WHEN URANUS AND NEPTUNE aligned in the early 1990s, we were initiated into a new cycle of consciousness expansion. This baptism may have occurred subtly for some -- but for others, there was a major, tangible shift in some area of life. If successful, the changes that occurred woke us up in some way (Uranus) and also opened our hearts (Neptune). As a result, we began to engage in life from a new level of personal and spiritual awareness. Uranus and Neptune are presently 45 degrees apart, in a challenging semisquare aspect with each other. They are checking in to see how we have progressed over the past 25 years, and also summoning us to take the next step (or leap) in our consciousness expansion. But, since this is a hard aspect, we may at times feel more pushed and prodded than "summoned."...NOW THAT WE KNOW that the higher purpose of some of our current challenges is to expand our consciousness and open our hearts, what do we do with this information?

NorthPoint Astrology Journal: Your weekly guide to planetary influences December 10 to 16, 2018 by Pam Younghans by ForeverUnlimited

NorthPoint Astrology Journal Your weekly guide to planetary influences December 10 to 16, 2018 by Pam Younghans Aspects of Note This Week All times listed are Pacific Standard Time. For Greenwich Mean Time, add 8 hours. TUE: Mercury quincunx Uranus WED: Mercury enters Sagittarius THU: Neptune trine Ceres SAT: Uranus semisquare Neptune SUN: Sun semisquare Venus, Venus sextile Saturn, Mars sextile Pluto URANUS AND NEPTUNE are in a working relationship right now, bringing their combined influence to bear on our human reality and spiritual growth. As two of the three "transpersonal" planets in astrology, Uranus -- the god of the starry, eternal heavens -- represents the Higher Mind and Cosmic Enlightenment, while Neptune -- the god of the watery depths of the ocean -- represents the High Heart and Divine Oneness. (The third transpersonal planet is Pluto, god of the underworld, who represents Higher Will and Divine Empowerment.) Transpersonal planets share the higher purpose of helping us evolve beyond the level of the personality, into the realms of expanded consciousness, so that we might fulfill the higher destiny of awakening  Heaven on Earth. AS CONSCIOUS BEINGS, we are fully capable of engaging the highest qualities of these transpersonal planets. But, of course, as with all things astrological and in life, there is the possibility of experiencing their more troublesome traits as well. In this regard, astrologer Jan Spiller has written that the transpersonal planets: "... prod us to grow even beyond the boundaries of social awareness, to participation with humankind as a whole, as part of the Universal plan. These urges from the transpersonal planets are always activated, whether we are consciously exploring them or not. When operating unconsciously, Uranus becomes destructive, erratic reactions; Neptune becomes deception; and Pluto becomes the abuse of power." WHEN URANUS AND NEPTUNE aligned in the early 1990s, we were initiated into a new cycle of consciousness expansion. This baptism may have occurred subtly for some -- but for others, there was a major, tangible shift in some area of life. If successful, the changes that occurred woke us up in some way (Uranus) and also opened our hearts (Neptune). As a result, we began to engage in life from a new level of personal and spiritual awareness. Uranus and Neptune are presently 45 degrees apart, in a challenging semisquare aspect with each other. They are checking in to see how we have progressed over the past 25 years, and also summoning us to take the next step (or leap) in our consciousness expansion. But, since this is a hard aspect, we may at times feel more pushed and prodded than "summoned." THE SEMISQUARE is more of a phase than an event, given that Uranus and Neptune have been going in and out of exact aspect since mid 2017. The multiple passes occur because the planets' retrograde (backward motion) phases