KALI'S BOON "Kali's Boon is won when man confronts or accepts her image of Kali, in a variety of ways, teaches man that pain, sorrow, decay, death and destruction are not to be overcome by denying them or explaining them away. Pain and sorrow are woven into the texture of man's life so thoroughly that to deny them is ultimately futile and foolish. For man to realize the fullness of his being, he must finally accept his dimension of existence. Kali's boon is freedom, the freedom of the child to revel in the moment. and it is won only after confrontation or acceptance of death of the lower self attached to the material world. To confront or accept this death, is to realize a mode of being that can delight and revel in the play of the Gods. It is to become immortal. To accept one's physical mortality is to be able to act superfluously, to let go, to be able to sing, dance, and shout. To win Kali's boon is to become childlike, to be flexible, open, and naïve like a child. To be able to accept the guidance of a master; the master I am; it is to become a child of the Universe. KALI is the Woman who have attained union with the Inner Higher Self and is guiding others to the same." http://www.trinicenter.com/Egypt/kali.htm

Kali Yantra
Kali is a goddess of death but She brings the death of the ego as the illusory self-centered view of reality.


So, today I met with the Kali energy....
The back story to this is...
 ...THIS has been a busy, somewhat exhausting weekend, travelling away from London and down into the English countryside, to get to a family wedding. It meant staying over night in a hotel and meeting up with family the night before the wedding...Then up in the morning diving into the ritual of  'getting ready' for the wedding, and then driving miles out to a manor house deeper into the countryside, steering through muddy country lanes and passing by winter fields and trees all while under a grey winter, water coloured sky.

The wedding was great. In past years, in my family, we have not had many weddings, quite a few funerals but no weddings. The tradition is changing and people are adopting their own styles or opting not to marry at all. This wedding was traditional, not religious but observing both traditions to the law and to the many celebration rituals that have built up over time....each put into play and then recorded for posterity by professional photographers. Lots of drink, toasting, speeches, photos, food, meeting of strangers and of course emotions.

While I have changed so much I managed to maintain my visible vehicle within the role of family member, aunt, sister, cousin, mother etc, but I watched from within as a growing light being.
 I can't tell you how many hugs I was giving but I it was many. Not just to family but to new people I was meeting,  strangers that shared our table and energies for the time being. The next morning, today which is what I am actually writing about, I have the image of giving and being involved in soooo many hugs. It was arms all round, so this morning I just saw arms. That is me with many arms....

Anyway back to the party going on in the deep countryside. I know that my body has changed, and is transitioning continuously with all the incoming energies and so therefore it calls out loudly for a big downtime around 5pm. I had stated to my own family that we should leave for the long journey back to London by 5pm, because I know I physically crash soon after ....but it seemed rude, and the others wanted to stay on.... and then the next thing on the wedding stage would be announced, and the next...
I was feeling so tired, but managed to keep going. Finally there was the natural transition from the day celebrations  to the evening reception, and there was an OKay time to leave....and then more family came in....So more emotion, more hugging.

Eventually, for us to leave the wedding,  began the  ritual of goodbyes, and the goodbye hugs for nearly two hours! OK, that is an exaggeration, but you know what I mean.

Coming back in the car my body was weak with exhaustion and the circulating energy. My body and mind was crying out for sleep and wanted shutting off. The journey back was merely passing through a tunnel of motorway lights.  I fell into my bed around 11pm with the energies still circulating and finally I could shut down.

Sleep was mad with major dreaming going on, the dreams were so strong that I was still dreaming when I woke up, and continued with dreaming images floating back to me as I was getting on with things until late morning.

This is when I asked, WHY AM I SO AFFECTED BY THIS STUFF and what does this mean??
 I went back to bed to a meditation to clear my system and get calm.

A few things came to me about myself, which may be true for others:
different aspects of myself are tied up in my relationships,
or rather I have different aspects going on, whereby a part of myself is shown up to be present/or not present in my relationship with for example my daughter, my son, my partner, my sister and so on...
and this is true with each each relationship I have.

This is a relationship world, whereby we exist and experience ...
through the world of our RELATIONSHIPS. 
It is our relationship with our different aspects that bring forth the change in consciousness.
 It is our relationship with things like LOVE, like SELF, like Mother energy, father energy.....our personal relationship with our body and our relationship with our mind, soul, spirit, and with OTHER...which are each faceted off into separate relationship portals....
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WHEN ACTUALLY, in REALITY IT IS ALL ONE~~each 'seemingly outer' relationship is a merely a facet of OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH OUR own Inner SELF, but they are seen and experienced as fragmented outward into many different external relationships....like many ribbons coming off a maypole, ribbons or threads of self.....

