I am aware that often I am so off the planet when it comes to usual routine of plodding on. Most of it is inside my head via a channel in me and through me, on and on... to the deeper inside, a vast galaxy, which is of course my doorway to the great 'all that is' which is of course...that which is ' all around' in all dimensions and realities. So when I do stuff differently and approach stuff from a different place.... I managed to distance myself from the 'others' who then managed to judge me and view me as 'Different'. This sends out waves of mismatched energy which I always seem to desperately want to make better.. 'Fixing'...So before I would just keep my stuff small and silent, hidden or even locked away while I maintained the semblance of 'same as everyone else'....Now I am empty of trying to explain, this is just a defence FACE. It is a mask that worked to keep the big stuff small and hidden, so that I could go about the daily business of not being mySELF.