Having a discourse with the great mystery is great for humbling and silencing the ego, that phantom that keeps blowing a klaxon or waving a flag to stop you from falling down one hole, only to trip down another rabbit hole that was behind a tree. The survival ego, it has seen us through thick and thin, bad times and good times, it has ensured we survived and is a very important part of us, but if it is driving our vehicle, we aren't going to get far and if we look around we see that we didn't, get far that is.
That was then.
Right now the ego is being smoothed out and given a slick new hair-do. Its going to be polished and handsome, it is going to accompany us to the premier of our new lives....We are going to be a team strolling as one person, eye to eye which doubles up on the person we were before.
As we have evolved the ego has also been fine tuned. From being a non existent, human extra like the appendix in our early days, it grew out of control by feeding on the environmental plankton (trouble danger, strife, war, fear, enmity,) like some amorphous whale floating invisibly besides us.
enmity
ˈɛnmɪti/
noun
- a state or feeling of active opposition or hostility.
"decades of enmity between the two countries"
synonyms: hostility, animosity, antagonism, friction, antipathy, animus, opposition,
dissension, rivalry, feud, conflict, discord, contention;
Now the ego is sitting in the pamper parlour waiting while we, in the lull of these evolutionary times make sense of where we are and where we are heading. Then we can collect our partner, our ego, our road trip buddy and get on with it. Both of us spruced and sleek having been through the wringer or washing machine, in each and every incarnation.
My intention to buy some cedar on Sunday, meant I had to get on a tube and get into Central London. I went to shop called Wilde Ones.
And it was strange, even through it sells lots of crystals, jewellery, beads, incense etc etc, and all items are from traditions based on Mayan and Egyptian, Native American philosophies and lifestyles the energy of the shop was overwhelming.
I wanted Cedar and Sweetgrass to burn. This shop had an intensity of incense and rugs, and rusting jewellery that no one could afford, stock piled and loved only through glass cases. None of it was allowed to touch the ground and connect, with a life force. It was like a dusty old cowboy shop, in a dusty old cowboy town. So it was like old spirituality clunkiness. The only thing missing was snake oil an old Native American wrapped in blanket and snoozing in the corner. I couldn't think clearly in the shop but I was anxious not to miss what could be the bargain of the year, or the most needed item that I hadn't thought that I needed until I saw it.
It was overwhelming and stuffy and I couldn't wait to leave the energy of the shop and get back onto the Kings Road. I was happy with my purchase a new, modern wrapped
pack of small scented wood for burning. I also bought a plait of sweetgrass to burn, but strangely that was lost out of my bag on the journey home through the underground.
I wondered why I was drawn to the Native American meditations, but not the old stuffiness of the spirituality shops that sells their stuff. Maybe we have left that long behind and the shops don't know about it, maybe spirituality is more slicker and streamlined now, and was just waiting for us to catch up and move on from the old snake oil and feathers.
Anyway, whatever, I get the feeling that the energy is waiting to be truly tapped into and the more able and sleek we are, the more able and sleek is the energy of 'spirituality' that awaits us. I feel that the museum stifle that cases the spiritual totems and objects that we seek to have, is showing us that a better way, a newer way is on its way. Maybe the path is already there and we see it when we are ready to step out of spiritual convention. Do we still need these dusty old cowboy shops? Or can we step onto a path that does not need them?
As with all things on Earth, the energy, the blessing, the Origin of the thought form is always pure, but to access it via the 3rd dimensional path, now it becomes dusty, old and antique.
The vision I see of the indigenous American lore is more like the film, Avatar, where the energy is a blending of the native Americans and is multidimensional, and therefore ever expanding, fresh and new.
http://hinessight.blogs.com/church_of_the_churchless/2010/01/the-spirituality-of-avatar-the-movie.html
But who doesn't resonate with the all is one philosophy of the Na'vi, the indigenous people of Pandora whose beautiful earth-like moon is threatened by human invaders seeking a precious mineral, Unobtainium.
Even a Christian minister could get behind the Na'vi nature-based spirituality.
....in other words, The Great Mystery.The Na'vi (per Indigenous tradition) are incredibly spiritual, sharing a connectedness hard to describe. The sehalo bonds they establish with the creatures and the environment on Pandora prove this connectedness--a connectedness that implies interdependence i.e. the rejection of the cup running over due to sinful pride.It's interdependence that defines our togetherness, our teamwork; our collective contributions to the whole, which is greater than the sum of its individual parts.