....and I need, at this moment to pull them altogether into the ONE relationship with SELF.

That way I am not fragmented as each ribbon uses up its small portion of limited energy resource. When there is true unification of the self, into the pole as it were, then there is unification with source and then you are a personification of the ONE, by being ONE within yourself.
The constellation of YOU pulls all its power into the ONE of self and reflecting the ONENESS.

While we keep these ribbons floating out there, in the belief that they are separate to us.. or separate to our internal workings, and while we treat them as aspects that are 'different' to us, so that we may then  compartmentalise them as 'Other than the truth of what what we are'...
...eg. Worker, Employer, Employee, Mother, Father, daughter, son, Guru, Aspirant, good and bad, black and white, and so on... each requiring different attention and priority and ebergy to drive them on, we assign to them different role play and archetypical behaviour and thus we LIVE IN and accept outside patterns or programs that we believe are necessary
...We are leading ourselves in a not very merry dance of trying to be what we are not and expecting others to adhere to patterns and behaviours that they are not either..it is illusory.
.....What we are doing is reducing the full power of being in the 'ONE' at all times, in  each MOMENT.

Each ribbon shows a fragmented aspect of self when not unified, and are seen as separate units to be understood and 'dealt with' separately ...units such as money, each  relationship with 'other' we have, our spirituality, and relationships we have with everything in our lives, eg, work, death, aspiration, inspiration....
... everything is separated and compartmentalised so that EGO can deal with it.

All are ribbons that dance around the maypole. How we are in  those relationships are dictated by the EGO, The EGO keeps the parts of  self, separate from self.... because ego does not know that self is actually a streamlined body of source energy that is in continuous flow with source energy...and therefore EGO exhausts itself by separating stuff out, to deal with it and contain it separately.



Anyway, so I am contemplating this....in my meditation this morning, I felt so weak, nauseous with the masses of energy play over the weekend, plus the mass of people and relationship energy coming to me last night. I had been exhausted on the journey back, and been in a deep sleep and was still dreaming as I  awoke....

So in meditation  I ask to merge with my higher self,
 beings of light
and guides
that will help me with this...I wanted unification with self.

Then I could see all the hugging going on last night..., I see arms...
Then I could see many arms on one body.
Then I could see  'Kali'....
Kali energy, 'black' and beautiful was merging with me. The beautiful KALI soft and strong, caring and ONE.

I do not know anything about Kali, apart from 'Kali the destroyer' and the blue or black lady god with several arms, so I looked up Kali and found some material., but my mind isn't taking it in, It doesn't need to, it can't really. 

My mind desperately wants to be kept in the 'loop' that the spiritual stuff is sweeping me through...so  I am learning to unify in myself for this to happen, then there will be no different aspects where mind is separate....The aim is for just one big unified me...with a few arms on each side for all the hugging.

So to me the Kali energy is essence to the evolutionary story.
First we put things in place in our lives, in this episode of our evolution, in this manifest universe,  such as parents, situations, relationships, events, downfalls, etc. that forward our individual evolution episode; chaos or harmony, it is a dance that our souls must take. It is like immersion into something that will deliver to us what is most needed for our evolution, in this episode. In much the same way that we put a glass of water by the bed, so that when we wake up in the night we can take a drink of water, when it is needed,  it is as simple as that...

Second she reminds us that this is a just episode. Her reminder that death and decay is so that we see  this is illusory only, and a story. Simply put, decay is a reminder that this episode is merely a marking on a road that when passed, has lead you to where you most needed to be, to learn from. Again simply put,  when we go to the fridge to see that the tomatoes are starting to decay...its a reminder that decay and death means that we are not in this episode forever, it is but a passing moment and we are transient, there is decay and there is death but all passes as it should through the episode in which we find ourselves...

Finally Kali reminds that with our arms, we can embrace other, and when we do, we embrace ourselves, because we are one. When we hug another, we hug an aspect of ourselves that is out there on a ribbon of our maypole. We are learning that we are One. A unified self will learn that we are all aspects of Oneness, and so that starts with self.

If we use our arms to be destructive, we are only harming ourselves.
Didn't you ever wonder why they call guns, ammunition, explosives and weapons 'ARM's
or armoury?

Michaela.


KALI- 'DAS MAHAVIDYAS' KALI, THE SUPREME Goddess Is the source of all 'energies' and the feminine divinities are principally her emanations, as she is conceived of in innumerable forms.
The 'Knowledge" aspect of Kali is represented by a sakti-cluster of ten Goddesses known as Dasa-Mahavidyas, the Ten Great or Transcendental Wisdoms.
These feminine energies together encompass the entire knowledge of the universe.

