Note to self: My moon and Venus and Mercury are in Capricorn (17 - 24 degrees), in the seventh house. I dreamt last night about a boyfriend from years back, I was 14 and he was 15/16. I was not ready for a boyfriend but was moving into that realm. He was OK, not great, but I liked him. He was as vague as me drifting through those young years, and we were only skimming into the girlfriend-boyfriend thing. I liked him really, he was similar to me in that he was still quite sweet, but the environment around was not sweet ...It was a vague dream but with a deep sense of something uncomfortable, waiting for a decision, an explanation, making a stand... or just rolling with it. I was not aware of the boundary thing, and I was on the precipice of stepping into these type of relationship vectors...The dream brought back to me the weirdness of 'liking this boy' but not caring to commit in the way these type of relationships lead you to. The energy of the dream was awkward as if I was stepping into an 'earth bound set-up' for which I had no real substance to draw upon, and so was supposed to learn...which in truth is what we do..we all learn more about ourselves through our different relationships.
The awkwardness of stepping into fledgling relationships was an alien experience for me. I wasn't sure I actually wanted one, and I probably didn't need anyone to complete me at such a young age so why is there a developmental step to plunge ourselves in. I felt alien to it, and the best way to describe the feeling is like visiting a different tribe and agreeing to join in one of the tribal dances, so that you don't offend the tribe you are visiting. This kind of alien awkwardness was apparent for the next 3 boyfriends but I got used to it.
Anyway in the dream I also liked someone else, and the dream showed how I wanted to be free to like who wanted, (maybe to stay the same and not expand into the bigger issues of growing up in a very strange world of human expectations)...but I kind of 'felt' peer pressure to step into the boundaried world of commitment to someone else, in this case someone who was as young and as unworldly as me, but who was wearing the 'tag' of being my 'boyfriend', and at that time I had not learned the need to know my own boundaries.
In reality it didn't last very long and other boyfriends came and went, each time, I was stepping into these deep complex relationships commitments with people that stayed the same... as I was growing emotionally mentally and deeply spiritually, and not being share it with the young male adolescent i was hanging around with.
Mostly these past 'boyfriend relationships' soon became a dull ache until I got the inner nudge to move on.
It must be synchronicity that I had this dream on the day before new moon/solar eclipse in Capricorn, and it is my Moon, Venus and mercury that are in Capricorn..which is my seventh house... the house of partnerships.
Partnerships: Do we need them??? Well if we consider how many we have, and my House of partnerships is where my female love stuff is, Venus and my mercury communication is, so it must be a huge learning ground for me.
I communicate through my partnerships, or... do I? Or do I hold back ? Do I still feel awkward? etc etc.
In response to previous video, we are told that this eclipse is the book end to the last 19 years cycle...so what were we doing 19 years ago. Well, for me, appropriate to this, I had just taken my fulltime partnership with my partner of many years into the BIG commitment of parenthood. We moved from Leicester back down to London, rented a flat and set up home with our new baby.
Michaela.
Video in previous blog.
Ps. in relation to my dream, and solar eclipse in Capricorn: in the video at 16.04 mins she begins to talk about Capricorn relating directly to the level of our Maturity. We start out on an instinctual level, a place of survival possibly fear based. Once we get better at living on the earth plane we understand the rules better, and we seek recognition in the earth plane, but we are taking more responsibility for what we want to manifest. The last phase of Capricorn is about growing spiritually and understanding that when we contribute to others we are also giving to ourselves. Love this....The Capricorn journey... so apt for me.
Video in previous blog.
AstrologerCoach: Powerful New Moon/Solar Eclipse in Capricorn, Jan. 2019
Ps. in relation to my dream, and solar eclipse in Capricorn: in the video at 16.04 mins she begins to talk about Capricorn relating directly to the level of our Maturity. We start out on an instinctual level, a place of survival possibly fear based. Once we get better at living on the earth plane we understand the rules better, and we seek recognition in the earth plane, but we are taking more responsibility for what we want to manifest. The last phase of Capricorn is about growing spiritually and understanding that when we contribute to others we are also giving to ourselves. Love this....The Capricorn journey... so apt for me.
Why do we choose this partnership? Is it for love or money? Practical reasons? Social considerations? There are many reasons for uniting with another. We may choose to fill voids we see in ourselves. We may simply want the company and companionship of another.
HOUSES – SEVENTH
THE SEVENTH HOUSE: THE HOUSE OF PARTNERSHIPS
The Seventh House is commonly referred to as the House of Partnership. With this house, we see a shift away from the self toward another — a partner. By cooperating with and relating to another we unite for the purpose of achieving something. Purpose is important to the Seventh House — the act of accomplishing something great or small for the self, the partnership and even society as a whole. In uniting with another, we also become a more valuable member of our world: we make a contribution, one small cog in the wheel of life. We have purpose. Cooperation and partnership help to expedite our purpose in life.
Through a partnership, we fill out our essential being. Suddenly, we see ourselves in context. Through a partnership in which we work, play, love and/or create, we are fully formed and completed. The other half helps to make us whole. Ultimately, how we relate to others will help to define the success we have as a human being and as a member of humankind.
The Seventh House shows us that partnerships can take many forms: marriage, business relationships, contracts, legalities, negotiations and agreements. We will cooperate to a greater or lesser extent in these varied partnerships. The quality of that cooperation, in essence how we relate to the other, is key to the Seventh House. Why do we choose this partnership? Is it for love or money? Practical reasons? Social considerations? There are many reasons for uniting with another. We may choose to fill voids we see in ourselves. We may simply want the company and companionship of another. The partnerships we form say a great deal about ourselves and also serve to teach us much. This house wants us to know that the quality of our partnerships will enhance our lives, make them fuller, more special and better for everyone.
Tensions within a partnership also serve to teach us lessons. For this reason, the Seventh House also focuses on the darker side of our unions. Divorce, lawsuits and treaties all fall within this house. At its worst, a partnership may create enemies — and on a more global scale, these rifts can deteriorate into war. It is our reaction to this adversity which will shape the partnerships yet to come.
The Seventh House is ruled by Libra and the planet Venus.
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