allow their paths to cross several times. But, whenever the aspect is exact to the degree, we can anticipate that another step in the growth process will unfold, usually within a week or two before or after that date. The fourth of the five exact Uranus-Neptune semisquares occurs this Saturday (the final pass is in May 2019). We are more than half-way through a two-year developmental stage designed to help us transcend the mental (Uranus) and emotional (Neptune) blocks that have limited our advancement. And yet, this week marks just step four of the five-step process, so keep in mind that we are still in school, and not ready for the final exam just yet. NOW THAT WE KNOW that the higher purpose of some of our current challenges is to expand our consciousness and open our hearts, what do we do with this information? One option is to review your personal history, to see what was transpiring from 1990 to 1995, that provided a shift in your awareness. (The year of greatest impact may have been 1993, when Uranus and Neptune were exactly aligned three times.) If you find an event or situation that seems to fit the description, ask yourself how those circumstances ultimately enhanced your self-understanding, and either removed elements from your life that were not for your benefit, or opened doors to new experiences that were consciousness-raising (or both). From there, consider how events in your present-day reality may be working to help you take the next step in the process of evolution that began a quarter of a century ago. Another resource for insights, if you know your natal astrology chart, is to find the house location of 19 degrees of Capricorn. This is the degree where Uranus and Neptune perfected their rendezvous in 1993. The house that holds that degree represents the area of life that was involved at the time. Was it the third house of Communication and Personal Truth? Or the seventh house of Partnership and Commitment? Or perhaps the tenth house of Career and Higher Purpose? (For a brief description of house meanings, please see the "Houses" page of my website.) Even more importantly, do you have planets or asteroids at that degree of Capricorn? Or maybe a planet at 19 degrees of one of the other cardinal signs -- Aries, Cancer, or Libra? If you do, these planets and asteroids represent parts of your personality that would have been significantly affected by the Uranus-Neptune alignment. (See the "Planets" page of my website.) AS YOU PUT theses puzzle pieces together, an image will hopefully start to take shape, one that will give you an overview of the higher purposes of changes that occurred 25 years ago, as well as a new perspective on the challenges you are now working with, which are offering you the chance to graduate to the next level. If you are not aware of any major shifts in your life in the early 1990s -- or if you were not yet in body! -- no worries. Simply consider that you are an integral participant in the process of consciousness expansion that is now underway, and find opportunities to bring an enlightened perspective (Uranus) and compassionate heart (Neptune) to all of your interactions this week and beyond -- in spite of (or perhaps because of) the temptation to close your mind and defend your heart. About the NorthPoint Journal Astrologer Pam Younghans writes this NorthPoint Astrology Journal based on planetary influences and guidance received. Her hope is to offer perspectives and insights that will assist you in utilizing current energies to enhance your life experience and accelerate your spiritual and personal growth. Feel free to share this NorthPoint Journal with others who may enjoy it! When doing so, please forward it in its entirety, including all contact and copyright information. To schedule an astrology reading, please email pam@northpointastrology.com. Visit the "Personal Readings" page at www.northpointastrology.com to learn more about private sessions. Copyright NorthPoint Astrology 2018. All Rights Reserved.

