Where 'HOME' is what I AM.
Okay, so here is where I get to chip in.
Its been a strange couple of weeks...with the last weekend even more strange, chaotic and challenging...but now I found some solid ground. Me.
It has been like stepping on slippery stepping stones through a virtual reality game...
[Strangely, just to add to that description, I actually went on some (slippery moving stepping stones in the shape of mushrooms) after a very surreal Virtual Reality ride, a few days back in Winter Wonderland, in London's Hyde Park. Wow it was seriously mad.
In the VR ride I thought I was flying, it was actually very good.
But without the VR headsets you see the clunky construction and the effort involved to lure people in, like the bleakness of turned-off slot machines so prevalent in our societies. The VR ride was actually good, but minutes later the ride was over...it cannot be maintained as it has no substance. So then you have landed, you are back in a clunky ride car....and you step out back to reality. Then there are wonky swervy paths to take you back to reality....you have to step on mushroom stepping stones through a lagoon...(more like a swamp) to walk yourself back into your body and out of the game, I guess you need to climatise yourself, and get yourself back down to the ground.]
So today, Monday, after two solid days of spiraling DOWN, (PURGING OLD STUFF) I suddenly felt better. I was putting the pieces of the last few weeks together and came up with a triumph, I actually feel good about it all, even the horrible bits.
Astrological minefields had cut me off, mid flight, and dragged me back down to 25 years ago....whats happening now?
Well I can't really explain, and that is a first!
But what I can say is this:
A few weeks ago I bought a crystal unicorn key-ring, as a symbol of 'purity of heart' so that I consciously don't do or say anything without running it through the 'purity of heart'...
a few days after that I found and bought a crystal keyring that says, 'home'...
The story is that I hope to find a new home to move into, and the key ring was a symbol to find a new home that brings with it the beautiful life I am looking for...
Backstory is, I had a big BLIP when I moved into this home July 2016. It was in despair and not what I wanted. This house ticked only a few of the boxes, but not the essential ones I had in my heart (maybe reflecting the voids or gaps in my own heart). And so I want to get over that BLIP and finally move into my dream place....to someplace that moves my heart and reflects my love of the sea, shells, rocks, cliffs, clouds, nature etc.
But...... during my time here, in my garden I have seen so many beautiful things in nature, and I AM blessed that I am visited by the 'great mystery' often....which I love. This gift never trully left me but when the heart is closed the great mystery has to send birds to catch your attention.
Anyway as with all of us, personal challenges continue, and sometimes its good, sometimes not so good, but it is my journey. This present house shows to me the flags of where I AM at, and I know that now.
I have become fond of this home and lovingly care for its needy parts by creating energy flow through it as best I can.
Know Your home is a reflection of you.
I kept the crystal 'HOME' key-ring in a safe place until I could eventually put it on a key to a NEW home, a new house, a new place, a new me and a new beginning...
Today I realise that waiting for that series of new things to happen would take as long as it takes for me .....
to be it...
know it...
own it....
and so Today I decided to put the 'Home' keyring on my key alongside my crystal unicorn keyring, and that is declaration of
'where I AM is where my heart is, and where my home is.'
I AM my home.
Today, I have got so much 'good' going on~~ that I choose to look to my past and reacquaint myself with the 'me' I was then, 25 years ago. Blundering through the 3d matrix, looking for clarity.
All the time thinking everyone else was probably doing it right and I just didnt know 'how to do this shit. I was just oblivious as to how deep you can go. My pleasant, optimistic, convivial face to the world was seen more as quaint and quirky, and became a cute mask to cover the shock of this 3d world, and the "What the f&*%" emotions that came with it....The 'light' part of me had to fade into the background to let its opposite 'dark' side come to the fore, to see to be, to live a while in the 3d and have existence of its own.
The dark part of me was given the 'space, opportunity, triggers and environment' it needed to come to the fore to be experienced in this life period of my story.
It was the time and the place for the 'dark side' to come through.
We all have our very own Dr.Jeckyl and Mr Hide. Some of us deny the presence of our (hidden secret) low vibrational self , we neglect, despise or deny these aspects, so we live in low self esteem, but they are to be integrated and brought back into the self, to be the 100% self ~ that we need to be sovereign.
Different times and different lives call for the dark presence to be experienced.
But always call on purity of the heart when we realise this is what is happening, to move through these experiences without judgement so that we don't get stuck in them.
So now I AM able to see the journey that she, the me of 25 years ago, went through...
and I applaud her. She deserves everything.
Well done me.
Getting my stuff ready today to go out, and at the moment when I thought about getting my new, and as yet untouched, shiney crystal 'HOME' keyring, out of its box and connecting it onto the ring next to 'purity of heart' unicorn crystal keyring...
It was then that I absolutely knew ....
I am the key to my heart and my home.
I AM...My home.
I AM my heart and my home.
It is what comes with me everywhere I go. I AM my life, I choose Life.
I AM my KEY.
Michaela.
NB The 'light' part of a person can fade into the background to let its opposite 'dark' side come to the fore, to see, to be, to have existence of its own. But ultimately there is merging and integration, without judgment, and the two blend back into one. This is the Key.
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