October intensity with what feels like Locked jaw. Intense drilling sensations around my teeth and down through my head, symptoms of being shipwrecked and then finally, the serenity of washing up on a deserted beach..

This last week in October has been an intense week of energetic weirdness and indeed wired-ness.

I could not fathom anything and then Friday night through Saturday night it intensified and I suffered with a few nasty symptoms which wiped me out and made me cry...

I write my accounts on whats occurring in the belief that whats occurring... actually is... meaning something towards...something.

Sometimes, not often, I get so blasted that I can't make sense of anything. I have to wait a few days to see how...if anything, it all falls into place. It is getting stranger and stranger.

The 'finding yourself swept up on a peaceful beach', after a shipwreck of torrential downloads, doesn't happen often... but today, this Sunday afternoon, it has.

I have some peace and stillness even without leaving the building.

Michaela.