Personal Reflection on this.(notes to self)
I have always been intuitive and a bit psychic but without seeing this in anyone around me, I tended to lock it down, causing me to fall into a destructive pattern of self denial and sacrifice. Emotions became blocked and all the time functioning in a distinctly difficult London environment I was not using the equipment I came in with....Anyway...It looks like I can pin point the time I Woke up.
The breakdown working me towards the breakthrough was happening prior to 1990 but kicked in, when I landed in 1990.

So in personal reflection, looking at the time period of 1990 to 1995 and In answer to:

One option is to review your personal history, to see what was transpiring from 1990 to 1995, that provided a shift in your awareness. (The year of greatest impact may have been 1993, when Uranus and Neptune were exactly aligned three times.) If you find an event or situation that seems to fit the description, ask yourself how those circumstances ultimately enhanced your self-understanding, and either removed elements from your life that were not for your benefit, or opened doors to new experiences that were consciousness-raising (or both). From there, consider how events in your present-day reality may be working to help you take the next step in the process of evolution that began a quarter of a century ago.

 In 1990 I left London and went travelling to Australia for 18 months. This was not a gap year taken by a student before University, it was a desperate need  to leave the old London ways that I had been living, and go find myself. I was 24 and plunged myself into discovering myself in new and challenging situations. I had actually had a life altering, huge consciousness opening experience that stayed with me for about 6 months. I changed as a person and never felt the same again. But the time came to return to London and I experienced the depths of depression and self betrayal. Long story. The story is told in my blog somewhere, (I think it is in "A conversation with Saturn") anyway I immersed myself deep into studying science, and was a fitness instructor. Solidly putting in hours overworking both at college to gain higher qualifications and in the gym where I worked. I started my degree in 1992 in Leicester and for 4 years threw myself into studying higher maths, chemistry, physiology, anatomy, Physics and biology and pharmacology..to gain a degree and so become a pharmaceutical scientist in 1996.

Whats happened since then...More expanding and discovering. I left the pharmaceutical arena because it wasn't for me, I opened up into a new life of being a Mother in 1999 and landed fully in my cancer rising sun. I moved back to London in the attempt to get support from wider family but if anything It was me being the support for the wider family. Big slog, blood sweat and tears....and the next level heart opening was well under way. It was the deepest self plunging experience and I am only just getting myself on even ground, albeit two or three consciousness spirals up. In early 2000's I went back to yoga for awhile and  began training in counselling, took on spiritual development and training and found it came easy to me. I was healing and doing meditation,  and psychic readings and writing all while being immersed in this strange new world of motherhood and primary carer for family. I was Dealing with serious illness with my parents and brother, supporting them and being champion for my brother who was desperately ill and diagnosed schizoprenia. Paperwork, hospital appointments, taxes and bills, school and education systems and supporting my children to grow and be who they actually were not what school and education systems expected them to be.

Now my small ones are large and eat all the food in the house, leave wet towels and juggle with who they are in this life as they both rush out the door to college, seeing friends and their various jobs.  I have helped my children through all through the various growth stages, problems and challenges, all consciousness opening events that occur for them  and which also became consciousness opening doors for me too. Consciousness opening doors occurred for me too through the years of being there for my parents and brother. My father died in 2016 and  my brother died in 2012. Both died of cancer after extremely sad years of suffering with difficult mental and physical health issues. My mother remains and I look after her all the time, I am opening consciousness doors.

With all this consciousness opening I still seem to be in a parallel role and hovering on the outside of normal life, not fully immersing with it. It seems I left it in 1990 and have been walking a parallel life since then. I want to develop myself and open what I AM into being a full 100% 'er.  Not just a person who divides her time between different roles and consciousness agendas. My personal life is not anything like it used to be when I was younger and working, in fact it has spiraled inwards more and more. 

Not many people out there for me. I probably had to re balance myself totally back to some kind of balance because I gave away my power as a young girl to all that was going on around me, I sometimes see that with my teenagers. But  I didn't know who I was, they do. As I got older and towards my adult years I gradually gave up friendships and social stuff that was draining and leaving me 'less than' what I wanted.  I am learning to be 100% in myself so that whatever the situation or relationship, I remain 100%, not dividing myself off and depleting myself by percentages leaving nothing for me.

Being 100% means that you are 100% and you can take on your bigger self,  absorb it and allow 100% of you to function in all that you are and in all that you do.

What happens now?

Through all this, my heart was broken so many times, enough to open it up. Eventually Emotions were able to gush through that formerly were defended or denied,  neither acknowledged nor acted upon.  So these were suppressed and repressed to the point that a large part of me had to be reactivated and reignited. I have My moon in Capricorn and relating to this weeks astrology my Capricorn is in my 7th House. I had DEFENCE mechanisms around my heart, but working toward being 100% means that my heart is becoming fortified and is better able to take on the pulse and push of being an up-spiralling human at this time. 

"...consider how events in your present-day reality may be working to help you take the next step in the process of evolution that began a quarter of a century ago.

Another resource for insights, if you know your natal astrology chart, is to find the house location of 19 degrees of Capricorn. This is the degree where Uranus and Neptune perfected their rendezvous in 1993. The house that holds that degree represents the area of life that was involved at the time. Was it the third house of Communication and Personal Truth? Or the seventh house of Partnership and Commitment?"

