Interior re-design. Sun's coming home. Summer boot camp.

From yesterdays post we are told
"You are always manifesting, there is never a time that you are not manifesting, but the key to manifesting more of what you want is to release your focus upon the things that are not working and focus intensely upon all the things that are. All the thoughts that bring you satisfaction, that bring you a sense of peace, or joy or love or happiness. Only then can you be assured that more will flow to you that brings you more feelings that feel good."



So this morning I wanted to explore this idea further. 

In my 'day' mind I have great ideas, lovely sunny ideas. One of things I like is interior design, and love gazing over design ideas in Houzz. I love colours, putting things together, forming a good energy flow in my home. Money is not free flowing and I rent so I work with what I have and know. Also  I love people, I love talking, I love communicating. I love being happy. I have always been an optimist. I love knowledge reading and sharing it. I like being with like minded people sharing this stuff, laughing chatting. it is a very yellow, sunny, image that I hold. I love being in spirit, inspired from the heart.....so why is this collaboration of LOVES and strengths Not manifesting me 'out of' certain conditions and 'into' desired ones.. Is it deep down programming that continues to clunk away in the background?

Why, is most of my time and energy taken  up with tweaking, tidying, making small changes here and there, to just  'improve' what is....AND WHY is my ' What is'  very far from the sunny room in my dreams and desires.? Why is it a 'drive' to pick up after everyone, wash, clean and generally get bogged down in service to everyone other than my dreams?

Why AM I so very far from the sunny room in my dreams. Everything from the moment I get up to go to  sleep is about chores, and doing for others, service and duties i.e. more dragging back to south node in Virgo, of service and duty, where everything, For some reason, is not quite right? 

So you see, what I See around me, my programmed experience of service, (derived from a slave gene where we are constantly bombarded with evidence  that we are not sovereign....is what I attend to. To the detriment of focussing and attending to dreams.

The program of service in my drive, is about attending to the environment in which I find myself....
My experiences and relationship roles are prescripted  from a sense of service or duty to fulfil....
Not a sunny room scenario at all. 

So manifesting is something that requires focus and attention, what are we attending to? Are they our dreams  and desires?  
Yes/NO...
If NO, then why are we spending our waking moments living and reenacting anything but our dreams?

I went into a meditation state but wasn't getting anywhere, I stayed alert and then decided to ask the UNIVERSE, as it is the universe who delivers what we are manifesting.

Then I could see an internal room, a dark 'operations' room, which was in total darkness,




There was a 'me' there too, in this operations room, and something that looked like a large old heap of metal junk, on a table that seemed to have the 'me' in that room in service to it. 

Meditations and internal visions can sometimes be not very nice but remember they are symbolic images that we can relate to and tell the story from.

My first thought was is this old heap of metal junk a clunky old computer??? Is it, even worse, an implant in my etheric field?? or both? 

The 'me' I saw was very ghostly, but we had some kind of communication. The ghost me was hooked to this metal junk, in this dismal dark room, way off the beaten track, so I surmised this must be a part of my subconscious. My deep subconscious 'moon' room, but it had become compromised.

The visiting 'me', Me, pulled back some heavy dark curtains and let some light in. What is this shit?
It came to me that this was my moon connection, but my astrological moon is Capricorn and that is quite a dark moon to have. A capricorn Moon is DRY, 

THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THE MOON:

You are determined, responsible, disciplined, patient, committed.

THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON:

You are rigid, pessimistic, opinionated, materialistic, over-exacting.

Being useful and productive are basic needs for Lunar Capricorns. Because you generally keep your emotions under check, you come across as competent people.  However turbulent your emotions may be under the surface, you keep cool-headed—and you come across as steady and reliable.

This position of the Moon suggests a desire for clear boundaries and realistic goals. Not much for taking risks in life, you look for safety and security in most everything you do. 

Anyway, so a brisk revision of Capricorn moon stuff, completed, it came to me that there was a DARK 

SIDE to the moon, that some people say is utilised by an off world agenda to  control and manipulate 

this world.

So the dark room, of my dark subconscious , and the metal junk deposited therein is a symbol of 

etheric implantation as associated with a control mechanism of sorts by manipulation laid down in 

place, by us, earth inhabitants?

Or by non humans, who created an artificial moon to pull the strings and keep earth inhabitants 
in a dense state (heavy, low energy, depleted ) required for us remain tied within gravity's pull 
on the rock...So, a bad alien agenda.

Or to maintain  physical conditions (anomally) required to simply keep us 'dense enough' to remain 
within gravity's pull on the rock so we don't float off the rock as we become lighter and of higher
 vibration? So either a 'BAD', 'bad' or plain just 'part of the big plan' alien agenda.... 

Anyway me getting a view of this inner room is an  indicator that, things "already uncomfortable" ,
 i.e. my moon in Capricorn, (a dry hard to work with moon)  are being hampered and manipulated 
even further to really squeeze the juice of out my light and energy source out of my MOON (my feminine
/yin/dark/intuitive i.e all things subconscious). 

Therefore it doesn't matter how many yellow sunny rooms in my HOUSE, the dark one with a big heap 
of  obsolete junk embedded into it and manned by a 'ghost me' was perhaps running the 'manifestation 
show'. 

Is this all a blast from a gloomy past? Or is it that the 'heap of junk' is merely the symbol of 
 calcification, of my own demise into density. Or is it the catalogue that shows my Karma,  the backlog 
and reenactment of my own inaction or action? Or is it the result of my Capricornian bulldozer, 
bulldozing its judgments and opinions through the finer intimacies of life???

Whatever it is that is that Universe is showing me , It is being shown to me, and I do as always, tweak and tidy things up, pick up, improve things here and there and my let my Sun Self give the kiss of life to renew things in the subconscious room.

So as it was the universe brought me to inspect this, I used my sense of self ,as my strengths  and 

I , the 'sunny' me, gave the ghostly me a big hug, and said " take a seat," while I get to the bottom of 
this.  I opened the curtains and let more light flood into the dark hidden room. 

Not really sure what to do with the ghostly me, who may just be in charge of  running programs in the 
dreary operations room until sunny me gets there....

So until I know, I ignore that question while I play with various interiors and decide on a lemon sofa. 

If this was the 'operations' then that heap of junk was going, and I would give the room a thorough  
clean up...

That's when we have fun with the interiors colours and use vision boards.

 I saw a new streamline machine, 'pop' itself into place onto a oak finished desk,  in the place of 
where the old heap of junk was running programs from.

I choose palms and huge wall high and wide windows with views of stunning green countryside all around.

If This is the manifestions office,  it has to match a sunnier vibration. I put in 
lemon furniture and accessories in red and khaki with splashes of  fern green.....

My manifestation vibration has had an interior re-design to a lounge type office space, my office, and 
I can change the furniture any time I like.

The  last word goes to the previous post by Sarah Varcas.

"Inner turmoil that would usually dominate days may pass by in an hour. In a mysterious and yet timely 
blessing, intense emotion will contain the key to its own demise and we’ll have the eyes to find it, even
 if they’re filled with bitter tears as we do."

Todays Summer Boot camp continues with the demise of the old hidden junk room that was running 
dark side of the moon programs.

Michaela.