Just had half term holidays, so kids off school. Life drops from the safety of organised structure into the freefall of disorganised chaos. The crazy intensity of energy, burying into your life to dig it free.

I have just booked a holiday in Santorini for myself for one week, leaving tomorrow. I am recovering from half termitis, a raging infliction that only some mums get over the school holidays, when money is flying out of the household purse in a scattering of directions, and when there is lack of space to think and get centred leaves you feeling a bit hi jacked.

Of course.... I am not going on a lovely little holiday by myself, I have had to spend that much in half term payouts to the kids. Ok Ok, thats an exaggeration. But try telling the house hold purse that things will get better and soothe it to believe it will not happen again, then, the next big cost jumps out and hits you and robs you before you can figure out what this latest cost is for.

The arrival of holidays from school are always good, free from structure into disorganised chaos.  Chaos is the thing that batters me. Why is the chaos so hard for me to manage. Its like having an element of control stripped away and without this control over stuff, it all feels mighty dangerous.



Ok Ok again I am exaggerating,
but I

 still feel a bit battered.

 

 

Here even the cat is hiding under the bed from all the intensity.

 

There has been intense energy going on and moving through all people at this time. In whatever form it has played at in your life, it is energy that will help change how you feel about your life and if you work with it, will put you in place for what you need to do, to expand spiritually.

 

 

For me also there has been seriousness to this last weeks intense time by the way of my elderly father going into hospital and trying to devote care and attention to my elderly mother.

I am trying to pretend to myself that one day, in the not so distant future, I will get that week in Santorini. It'll be that... or under the bed with cat.