So relating to this weeks astrology, and the message above, a clue to what happens now should be found in this Uranus Neptune alignment in 19 degrees Capricorn. So what planets are in Capricorn at 19 degrees, or around 19 degrees. Well funnily enough my moon is in Capricorn, in the 7th House and there are good aspects in my chart to both these transpersonal planets.

(I also have Mercury and Venus in Capricorn So this Phase is obviously impacting me hugely, as it did quarter of a century ago... My Moon is at 17 degrees Capricorn, Mercury is at 24 degrees and Venus is at 22 degrees). How then to proceed in this puzzle

" ... puzzle pieces together, an image will hopefully start to take shape, one that will give you an overview of the higher purposes of changes that occurred 25 years ago, as well as a new perspective on the challenges you are now working with, which are offering you the chance to graduate to the next level." 

7th House
Stasis is achieved. Balancing self and other.
Partnerships, one-on-one commitments, significant others, cooperation, interdependence, projections onto others of aspects of self not yet claimed.
(Natural rulers: Libra/Venus)
Moon
Primary meaning: Emotional well-being, fulfillment
Chart placement shows: What kinds of experience are most emotionally satisfying, and the areas of life that most contribute to emotional fulfillment
Positive expression: Emotionally fulfilled, experiences emotions without being overwhelmed
Negative expression: Self-indulgent, timid, indecisive, moody
(Does not go retrograde)

  

Moon in strong sextile with Neptune

The planetary energies flow together, open into new possibilities, new connections.

This aspect gives an emotionally sensitive, idealistic and loving personality. You possess an ethereal quality, and are a lover of music and the arts. You have the potential for powerful psychic abilities. You are the softhearted type, and you may be too willing to sacrifice yourself for the good of others. You were probably strongly influenced by your home life, and may tend to idealize these formative experiences. You could have issues with self-deception or experience discontent with the practical realities of life. Your home is important to you, and you may change residences frequently in search of your ideal environment, or dream of the ideal romantic attachment without ever finding the perfect mate. You benefit from striving for greater clarity in applying your high ideals to the real world.

  

Moon in trine with Uranus

The planetary energies flow smoothly; the connection is easy and beneficial.

This aspect gives an unique individual with an energetic personality, and with a strong sense of intuition. Novelty excites you. You like to explore new horizons. You enjoy meeting people and have an enthusiasm which is appealing. Your early home life was probably very stimulating and challenging. You may be interested in studying occult realms of thought. You are able to benefit from fundamental transformations of identity in your life, and are quick to take advantage of new opportunities. You are very original and individualistic and may have difficulties in settling down with a steady partner. You can benefit from learning to balance your needs for security with your urge for freedom and experimentation.

Moon is in 17 Degrees Capricorn. 
You are serious and shy and very uncomfortable in those situations where spontaneous and exuberant emotional reactions seem called for. An achiever, you prefer doing practical, worthwhile things that produce tangible results. You need role models to respect, love and emulate. You tend to feel that you're a failure unless you get an important and highly respected position in life. Don't be so hard on yourself! For you, practical needs always win out over emotional considerations. Remember that you too have the right to comfort, security and love. Dutiful and patient, when you make an emotional commitment, you sign on for the long haul -- your love is long- enduring. 

Mercury is in 24 Degrees Capricorn. 
You are a careful thinker, very cautious and conservative. You are quite skillful at organizing, directing and planning activities. Practical and useful things interest you -- you are not attracted to abstract thoughts or ideas. With your tendency to be highly focused and very goal-oriented, you have a good head for business. But beware of a tendency to be narrow-minded and dogmatic. Your sense of humor tends toward being earthy and slapstick crude. 

Venus is in 22 Degrees Capricorn. 
You tend to keep your feelings under control -- emotions are only released in serious or important situations. You are distrustful of others whose behavior could be judged excessive or immoderate. As such, you prefer to relate only to those who are older than you or to those whose position is such that respect and duty are more important for both of you than passion or emotional response. Be careful, however, of relationships that are merely based on practicality or utility or you will ultimately be lonely. 

OMG. Michaela