Spring cleaning the head. Where a pickaxe is used to dismantle the outdated and crumbling foundations. Nature Uses the implement of the full moon to 'spring clean' the hardened mental clutter of old programmes for the newness of spring.

I have had a weird weekend, where Friday night I went to bed with a bad headache, which turned into a massive assault on my head, after a bad night of 'pick axe through head pain', I woke late and then couldn't get up for many hours.

( I just want to mention here, that before I went to bed, I watched the Netflix series, Evil Genius. Bad choice!! AS this is extremely LOW density vibration material.  But on reflection I gained insight into how deep some damaging  programmes can be. It is a hideous recount of the evil killing of a pizza delivery guy. The story goes on over a number of years, and different things come to light, but what kept haunting me and coming back to me after, was the way the main character was in a torrent of extremely low vibration patterns and programmes. When she spoke or was interviewed she spouted a continuous-stream monologue of her twisted beliefs, her shouting manipulations showed the extremes of compulsive programmes. The reason I mention this is an extreme example of how we become what we believe, in our actions, thoughts, words etc. which VALIDATE our perceptions of varying distortions. When we fall so thoroughly in line with our  programs without questioning or challenging them we are acting on automatic pilot. Unconsciously we become the robotic actioners of what we believe.)

I have had this pick axe through the head in varying degrees of intensity, at least three times in the last six months. The last two times the 'pick axe through the head pain' actually moved down through the left hand side of body. I know it is an 'energetic' dismantling, but It does feel SO PAINFUL. Finally Saturdays's 'pick axe through my head' pain left, but I continued to feel, muzzy, fuzzy, a bit nauseous and unable to do much. Later that evening I had to go and look after my mother, so I stayed with her overnight.

I brought a novel and used most of the next day, Sunday, until I was needed, to lie down reading.
As the day went on I knew I wasn't going to get much done.

This morning back at my own home, I am feeling so much better, brighter and I had vivid and intricate dreams last night. But my waking dream was of waking from sleep, in a house that I have dream-time memories of, and going into another room where music from a old fashioned 80's stereo had been playing non stop. I tried to turn it off, but couldn't and the music from the stereo  kept looping on. And on... (programming in a loop from the 80's!) It looked a bit like this. The music wasn't bad or annoying really, but it was background music much like you don't hear it, as it is NORMAL to have it playing,  you only hear it when everything else is quiet. When you are distracted by something it, the background music simply makes up the mood and reverts to the subconscious or unconscious background.
 

In the dream, I was distracted then by my child who was up and playing, he was hearing the music but he was still asleep.  So this tells me that perhaps my child in the dream, is me... or the small sun of of my consciousness, my learner consciousness, so still small, still learning and so is shown as a child, and that  ME , 'My Watcher', or the bigger part of ME , that is watching me, is showing me that I am becoming aware of the looping back into the 'day sleep'  patterns, or programmes of looping.

Becoming aware of them means I can try to readjust by growing my small consciousness sun to a fuller SUN of CONSCIOUSNESS. That means bringing the actions, thoughts and words through as much as I can to bring about this growth into fuller SUN CONSCIOUSNESS.
It also shows how distractions (we are manipulated to be constantly busy with some kind of streams of thought and actions)  can bring about automatic replay of default looping back into patterns formed through unconscious programmes.

When I woke this morning, I felt energies streaming through me.
 It was like a big tornado of silent energy is swirling and building inside, a super energy spring clean? It has yet to show how it will manifest in my outer life.
Is this a kick-ass internal spring clean or what?..I want to rest, I don't want to be busy with stuff, I just want to feel this swirl of energy, The swirl of energy that is ME. BUT How long before I succumb to getting back into role and getting busy with the distractions from ME????

Michaela.
This all comes before the full moon which is :
." shedding stagnant energy - reflecting the newness of Spring in the Northern latitudes.....The Full Moon tends to bring an aura of completion and endings, where we let go of energies, situations or even relationships that are no longer serving us."

This is the astrology for my week.
Welcome to another segment of the Weekly Forecast! This week will bring forth shifts in our mental and physical spheres and is a good week for grounding, socializing and shedding stagnant energy - reflecting the newness of Spring in the Northern latitudes. Venus’ hard angle toward Jupiter on Monday reminds us to begin the week by maintaining moderation - this energy has the potential to inspire over-indulgence. 

Mercury is moving from reflective, sensitive Pisces to the more aggressive, passionate Aries on Wednesday - igniting energy and inspiring ambition - where it will remain for the next 4 weeks. This energy might inspire impulsive actions, so try not to make any hasty decisions right now. Friday’s Full Moon invites us to discard negative or stale energy that may have accumulated over the past lunar cycle, and its Libran energy inspires balance and compromise in relationships. The Full Moon tends to bring an aura of completion and endings, where we let go of energies, situations or even relationships that are no longer serving us.
from : WEEKLY VIDEO FORECAST WEEK OF APRIL 15TH, 2019

Here's longing for a soft few days. Michaela.