for its song.

I seem to be over this episode,  for now, and so to free up the flow of CHI through my newly released-from-toxicity channels I have booked a few treatments with my local chinese accupuncturist,  as I have been guided  (I found myself marching in and making the booking before I realised what I was doing).

Michaela,