I. The first Mahavidya is Kali herself, as the power of Time and the other forms are:
II. Tara, the Roetential of recreation;
III. Sodast. 'sixteen", the power of perfection, fullness; 
IV. Bhuvanesvari. supporter of all existence, space-consciousness;
V. Chinnamasta. the end of existence, the distributor of life energy;
VI. Bhairavi, the active power of destruction;
VII. Dhumarati, the power of darkness, inertia;
VIII. Bagala, destroyer of negative forces;
IX. Matanqi. the power of domination, dispeller of evil;
X. Kamala. the state of reconstituted unity.

Each of the Goddesses has a specific cosmic function. Together, as the power of wisdom, they awaken the worshipper to the illusion of existence.
The Sakti-cluster of the Mahavidyas as a whole reflects the dynamic unity of existence, in which all aspects of life, the darkest, the purest, the most forceful and the inert, are coined to form a whole, a vision of unity in diversity.
http://www.trinicenter.com/Egypt/kali.htm


http://www.goddess.ws/kali.html

Read about how Kali defeated the demons

An explanation of Mother Kali's picture

Kali comes from the Sanskrit root word Kal which means time. There is nothing that escapes the all-consuming march of time. In Tibetan Buddhism Her counterpart is male with the name Kala. Mother Kali is the most misunderstood of the Hindu goddesses. The Encyclopedia Britannica is grossly mistaken in the following quote, "Major Hindu goddess whose iconography, cult, and mythology commonly associate her with death, sexuality, violence, and, paradoxically in some of her later historical appearances, motherly love."

It is partly correct to say Kali is a goddess of death but She brings the death of the ego as the illusory self-centered view of reality. Nowhere in the Hindu stories is She seen killing anything but demons nor is She associated specifically with the process of human dying like the Hindu god Yama (who really is the god of death). It is true that both Kali and Shiva are said to inhabit cremation grounds and devotees often go to these places to meditate. This is not to worship death but rather it is to overcome the I-am-the-body idea by reinforcing the awareness that the body is a temporary condition. Shiva and Kali are said to inhabit these places because it is our attachment to the body that gives rise to the ego. Shiva and Kali grant liberation by removing the illusion of the ego. Thus we are the eternal I AM and not the body. This is underscored by the scene of the cremation grounds.

Of all the forms of Devi, She is the most compassionate because She provides moksha or liberation to Her children. She is the counterpart of Shiva the destroyer. They are the destroyers of unreality. The ego sees Mother Kali and trembles with fear because the ego sees in Her its own eventual demise. A person who is attached to his or her ego will not be receptive to Mother Kali and she will appear in a fearsome form. A mature soul who engages in spiritual practice to remove the illusion of the ego sees Mother Kali as very sweet, affectionate, and overflowing with incomprehensible love for Her children.

Ma Kali wears a garland of skulls and a skirt of dismembered arms because the ego arises out of identification with the body. In truth we are beings of spirit and not flesh. So liberation can only proceed when our attachment to the body ends. Thus the garland and skirt are trophies worn by Her to symbolize having liberated Her children from attachment to the limited body. She holds a sword and a freshly severed head dripping blood. As the story goes, this represents a great battle in which she destroyed the demon Raktabija. Her black skin represents the womb of the quantum unmanifest from which all of creation arises and into which all of creation will eventually dissolve. She is depicted as standing on Shiva who lays beneath Her with white skin (in contrast to Her black or sometimes dark blue skin). He has a blissful detached look. Shiva represents pure formless awareness sat-chit-ananda (being-consciousness-bliss) while She represents "form" eternally supported by the substratum of pure awareness.

By not understanding the story behind Mother Kali it is easy to misinterpret Her iconography. In the same way one could say that Christianity is a religion of death, destruction and cannibalism in which the practitioners drink the blood of Jesus and eat his flesh. Of course, we know this is not the proper understanding of the communion ritual.

Attaching the idea of sexuality to Mother Kali has no basis in Her at all. There is nothing that associates Her with sexuality in the Hindu stories. In fact it is just the opposite. She is one of the few Goddesses who is celibate practicing austerity and renunciation!

The notion that She is the goddess of death, sex and violence is simply utter nonsense. When we study the life of the great saint Ramakrishna or the great poet saint Ramprasad (both famous Kali worshippers), or listen to the traditional Hindu devotional songs to Kali, there is no hint of this death-sex-violence notion. This can also be confirmed by going to any of the Hindu websites such as www.hindunet.comand reading about Mother Kali. Also recommended is the book Kali: The Black Goddess of Dakshineswar, by Elizabeth Harding. Also there is a beautiful and genuine Kali temple in Laguna Beach, California and it may be visited on-line at www.kalimandir.org. Kali is the goddess of enlightenment or liberation. 




Kali Yantra