Saturn of the prison cell, that keeps you back in until time after time, you have learned what you needed to learn. Only then from the eighth house do you get to 'see' the prison bars and then you get to walk through them, as you give yourself permission and Jupiter calls you through. The expansiveness of Jupiter calls you through. A meditation.

.....with Jupiters hand, I was coming to the bars of the prison cell.
 I saw the bars were of my making, (eighth house) of what has gone before, the rules and regulations, the cannots the will nots, the shall nots, the people, mainly the people from life after life. But the bars are my response and reactions to all that has gone before. Stone and rigid, impassable. We create these, as a by product of experiences and emotions. As a by product of fear. How synchronistic is it that a book I am reading now, 'Death of a Matador' (Barnaby Conrad), is all about fear, beautifully written the reader lands in the landscape of the Matador's fear,  where fear has become the living breathing 'all' of his realm.


Until you 'see' your fears they stay bound up and unconscious bundles of information that form your decisions and inform your actions, beliefs and more.

So to the bars. As in meditation these visions are symbolic and played out by symbols. In the inner dark the bars at first looked like metal prison bars and I knew instantly what they were. and stayed considering them for a while. All is energy however, and soon I could see the energy that made them up. Liquid and dark light moving, streaming up and down the columns forming the bars.

Eventually I knew they had come from me, my  mind, my beliefs and were forming my rigid restrictions.

To break the mould.

I softened the energy coming from me that formed the bars. I found softness and care in myself for myself. With practice I could visualise myself passing through the bars to the other side. The bars need not be a barrier. The bars are showing themselves now that I am ready to see them...and to see them means they become less hidden, to be seen means they are coming into the light.

To come into the light means that light is flowing through them and they are in the process of being transformed.

Jupiter's energy of expansion is on the other side. Where Saturn keeps sending you back till you get it right, and keeps you behind the bars that become more denser with failure, low self esteem and lack of self love...It is Jupiter that sees you trying to find and fill the cup that nourishes you back to life...and Jupiter waits watching from the other side of the bars, till you can be guided by Jupiter's hand to pass through bars, into expansiveness and the realm of joy. 

In the light of day, when you come up against the bars, you may see the actual bars in your mind, or feel  a strong hesitation, a barricade, a fear...simply breathe and pass through them to the other side, because they are of you, made up warnings made to yourself by yourself and if you get to this point, you can renegotiate the energy flowing from you to them that keeps them in place, and keeps you from the place where you want to be.

Michaela.
Death of a Matador.
'Pitilessly realistic novel of a maestro matador fighting his last fight, when he knows that his best days are over'

https://www.astrology-zodiac-signs.com/astrology/houses/eighth/

 When we speak of the eighth house of a personal horoscope, we can say with full confidence that this is the most hated of all houses. The strange thing hides in the fact that there is really nothing to hate here except ourselves and our own limitations, fears, and taboos. This is a house that hides all things that are dirty, our trash and our anger, our emotions, relationships and things that we need to set free from, as well as everything we push under the rug, refusing to deal. In its final manifestation, this is the house of death, coming as the end of the road after too many things have been dismissed for our body to handle, but also as an inevitable part of life. It is also called the House of Reincarnation, while its Latin motto mors literally means “death.”

Areas of Life

Eighth house relates to the sign of Scorpio and always speaks of hate and revenge, in whatever shape, color or manifestation we see it in our lives. It rules all things that are dead, buried and gone. The key mystery of it is in the fact that it also magically speaks of our conception. To truly understand rivers of our eighth house, we have to fully accept that there is no beginning without an end and vice versa. Any planet set in our eighth house is a planet we fail to see in all its glory. Even when Mars or Pluto are here, given their strong dignity due to the connection this house has with Scorpio, they still tend to be dismissed and thrown into trash, one way or the other. What’s one man’s gain is another man’s loss, and this is best seen though the symbolism of the eighth house, for it represents someone else’s possessions and everything we get from those who left us behind.

This is a house of change, all curves and bumps in the road, and everything our unconscious has to send our way to protect us from life-threatening situations or throw us into them. This is the place of danger and fear as much as it is a place of liberation. Its seed thrown from its preceding seventh house is strangely connected to relationships. We can see that all people we shoved aside accumulate here and create spasms, dissatisfactions, and more fears since we didn’t allow change and acceptance. As all things that are taboo, this is a place where all intimate sexual relationships go and one where we can find all kinky preferences, choices hard to understand by others, and things we are ashamed of. In another extreme, this is a house of committed and deep relationships, those that shine beyond vows of marriage, giving promise for lives that are yet to come.

The beauty of the eighth house is seen through our ability to transform, break our cocoons and become colorful, flying butterflies. It is a place of regeneration and one we turn to when we are wounded and lost, so carefully estimate the position of all that is hidden there. It will show us a path of our shadows and what we have to face in order to grow, as well as all we need to turn to when we aren’t happy, or when we have something that needs to be forgiven, changed, or simply accepted as it is. This is a place that transforms us into better people, so it is really not a house to hate but rather to worship.