So I see that when one visits this spirituality one is blending with both an ancient and multidimensional great mystery.
In my meditation today, my intentions were for clarity in my onward path.
I burned the cedar which was perfect, and drifted off into a meditational state.
This is a zone like being outside a cave, where I check my map and torch, and make sure I know Why I am going into the cave, so that I get to complete the mission and I don't forget what's going on, as it is very easy to for get....sometimes you have to keep on point.. So I guide myself with some instructions to bring me to where I need to go.
I Burn cedar to send my prayers in the smoke into the Great Mystery.
I follow my prayers and I Bring myself into the great Mystery.
I Bring my mind into the Great Mystery.
I call the Great Mystery into my mind.
I Call the Great mystery into my body.
I call the great mystery into my life
I let the the Great Mystery walk into my world.
Letting smoke and pictures float around and repeat the intention a few times slowly and with meaning.
Finally let everything settle and be still, feel your breathing and maybe hold in your mind an image of a background scene on which to allow something to happen.
Eventually I met with my man. He was an elder with white hair, he had a soft face, not craggy or harsh.
He was me, or the elder part of me, that remained connected to the Great Mystery. He felt like family.
This a translation of what was given.
1.He acknowledged my energy and gave me the graceful upliftment of connecting with my energy. He said that it is with challenge that we can explore our deeper parts that would not be seen or experienced without challenge or diversity to allow it expression. Within diversity and the resultant propulsion there is expression that gives more facets to diamonds, more shape and texture, more depth to a being.
2. This is about my yearning and intention to find self value in myself, value and purpose, in myself and NOT for how much money I earn, how much art, and to what standard I can produce, what sort of business I am, what kind of jobs I do, what Kind of parent I am, relationships to others, friends family and reputation I have.......
We were speaking for a long while and he said that I had chosen to connect with Native American energy because it was the one place that I had felt valued for myself, and KNEW VALUE of the self not only of myself but of all things and All People. I resonated with and totally connected with it at some stages in other lifetimes and realities ...so I am inclined to return to this place where I experienced total connectivity, to all, within the great Mystery.
The idea of Great Mystery and of us all being a part, was a wonderful experience for me, both in my past and other lives, and I was drawn back to it because it gives me what I most need, connectivity.
It is the energy most akin to where we are heading now in terms of spiritual evolvement.
My questions were addressed really well and answered with skill.
3. I asked why the sweetgrass I bought had dropped out of my bag on the way home.
The answer was...This was a sacrifice, a harvest and of value to me. It had to be something that meant something. I had gone to the shop to buy sweetgrass to burn, then it fell out of my bag and became a gift for others. The sacrifice is a give and take gesture or energetic dynamic that ensures flow. My intentions were to RECEIVE -healing/health/knowledge/wisdom/ clarity and clearing and freedom from burdens/toxicity ... etc from my meditations/burning incense and connection to the Great Mystery...
and that meant that I had to give something back.....this is what is meant by sacrifice, but the word that has become misused and abused and toxic.
4. I asked why I couldn't figure out what to do and where to project my future. Without going into all the details.
If you can't trust, you aren't going to want to connect.
He said that I need to be connected physically to the earth on which I found myself. Until I can connect with it, I will float without landing. The earth had become a hostile place to try to land and it can feel like walking on burning hot coals to a sensitive, so therefore the tendency to not touch the heat meant I was skimming, and not connecting.
Information overload and distrust had added to the situation.
We can't trust whats been done to the food, to the water, to the air. We can't trust the politics or the banks, the employer. We can't trust the institutions of tax, education and medicine, media culture and questionable ethics of people around us.
Also, it is down to the vibration I found myself in, which changes over time. It has become more and more uncomfortable to be around those I don't match vibrationally and so it is less and less desirable for me to connect with the world here.
But, when that happens, a person tends to float, and having ideas but not landing them is painful.
And it can be lonely.
You cannot connect until you truly land your pod, only then can others with same vibration 'see' you to make a connection.
I see that it is about creating your bubble in the way you want, so you intend that you know that you are safe...whatever you eat drink, experience intend that only the energy that you require from it comes through to you, all else is released in love and without judgement.
