And yeah It takes a very long time ( to work through this?) A nudge from my post : " Tuesday, 1 September 2026. The post that was held back in draft from June 9th" a deep dive back into it because I am Now nudged to delve deeper.....AND I know that this all sounds woo-woo but the 3d formation has its foundation in subconscious beliefs and programming, that when they become loud enough you have to investigate by doing the Shadow work. And mostly formed in the early preverbal stages, by the child's inabilty to articulate or process it's belonging/space/rules/regulations you have to see the imagery that springs out of it, to know/understand the underlying emphasis and the emotions buried in it hidden like glyphs, before you can dismantle it. //// " I have always carried an eerie feeling with me, like the feeling of an empty park or playground at twilight when there is no one around.....and ..... Last 6 months have been intensifying with emotional pains. " Continues below....

"The image came up of a park and the playground space. It was eerie. Not especially the park near me, but of the empty TWILIGHT park and playground of my earlier world, as a child, in my psyche. As children we would roam in feral gangs into the three or four parks in the nearby area, and sometimes be there til late. In the visual meditation, in this space it was twilight, and scary, and being in the playground was not a place to be for a young child. There were two men also, but my images played down their role, and is something to possibly come back to if I decide to delve deeper. But the overall narrative was along the lines of: Being in the park was safer than Home. Which does not seem strange to me, but obviously questions arise which I have addressed in earlier healing. The feeling I am left with, is " Its safer being in a twilight zone, in a playground and park, where children remain, who do not feel safe in their homes....." XXXX. So I have been Nudged to get to a deeper layer of perspective. As I woke up with the image of me being a young child..very small on the swing in the park with two men. One on either side. One was a fully formed man..on the other side was a man not yet fully formed into its 3d form...i.e as if waiting to form when the other man is no longer there...so on standby. Spooky huh. The child, me, was really only a baby, also not fully formed, but as if light growing into a small form, sitting on a swing between these two. "men", Handlers. The chains links of the swing were symbolic as was the swinging back and forth symbolic. The handler in 3d form, locked into the swing apparatus with me, was in position to keep me tied in restrictions on the swing, only able to go back and forth, back and forth, not ever able to leave the swings in the park. eerie. When that handler died, the second man was in standby to form into a 3d figure that would take the place of the handler and represent the restrictions of keeping me small, tied into the swing, only able to go back and forth...Never leaving the seat of the swing. To grow and become outside the periemeter of the swing apparatus. So tied to the seat of the swing...handlers keeping the 'child' light locked in, never to leave the eerie park. The subconscious imagery was left untouched until I had discovered the anger that had arisen from the ongoing situation and could be formed into something I could finally actually see. The information coming from this was the emittance of energy from a child like infant like energy (in the swing seat) in response to be locked in and locked down by a figure or figures who would not let me leave/grow and expand. The undertstanding of it was of the quality of the child, where it was not undertsood...but had been the programming. Metaphor and symbold. The rage had come slowly, not understood. A child like query/a child like unquestioning/ until the feelings grew into like welts around a manacled limb that was not believing the perspective but had been programmed to LIVE that perspective...And had become cognitive dissonance. Arriving at the this morning, I decided to see the handlers and where we were all attached to the swing, by the strong metal/iron links in repeating cycles of a handlers being formed to replace the old outgrown handlers...but me staying a child light forever locked onto a programming that was hard to see outside of the subconscious playground in which my perspective had been forced into cognitive dissonance. So what to do. It is a competition. I have to overcome the link swings and remove the programming. By changing the Perspective of being locked into a 'Status Quo' of being HELD captive by a repeating formation of a handler that is keeping me there. and to which I am locked into. OMG...The first thing that springs out could be the overriding Male dominance over the feminine, where the fullness and magic of feminine grace is contained and not only is not appreciated, is not welcome to have voice let aone full presence. The goddess is buried, and locked in chains. Which is the story mysical writers have been talking about since the gnostics. XXXXX So to today the Chiron Intuition youtube below is bringing a close-out on perspective, the challenge and lesson becomes a marker on the journey. The path is to see the challenge. The question of empowerment and disempowerment. Conflict and avoidance of conflict, learning to work through something regardless of the competitor's energy. The standing stones...what was written in stone. But it is NOT the stone that the competing is with, it is the glyphs that Need to be deciphered and freed from. Trick or treat, implanted. Trick or treat or both. A side note here Is that my rising Sign Is CAncer the crab...and they have the habit of going around in circles or side to side...never a direct approach! We need to make the approach more rounded, and more softer, to make the outcome more paletable. So MAYBE it is to LET the anger through, the anger that was stoppered and confined the natural insincts of the Lion, to stifle the roar, which diffused into something so big that it become the thing that became the problem, that could not be seen, expressed and so, stifled any natural and appropriate response to a dangerous or unwelcome situation. Disempowered by not seeing the power of the self, being confused or gaslighted, having the blanket over the head of the hostage. XXXXX Self Resisted or Denied power! Denied power by the self, due to the programming. None shall pass....Maybe it IS the anger that releases the iron links in the chains. Where Iron is carried in the blood. Update to follow. Until Next time. Michaela.