Also Its safe to say that as I am more focused upwards, I am not focused downwards and so my energy will not be drawn there. While it is safer for me to hover in the upper, and be happy there, I am not extending my energy and beingness into being a vital piece here on earth. Well I am, but it wont be in bricks and mortar.....it will be more towards the spiritual etheric and cleansing, which is fine but ...right now I need a physical runway to land on..
So attention was drawn to pains in my pelvic area. (This is in tandem with my recent work on my pains in that area, which, tara da dah, have lessened and not been present since I did work on that...(anger) quite a few weeks ago.
This meditation showed that to overcome fear and blocks in my pelvic area will allow connection through my perineum to the earth. (?)
It seems that grounding is not enough anymore...So literally.. you have to get your ass (arse, uk) down onto the ground to connect. Pronto.
Through the perineum, think " root chakra", but it doesn't have to be so mystical, Just allow that your base is in connection with the ground, and allow the energy dynamic to flow.
Also opening up the hip bones allows conscious release of fears, anger and memories of enmity ( that are hidden there and which block you from trusting a full connection to earth.
5. In the blocks are the memories of enmity. Know that every time a situation has "killed" you, it has, actually 'killed off' a part of you, and those parts, are isolated from you and so you have to call them back. Without these parts of you you waver and become LESS than full functioning.
Intention is integration, not sorrow, call the parts back that belong to you. You get all your parts back, in love without judgement or hatred. Each of these parts is a part of you, lost to someplace else, when you were sad, dejected or humiliated...In anger rejection or greed, a little piece of soul got lost....
But that's why its difficult touching down on earth because you need a full crew to do this thing. So call them all back. In prayer, in smoke, find and take them home.
That's when I thought of Avatar, Its that kind of connection that is missing.
So being unable to connect (Spiritually speaking), there is no or desire to connect (symbolically speaking) to a ground-walking Life in this earth and ceratin aspects of it are therefore out of reach. thus there is imbalance...
6. This imbalance, or not having your own ground crew connected to earth means that you cannot access the physical resources that flow from earth.
------and this is the important part in so far as the original intention of this meditation---- means that I tended to give my power away to someone, other than me, and watch from afar, as I , and my crew, have left the building....
And then I wonder why....in horror... as a skeleton staff manage the business of being me so I am only half a person.
And without access to earths energy and resources and by not trusting them or denying that you are here to access and be in full energetic dynamic with them...it is only half a life that you can live.
Its like you give the office junior, or the janitor, or any totally unqualified passer-by the power to run your energy/your business/your waking hours on earth...your physical presence on earth etc etc and then you wonder why you cannot find physical stability and security, and financially you have given the reigns to someone else....
So this happens....I gave away my power over managing things like SECURITY and home and money and financial income, and then wonder why I am not feeling secure....or why there is not much money coming in...
Even my path and direction in life has not connected with me directly because I have not landed, lower half down, and been able to connect with what I am doing here and now.
Or at least that is the story up till now. Remember that we see things when we are ready for them to be revealed and generally speaking we have done much of the work for them to be released and resolved.
To connect with vibration-ally matched people, and to my life ...First I needed to see and KNOW THAT I AM My Own Value and purpose, That I DO have purpose and value....Then, the next stage was to free up from the blocks and fears...held in my pelvic area.....to do that I need to see them...
How to see them?
They are hidden in every thought, and word I say, every decision I make.
To free myself from them, I need to see them and that they are actually no longer anything to be frightened of. They are from the end of the era that saw the growth of the survival ego.
The challenges that we go through allow us to explore our deeper parts, that would not be seen or experienced without challenge or diversity to allow it expression.
How we see and feel and experience situations can open pockets within our souls, that bear fruit of incredible expansion....
..... but continued fear left over from any life time....when unchecked, will prevent you from attempting to connect on a deeper level, and landing on the terrain, which, again is fine, but chances are you have given the power away to someone who is not you .....and who does not steer you to your vision.
This is happening now...Your ego is being freed up, you are being freed up. Sit on the earth and be one with her so that you can bask in her energy and fill your physicality with the dynamic inter-exchange with her. Connect.
So while we wait for the ego to wrestle free from the fear and blocks, we can plan the road trip.
Pack up the camping and climbing stuff, and finally you get to buddy-up with your super new and super sleek upgraded ego....and together you can live your own adventure and be your own hero.
Michaela.
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